it's hard to put this into words,
but i was really sick and depressed and had a terrible self image starting basically around the time i started my tumblr.
i found better people and better things. i'm happy. most of you probably don't remember seeing me on your dash after the long hiatus i took from tumblr. i'm switching accounts and gears, but i just wanted to leave this post here in case a special someone will ever stumble upon it.
the person who saved my life was the boy who occupied the url callmeshea (callmeshea.tumblr.com). he told me that i meant something even when i thought i was worth nothing but dirt. he told me how talented i was, and i've never forgotten his words.
after i came back to tumblr after a long while, i went to send him a message to thank him for being the reason i can smile at my life and say "thank god i didn't do something stupid before i had so many good things to lose." but his account was deactivated, and i was in tears, sobbing. so if you ever come back, please know how thankful i am. i will never forget you, the human who unknowingly gave me all i have to live for today.
i hope we speak again.
