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Let’s get this started off the right way. I’m  usually against telling stories of a personal agenda online. But I figured this would different. The only reason being,  there is going to be a fictional spin on the things I say. Some of it might just be complete bullshit that comes off the top of my head. You’ll never know. Now, I consider myself a pretty average writer, so we’ll see how this goes. This could be a genius idea, or it could be a total flop. I’m not gonna know until I try this. It’ll hopefully be updated daily, so there should be something new on my page everyday. If I’m lucky enough to have the time. 

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Another Goddamn Vampire Pt. 18

How long had it been since I last visited? Four years? Five? More? Since before my parents had passed at least. I crouched down to let Felix out of his crate and as the door opened, he flew out and between my legs to disappear for a while. I knew I wouldn’t see him for a day or two. He really could be a cranky kitty and hold a grudge for much longer than needed. I stood up and surveyed the living/ dining room. My first order of business was to turn the power and water back on so I let myself out of the house and went down to the car port. I flipped the breaker on and checked the car port light. It flickered on and the bulb cracked in protest which promptly shut the light off. I added a new light bulb to the list of things I would need from the store. I then turned the water on and walked back up the stairs to the bungalow. The kitchen faucet turned easily and water spurted out with flecks of rust in it. I let it run until it was clear and then repeated the same with every other faucet in the house. I walked through and checked the lights as I searched for a broom to sweep up the dust with. I found trash bags in the little cleaning closet next to the bedroom along with just about any other cleaning supply I could possibly wish for. I grabbed a trash bag and the broom and dustpan then began to sweep the house. Sweeping didn’t take long so I took the sheets off the furniture and piled those next to the washer for cleaning later. I then mopped the floors and cleaned off the kitchen counters while humming to myself. It felt good to be back here and I wondered to myself why I waited so long to come back. I soon had the house workably clean and decided that I could clean the house more thoroughly later. I grabbed my keys and purse and hollered to Felix that I would be back in a little bit.

The town closest to the beach house had grown quite a bit since I had last visited so I easily found everything that I needed and more. I filled up my car with gas and picked up a paper for job openings for some reason. I needed a little extra cash so why not get a job? Once back at the house, I hauled my prizes up the steps to find the door to find it ajar. I set my groceries down and crouched as I peered in the open door. Who had let themselves into my abode while I was away? All too quickly I spotted the perpetrator and let out a small hiss in disdain. He was holding and angry looking Felix while looking around my small living room.

At my noise, Matthew turned around and spotted me crouched behind the door.

“I thought you’d never show up. Poor Felix here is starving. You were gone long enough that I almost thought you had been kidnapped.” Matthew’s smile curdled my stomach a little.

I stood up and grabbed my groceries without saying anything. Once I had set the groceries on the counter, I turned around and closed the front door then rounded on Matthew.

“Why couldn’t you just leave me alone? I obviously didn’t want anything to do with you since I actively ran from you. And how did you even find me? I made sure that you didn’t follow me. I took the most convoluted route to get here.”

His responsive smile was the most infuriating thing I could imagine. “I took a different car. I knew you saw me at your aunt’s house so I rented a different car and followed you from a discreet distance. It really wasn’t that hard.”

“Why did you follow me? I’m perfectly ‘safe’ here if that is what you are worried about.”

“I had to make sure. Lucy would kill me if I let any harm come to you.”

I groaned inwardly to myself. I guess he was right. Lucy would probably kill him and then kill me for doing something stupid and not letting Matthew take care of me. She was always trying to push us to come together. “Well, you might as well have dinner… Let me put the groceries away and then I’ll start.”

Matthew smiled broadly. “I knew you wouldn’t stay mad at me.”

“Just because I’m making you dinner doesn’t mean that I’m not mad… I just know you’ll refuse to go anywhere.”

Suddenly, the old man that lives a mile or so down the road was at my door and knocking rather frantically. I opened the door to a very worried look. “Are you alright? I haven’t seen you forever and then suddenly I see a random guy driving up here while I was on my walk. I tried to get ahold of your parents to let them know to call the cops; but, they wouldn’t answer.”

