talk abt gaara's insecurities pls pls.
Every one of Gaara’s insecurities can be traced back to a single, overwhelming thought: His humanity.
He is Kazekage now. He is grown, he has matured, he has accomplished so much - so why does he still feel distanced so from this world? What is this barrier between him and those he calls his friends and family? Why does he jolt awake in the middle of the night with a heart like a jackrabbit, running to the mirror to make sure his hands and face and soul are not still covered in blood? What piece of him is missing that makes him feel so empty and so alone?
Although Gaara has, for the most part, re-integrated back into society, he knows he will never be fully accepted. There are still villagers who bear scars and visit graves from his childhood rages. From a monster to Kazekage in such a short amount of time, he has never been normal, and never will. Even as Kazekage he was simply shuttled from his father’s control to the elders’, who placed him on a pedestal to use as a tool, a puppet, until he had matured enough to gather his own bearings.
His friends and family are the most precious beings to him in the world, more important than his own life. With their support and love he aims every day to live up to - to surpass - their expectations, as well as his own. Without them he would be nothing.
Yet still .. there are the nightmares. The violent urges that sweep through him and pass just as quickly, like pain from a phantom limb. The days spends watching his people frolic in the streets, wondering what it will take to join them without feeling like an outsider, like a wolf in sheep’s clothes. There are the doubts.
