#whitpersonal

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positive affirmations

i matter.

i’m allowed to take up space.

relax my shoulders

& express my thoughts.

i’m allowed to feel, emote.

(doing is not ‘illogical’ or 'irrational’ -

don’t let anyone tell you that.

don’t let anyone simplfy you

so you fit their narrative.)

i am not worthless.

i am not something static, passive and unmoving, faded into obscurity

even if that’s what they want

even if it makes it easier.

i am someone complex, multifaceted and intricate

and that’s okay.

i am not going to surpress myself for anyone’s benefit

so they don’t have consider my feelings when they hurt me, when they demeane me, when they reduce me

because i matter.

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ugh but anyway why cant i ever look pretty

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i woke up crying like 3 hours ago & im still intermittently crying and only just moving now because my legs stopped being numb bc lol trauma i guess

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Speaking of sleep I wasn't really all that tired so I was like oh I'll get into bed and go on my phone for a while all good all good But now I'm curled up im like NOPE I'm gonna pass out so goodnight friendos!

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my computer is dead :( and I have no money to fix it :(((((((( I was just gonna start a new fallout playthrough as well. And i dunno if I’ll be able to have it fixed by the time fo4 comes out :’(

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wowwwie that Li meta post sure blew up a little bit! (I put a notification block on it the moment i started to see it gain notes b/c i assumed ppl were gonna tag hate with it and say im stupid because lol ~self esteem/anxiety issues)

but yeah! I’m super happy that it got good responses ^_^ 

and hello new followers! this is the dr. li appreciation station pls enjoy your stay

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honestly thinking of Madison and Catherine having pre-war shenanigans and talking science takes me to such a happy place

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I cannot stay awake. fuck this heat