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Another Goddamn Vampire Pt. 17

I decide to take this roundabout way to go stay with my aunt for a little while. Surely Matthew wouldn’t stay at her place the amount of time that it will take me to reach her house, will he? I assume that he will reach there before I will and quietly hope that he will have already left.

As I round the corner of the street that my aunt lives on, I spot a very expensive looking car in front of the mailbox. I know without a doubt that the car is Matthew’s and quickly turn my car back up the street, hoping that he wouldn’t see me through the big picture windows that line the front of my aunt’s house. I peer through my rearview mirror as I turn off the street to see Matthew leaving the house and looking in my direction. He would recognize my car and probably try to follow me if he did see me so I turn up the next street and start taking a very winding route out of the city. I spot his vehicle a couple times, but, I avoid his detection somehow and even manage to grab some lunch for Felix and me. I leave the city with about as much pomp as I arrived. Felix was slightly more aggravated with the fact that he was still in the car, but, that was the only really difference. I still had one more place I could go and I knew that none of the younger Westfields knew where the place was or had even heard of it for that matter. I checked the gas gauge on my car and set off on perhaps the longest drive poor Felix had ever been on.

Now, Felix had never really been a fan of the old beach house. In fact, he hated the place with a burning passion. It was creaky and smelled of salt. It is also at least a little wet around the doors too. All of these things, Felix despised as a cat. I understood and probably should have dropped him off at my aunt’s house. I couldn’t without being detected by Matthew though, so for now, Felix got to stay in the beach house. My parents had owned it until they passed away and even though everything else had been sold or stolen by relatives, I had managed to keep this place as my own. It was sort of a family secret and I wasn’t even sure that my aunt knew about it. It was pretty well hidden from most of society too since it had a very long gravel drive that was surrounded by trees. It really was beautiful, especially in the summertime when all the water birds there with their babies. I made the drive in record time for me and soon the comforting green of tall pine trees surrounded me like a blanket. I turned up the gravel drive and immediately feel better. It’s almost as if a protective bubble surrounds the house and keeps the entire world at bay.

I park the car underneath the car port and grab everything that I had brought with me to haul up the steps. I gently place Felix down as I unlock the door and try to ignore his annoyed yowls. Felix remembered this place and judging from his mutterings, was not happy about being brought back here. I set his carrier down inside and closed the door firmly behind me. I then walked around the house, checking for any cranny that Felix could wedge himself out of to freedom. The house was sound and still looked practically new, if a little dusty. The furniture had sheets draped over it so that they could avoid the dust and sunlight that filtered through the giant trees. Though everything had a fine layer of dust on it, the house was safe and ready for use.

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Another Goddamn Vampire Pt. 16

I drop my phone on the pavement and smash my foot against it before sitting down in the driver’s seat of my own car. I quickly pull away from the apartment complex and head for the first road away from this town as fast as possible without speeding. I keep glancing in my rearview mirror for any car that looks even remotely like Matthew’s. To no avail though, I don’t see even a single car as I leave the town. For a college town on the weekend, it is sure silent tonight. Almost like a ghost town. I sigh and shake my head. What am I thinking? There’s absolutely no way that there isn’t anyone in that town. I just took the wrong streets. For a long time, I am alone on the highway. Just Felix and me. I spot a turn off in the distance and decide that I should take it to confuse anyone that may be trying to follow me. (Get ahold of yourself!) I’m alone on a two-lane highway and I’m still paranoid about being followed. Would it be the worst thing if Matthew found me? He just wanted to protect me. I let out a small groan in frustration. Logically, I shouldn’t be running away from Matthew or Lucy or David. I should just be letting them take care of me. My body is telling me to run as far away as possible though. Curiosity is telling me to turn my car around and figure out what is going on.

