I think a major reason why most of us (or at least me myself) are secretly longing for a relationship even if we never admit it is not really for the guy we crush on, but the feeling of being in love itself. It is utterly amazing that all of a sudden you realize you just can't stop thinking about him, and get really hard to hold that big smile whenever you lay your eyes on him.
I guess I simply love to fall in love. That focus, that vulnerability, that sensation. It makes me feel so good, so refreshing.
So I totally get it when others try to convince me into a relationship. Sometimes it is really lonely to be all by yourself. But luckily, I am never alone. I never cease to crush on some characters, and I dare say that is perhaps the most secure love in the world. Cause they'll never hurt you, not in person anyway. And you can enjoy all these love feelings without paying any price or heartbreaking.
Sadly this kind of love seem to come and go all too quickly. Which is probably a good thing considering too much obsession to this kind of love will inevitably lead to a very nasty road.Yet still, it is... a shame, and kinda painful, that the love to that very person can't last long. But I'll live with it anyway.
Finally a sincere word to myself? Cherish that feeling while you still hold it, and do whatever you can to keep it from slipping away too easily. IT IS JUST TOO GOOD TO LET GO!!!