I think I'm new here. I don't think that's a good thing.
i don't even mean to come here. i dont want to be here. i want to go back home.
I woke up, and everyone was sad. Nobody had the capacity to give me as much as a "hello, what's your name?". I went completely unnoticed for days. They were all too busy processing a pain too big for them to understand.
and I understand why. In my few hours being in this world, I've only been whipped back and forth between chaos and misery, only to be told its my fault. I've been shamed and guilted for things we do to protect ourself and asked to give constant reassurance and support when I can barely stay grounded enough to hear the words coming out of my own mouth.
I tried pretending to be one of the Jax's, in hopes I'd forget myself and "turn into one" to bring us joy. But it didn't feel right. I don't want to be a Jax, I don't want to be any character. I'm happy being myself.
So, hi. I don't have a name, but its nice to meet you anyways. I hope to understand myself more someday soon, but for now, this is me. I'm happy here, even if its bad. And maybe someday things will be okay.
(name options and whatever are appreciated btw ^_^)
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mip is how someone in our system and someone in our partners system are SO OBLIVIOUS THEY REFUSE TO GET TOGETHER. WE'RE ALREADY DATING WE JUST NEED THESE TWO IDIOTS TO FINALLY REALISE THEY LIKE EACH OTHER 😭
[ pt : MIP is how someone in our system and someone in our partners system are so oblivious they refuse to get together. We're already dating we just need these two idiots to finally realise they like each other 😭 /end pt ]
mip is trying to go to bed but someone suddenly takes over your body and you cant move your limbs at all and they're just venting to you and when your body loosens up you just kinda have to go alright what was all that about then
late night venting sessions are the best isn't it /silly -Moros