As I get close enough to the turn to slow down, I spot a pair of headlights off in the distance behind me. I don’t know what makes me do it; but, I turn my headlights off and quickly make the turn. I soon lose sight of the headlights as this road takes me into the mountains on winding turns surrounded by trees. I slow down to make the turns carefully since there are known to be wild animals up here and hope that the headlights weren’t Matthew, or at least the headlights didn’t see me turn. Once I’m far enough away from the road, I switch my low headlights back on to see just a little better without attracting too much attention. I guess my fear won out because I’m not turning around to drive back to the mansion where I spent a great majority of my childhood. I let my mind wander as I drive through the night. The scenery is beautiful and gently guides me down memories of hiking through forests with Lucy and Matthew in tow. Lucy would always complain about ruining her clothes or nails in the back and Matthew would just follow stolidly behind me. When we would come back well after dark, David would always laugh at us. We must have been a sight with Lucy looking absolutely miserable and most likely covered in scratches, Matthew falling to the floor from exhaustion, and me, bright-eyed and still egging for a chance to outside exploring. I am snapped out of my reverie when I notice lights in my rearview mirror. They are still farther down on the mountain and most likely can’t see mine; but, I begin looking for a turn off to hide down. I find one and turn down it to hide myself among the trees. I turn the engine off and sit in the dark, listening for the car to pass. The trees hide my car pretty well considering that it is a dark color and not very shiny.

I see the lights zoom by and then hear tire squeal to a halt on the highway. My breath catches in my throat. Did he see my car? Without a doubt, this is Matthew following me. What did he see to make him stop? I see the lights pass back along the trees where I am hidden, but, I don’t see any light hit my car to reflect and let Matthew know of my hiding place. The car lights stop and stay for a while. Suddenly, the lights zoom off in a blur as if the driver received a distressing call. I wait a while longer and then turn my car on and slowly take off. The rest of the night is passed in silence and I make it to a small town by morning.

I park the car at a gas station and fill-up my gas tank. I then run inside and by some water and food for Felix and myself along with a pair of sunglasses. The middle-aged lady at the counter smiles at me as she rings up my items and asks if I would like a bag. I nod my head and then leave the shop with my skin crawling. I feel as if I’m being watched and can’t help but let my shoulders sag in relief as I put the little town at the back of my car. I drive down the road a way and then pull-off to let Felix get out and stretch his legs. He gladly slips his little harness on and trots around the car for a bit and relieves himself. I place him back in the car with food and water in dishes for him to enjoy while I slip into the forest a little to take care of myself. I could have used the restroom at the gas station I guess. Though, I didn’t want to stay there any longer than I had to. I rub some hand sanitizer on my hands after I get back to the car and take a swing of water from the open bottle. I also munch on a granola bar while I think of what to do next.

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“You’re just a silly little girl. Like you would know anything about life.”

Those cold words were the final nail in the coffin. It felt as if her heart withdrew back into her chest where no one could reach it. A noticeable chill filled the room as she opened her mouth to speak. Nothing came out when she did so she closed her mouth again and turned to leave.

“Nothing to say? I’m surprised. Maybe you are growing up.” she could hear the smirk in his voice.

There were a million things that she could have said. Yet, none of them were willing to force their way past the lump in her throat. Except one thing. She raised her head up and squared her shoulders. “The only thing I have to say is that you can watch this silly little girl waltz out of your life right now if you think is as inconsequential as you made her out to be.”

His snort seemed to echo through the room. The pause that followed should have told him that impending doom was approaching on his part as she whirled around with her hand curled into a fist and a sneer on her face. The impact of her fist sent him reeling.

“You rat bastards never know when to stop stepping outside your bounds. I hope the next girl you date is a little smarter than I was and rips your heart out while she has the chance. At least now your face matches your personality. Horrid.”

He looked up at her in pain and disgust. “You whore. How dare you think that you have the right to mess with me. You’ll never find a  guy after me. You were lucky that I ever saw you as a person. I’ll certainly be the last.”

Now real anger bubbled up within her as she looked down at the pathetic sight before her. “The only thing you ever saw me as was something to conquer and you couldn’t even do that. So who really is in last place here.” She turned and left the room to his screams of anger falling on deaf ears.

If he wanted a war, he got one.

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Another Goddamn Vampire Pt. 10

“So, how do you want to do this? Do you want to pack and me take things down or do you just want things thrown into bags and boxes so that we can get out of here as fast as possible?” Lucy asked and looked at me expectantly.

