Untitled: 11:40 p.m.
My friend was talking to me and told me her number one goal in life was to get married and raise a family. And the way she said it, I believed her. I just was baffled that someone would really only want so little. Yeah, yeah. I want a family someday too. But that's it? When someone asks me what I accomplished in my life, I tell them my family? Not that that's a bad thing, but I can't picture myself doing that. I can't look at my life and not try. What are they even trying for? These girls who only want to get married? Why not just pass your classes, not excel? Why do anything but search for a lifetime partner?
My mind just doesn't operate like that. Not trying to do good. Not trying to do anything. I want to go to college, study abroad, fuck up, do things right, have a career. Yeah, someday a family will fit in the equation. I have all the time in the world for that. I couldn't think that way if I wanted to.