#wilbur alter

[your-body-my-temple-baby]

twins

[gaslightgirlboss]

I'm still learning to accept my system. a lot about it. I still get shame around introjects. I don't want to talk about it but I will hide the character/person they're based off of around people i know. if we split a new person, first thing we do is change their name from their source. I don't want to deal with the shit I may get from people.

95 Percent of our system members are introjects. no I don't want to tell people that over a third of our system is based off of YouTubers. or how we have in system romantic relationships. I really do feel like alters loving each other is an ultimate form of self-love.

yes we have elaborate contradictory gender identities that I don't want to explain or justify. I don't want to explain to people that sometimes I just want to make a headmate. no one needs to know how they were formed? they're a headmate all the same.

The more I think about it, I don't even think our girlfriend knows we're mixed orgins. I would like to keep it that way too.

we're still learning to accept our system "cringe" and all. we're not there entirely yet, got a long way to go. I do take a lot of strength from systems who are willing to be open despite the harassment they get for "faking". a lot of what I've listed that I'm ashamed of is stuff that came from the infighting within the did community. that constant infighting hurts people and probably gives a lot of people like myself internalized shame. something needs to change

[your-body-my-temple-baby]

Erm excuse me? I ordered this from Wilburger and the fries feel like water and the tenders are a pain to chew on

lying is immoral , wilburger would never make food below 5 stars . that is clearly food from tubburger

[gaslightgirlboss]

i might get shit for this but i still listen to lovejoy. i don't have to like will as a person to like the music. if i used the logic i see some of you using, I'd never be able to listen to music from anyone. this also isn't a post for you weird wilbur superfans. coming from someone who used to be one. can we stop trying to actively accuse a domestic abuse victim of lying? thanks. all that to say there will always be a part of me that really resonates with will and his music. though it doesn't mean I'm going to be weird and start denying abuse happened.

[your-body-my-temple-baby]

i've been okay, all things considered. reconnected with tommy and have been able to get in touch with jack, both of them are doing well (i even got tom to bake with me, he made as big a mess as always but i can't say i didn't help). i'm glad to hear about techno and guackity, and you.

sometimes i hate how fondly i look back on everything, especially l'manberg. i've got thousands of written words to show for that by now, though, and i can't deny it still means something to me.

for a while i spent most of my time being angry at you and your mistakes and everything to do with the old country but i think i'm . i've processed more of it. still blame you a lot but not enough to completely overwrite the fact that, y'know, you were my best friend back then and that feeling never really goes away.

it's been a long time, and we've changed. i think that's worth something.

(for what it's worth, sometimes i swear eret misses it all more than even i do, but she's also really good at convincing herself no one wants anything to do with her. [i told him you say hi, it was nice.])

its fair to be angry at me , im angry at myself too . though , youre right , we've all changed a bit and I think everyone deserves second chances after all this time to reflect ( maybe eret too , one day ) .

has anything notable changed with you or the others ?

[a-very-merry-bitchmas]

I am so SICK of our host being a MORON about EVERYTHING! They're so indecisive, it's pathetic! And we're splitting again, so shit's about to go down like it does every time the system gets confused. Fuck THIS, I wish I wasn't here! Being in a system has RUINED MY LIFE AND MENTAL HEALTH.

-Wil