“Well, I suppose that it doesn’t really matter honestly. I think I’m going to put half of this stuff into storage or just sell it, so just get it into boxes. We can throw some of the stuff into my car too.” My things all packed up quickly. I was glad that I had not really decorated or anything and that I had very few things to begin with. My futon collapsed to be more moveable easily. I also had a flat bed kind of like the Japanese or something that folded together more easily. Anyway, everything packed up in our two cars and we took my things to the apartment after I told my landlord I was moving out. He had looked like he was going to protest and make me pay some last minute charges; but, after he saw Lucy, he snapped his mouth shut pretty quickly.

Lucy started in on me as soon as we got out of our cars at the apartment. “I’m glad that you are moving in with us, Annie. You absolutely cannot imagine how relieved this will make Dad. He was really worried about you in that shady apartment. And look, he was right in the end. It was not good at all. You could have been killed or even worse…” I cut Lucy off.

“Yeah, I know. I wasn’t though. See? I’m in one piece. I’m completely fine.” I said as I grabbed another box to take up to my room.

“Matthew and David would have never forgiven me if you weren’t, so I think you kind of have to be. They both adore you and so do I. I wouldn’t have forgiven myself in any case.” Lucy huffed in annoyance.

“Well, it wouldn’t have been your fault if I had gotten hurt. It would have been my fault so I don’t know why they wouldn’t have forgiven you.” I rolled my eyes.

“You know that I promised to keep you safe! Even if it was your fault. I’m just glad that you are closer to me so I can protect you more easily now.” Lucy barked at me as she held the door open for me.

“Alright. Alright. I guess you are right. You know that this will be a funny memory when we look back on it in a couple years.” I said over my shoulder.

“Yeah. A funny story that you tell as you sit next to Matthew at your wedding reception.” Lucy muttered just a little too loudly.

“I heard that. Would you stop saying that I am going to marry Matthew? It’s creepy as all get out. He’s like a brother.” I shivered involuntarily.

“Is he really that unattractive to you?” Lucy asked with more than a hint of annoyance. “We’ve been over this a million times, you getting together with Matthew has been in the woodwork for years now. It’s time you just bent to my Dad’s will and get on with the program.”

“And you’ll have to tell me a million more times because I refuse to listen. I don’t care how long it has been in the makings. I’m not having any part of it.” I humphed.

“I think you’ll change your mind when you see him this weekend. I believe that he is planning on being home for a week or so before he goes back and gets his last bit of schoolwork done.” Lucy put her box down and smiled over at me.

I sighed. “You are just unstoppable aren’t you?” it was like the woman never slept or something.

“I have my ways of getting what I want.” Her light chuckle hit my ears with an eerily evil undertone.

“Right. Well, I suppose that we should finish getting the boxes shouldn’t we. Less talk and more work so we can relax or get homework done sooner.” I said and cut off our, oh so lovely, conversation.

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Another Goddamn Vampire Pt. 9

“Get out of the way!” I screeched as I attempted to swerve around him. His hand found my handle bar and he swung himself onto the back of the bike easily, though. I barely kept, the bike straight; but, Spencer didn’t seem to care.

He leaned forward and said into my ear, “This is why I told you to stay with us last night. That man has you in his sights now and he isn’t going to stop until he has you. I offered to protect you; but, no, you just had to run off to that A-class now didn’t you?” Spencer may have seemed calm; but, I could sense a flood of anger surging underneath his words. I kept biking towards the apartment I was going to share with Jessica, Martha, and Lucy in the hopes that Lucy would already be there. Lucy was an impressive martial artist so I figured that she at least could take down this freak. I had no clue what an A-class was either. I just figured that I didn’t want to know.

“Like I was going to let myself be protected by someone who kidnapped me, drugged me, and bruised my arm. Do you know how hard it was to cover that bruise with makeup today? I’m paid to keep myself in perfect condition and you screwed that plan royally so I’m not really inclined to help you out here.” I huffed out over my shoulder. This guy was really getting on my nerves and we hadn’t even been talking for 5 minutes.

“I hope you know that you didn’t slow him down much. He’ll be on your trail again by nightfall, maybe tomorrow night if you are lucky. I doubt it though. All you really did was piss him off.”

My mouth hung open. “You do know that I broke his nose and most of his fingers and then dislocated the bones around the wrist at the very least. He isn’t going to be moving much of anywhere for a while. He was hurting pretty damn badly.”

“Yeah, that isn’t going to slow him down. I’m honestly surprised he let you get this far. Though, you are safer with me now.” Spencer said with an air of disdain.

“About that… Unless you get off and leave me alone, I am going to call the cops while Lucy beats the hell out of you and you’ll end up in jail buddy.” I rounded the corner to the apartment and saw Lucy’s car already sitting in her parking spot. She was perched carefully on top of her car looking at her nails. “See?!” I crowed triumphantly. As I got close I slammed on the brakes and Spencer flew off over my head only to land in a heap right in front of Lucy. I soon hopped off the bike and hooked it up. When I returned, Lucy had a hold on Spencer and was interrogating him quietly.

He looked very uncomfortable and a lot like a little kid that was being chastised. It was rather funny to be completely honest. I walked over and stood a couple feet behind Lucy and cleared my throat. She spun around with Spencer till in her grasp and smiled at me.

“Good! You’re back! How are you? I am glad you brought this trash over so that I could teach it where it belonged. It said that you were in a tussle. Are you okay? Did you hurt anything? Do I need to go kick someone else’s ass for you?” Lucy said and dropped Spencer to the ground. He stayed there and just looked up at both of us.

“Well, he seems to think that the guy that I beat the crap out of won’t be slowed down at all; but, I dealt him some pretty serious damage. I’m fine. Nothing a little makeup won’t hide. I’ll have a bruise or two. That’s it though.” I said with a shrug. Lucy looked at me unconvinced.

“I’m sure that he learned his lesson. I bet the police came and picked him up so you have nothing to worry about.”  Spencer grunted in what seemed like disagreement; but, Lucy silenced him with a kick. “You should go drop your bag inside and grab your apartment keys so we can finish moving you out. I doubt it will take long if there are two of us working! I’ll wait out here, okay?” Lucy said and shooed me towards the apartments. I stopped after I was out of sight and listened to anything she might say to Spencer.

I also looked around the corner, careful to stay out of sight as Lucy rounded on him. “I told you to keep your ignorant mouth shut. She doesn’t know anything about any of this. I thought that I had warned everyone in this region to stay away from her. I guess this is what happens when a B-class thinks that he owns the place since I so graciously let him stay in my jurisdiction. I’m keeping her innocent of all of this on purpose, I hope you know. This is nothing that she needs to get involved in. I want to keep her hands free from all of this at least since she is under my protection. This is all your fault. Be more careful next time, or you’ll lose more than just your pride and standing here. I expect you to hunt that rouge down and get him taken care of tonight. Get that old lady and shut-in to help you out this time since this rouge is obviously too much for you to handle. I don’t have time to deal with it.” Lucy said just loud enough for me to hear.

“I was going to take care of him last night; but, that girl got in the way. I recognized her as your little angel right away. What would you have had me do? Leave her there for the rouge to have?” Spencer spat out and glared up at Lucy.

“I would have had you kill him before you ran into her. Now she is going to have questions that I will have to smooth over. Do you know how much I hate cleaning up her memories? The last time I had to do it was such a pain.” Lucy pursed her lips. She sighed. “Just get out of my sight before I kill you. You are lucky that she is going to be back soon.” I had forgotten all about going upstairs and getting my things; but, I didn’t have a key yet so I couldn’t get in anyways. I walked back out to Lucy as Spencer was getting up.

“Hey, you haven’t given me a key yet and I didn’t think about it until I had gone up the stairs and everything.” I smiled sheepishly. I might as well keep what I knew about that conversation to myself for now. I was curious to know about her erasing my memories before and irritated that she seemed to have kept a giant secret from me. We were best friends weren’t we? Lucy handed me the key with an apology and we both watched as Spencer walked off. “So he won’t bother me again then?” I asked.

“He shouldn’t. I gave him a piece of his own medicine. Some men are just too stupid for their own good. This is why…” Lucy started in on me as we turned and walked up the stairs.

“I know, I know. Matthew would be such a good match for me since he isn’t like other men. He is the perfect younger brother. If even only by a couple minutes. Matthew and Lucy were twins, though they look nothing alike. While Lucy is blonde and brown-eyed, Matthew has dark black hair and ice blue eyes.

“If you can quote me like that then why don’t you give it a shot? You have heard it enough times to at least want me to shut up about it.” Lucy said with a roll of her eyes.

“Yes; but, if I said yes, then we would be more than just dating. You would already have us engaged and then married in a month so that I could no longer do what I wanted.” I sighed as she opened the door.

“Is that such a bad thing? You could run a modeling company instead of modeling for one. Isn’t that why you are going to school? To learn how to run a company?”

“Well… Yes. I do enjoy modeling though. It isn’t bad. I get to look pretty and I don’t have to worry about money as much.” I set my bags down in my room and rummaged around for my keys to both my apartment and my car. I gave Felix his customary hug and then Lucy and I walked out of the apartment after she locked the door.

“I still don’t see why you worry about money. The attorney is getting you some money. Daddy said that he got a call from the attorney today and he is one the verge of getting you at least half of that remaining fortune. It is just good that your brother is younger than you and cannot get at all of the money yet…” Lucy trailed off as we walked back down the stairs and she stayed mercifully silent for the entire ride over to my apartment until we got up the step and to my door.

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Another Goddamn Vampire Pt. 8

The rest of classes went smoothly and without any hicks. I did feel eyes on me all day and it made my skin crawl. Since my classes ended at 4:30, I figured that I should get home soon. With the days getting darker sooner, it probably was in my best interest to get home as soon as possible. I was unchaining Lucy’s bike when a hand appeared on the handle bars.

“I believe that you were that annoying little creature that a friend of mine was soo stubbornly keeping away from me last night.” A silky voice said in my ear.

I tensed up and slowly turned my head toward the voice. “I… believe that you have the wrong person, sir. If you could please let go of my bike, I would be very appreciative.” I said and forced a smile as I looked up. He was tall, dark, and looked like he wanted to eat me. He looking like nothing that I wanted to be involved with in the least bit.

“Oh, no. I believe that you are. If you do not like me holding onto the handle bars, how about I hold onto something else instead?” His voice was sickeningly sweet as he let go of the handle and grabbed me instead. “Come on. Let’s go have a little fun. I promise that nobody will miss you.”

I shied away from his hands and said firmly, “I promised to meet someone at 5. She’ll be looking for me if I don’t meet her then. I am not interested in any case.” I turned my bike handles away so that I could wheel the bike away; but, his grip was unyielding.

“Well, personally, I don’t give a rat’s ass if you are interested or not. You are going to come with me whether you like it or not. I have better plans for you than any of your little friends ever could. I promise that we’ll have lots of fun. Soo much fun that you will forget you ever said no in the first place.” His grin dripped poison. I took a second to take stock of what I had. I needed to get away and it looked like I was not going to be able to take to easy way out. I let my bike rest against the rail and moved closer to the man, much as I wanted to run away.

“Oh, really. What kind of fun are we talking about?” I asked in my best seductive voice. I placed my hands on his arms and looked up at him. He seemed to take the bait and smiled lecherously down at me.

“Only the best kind sweetheart. I’ll have you begging by the end of the night and you’ll be soo drained tomorrow that I think you won’t ever get up.

I took my chance and slammed my foot down on his instep and then sharply up into his groin. As I stepped on his instep I slammed one of my palms up into his nose and I heard a sickening crunch. “Like this kind of fun?” I asked in a sweet voice before I stepped away and let the man drop onto the ground. I quickly grabbed my bike and started to run away to gain momentum and hop on my bike; but, the man had other plans.

“Not so fast sweetheart. I still have other plans for you.” He grunted in pain as he took hold of my ankle. I looked down at his hand then at his face with a little grin then raised my other foot and stomped it down onto his wrist. I heard a crack and he loosened his grip on my ankle enough so that I could free my foot. I kicked his hand away savagely and I heard a slight pop come from it. I didn’t stop to see if he was going to follow or was still able to use his hand as I turned and sprinted away with the bike in tow. I quickly hopped on and pedaled a winding path through campus to throw anyone else off as fast as I could just in case. I earned more than a few dirty looks for my reckless biking; but, like I cared, until a man stepped in front of my path to stop me. He was tall, gangly, and angry. Who else but Spencer would have chosen now to get in my way?