Aug 24, 2016
things I dislike:
- being ignored - sand - being lied to - being forgotten about - extremely hot days - reality - not being able to be myself - being alone
seen from China
seen from China
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from Australia
seen from China
seen from China
seen from United States
seen from France
seen from Germany
seen from China
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from China
seen from Colombia
seen from Pakistan
seen from Germany
seen from United States
seen from Brazil
things I dislike:
- being ignored - sand - being lied to - being forgotten about - extremely hot days - reality - not being able to be myself - being alone
y’see i’m in this never ending loop.
and it’s killing me slowly.
Hya was perfect. She was perfect because she knew no such thing existed, yet there she was, right before my eyes. Since I met her, every movement and expression became art. Being near her taught me that our current position in this world is never going to be enough, that’s the reason we create ‘perfection’ for ourselves. Perfection is created to make whatever our situation slightly more bearable, believing that one day we may achieve it or have it given to us by some higher being. No. My situation was perfect. Never before had I met someone so beautiful as Hyacinth, and here she was, right in front of me. The reflection of the water ripples flecked blue in her otherwise dark, thought-provoking eyes. Pastel, yet strong, colours from the setting sun coloured her cheeks. Hya hardly ever spoke but when she did I could listen to her soft voice forever.
(and thissss, folks, is why i will never be a writer ;;)0)
I am at a point where I feel both good and bad, and I want to try to do a bunch of things but I don’t want to. I think I just need a hug...
if you’re grumpybecauseoflackofsleep clap your hands!!
CLAPS if you’re soulcrushinglydepressedandwannadie clap your hands!!
CLAPS FRANTICALLY
liking someone who has their own problems, and worrying you’d make them worse if you asked them out.
PEOPLE I AM COMPARED TO ON A REGULAR BASIS:
cousin Debbie (30-something-years-old) - has a degree, owns her own stable, is happily married with a newborn baby, travels a lot, owns her own business, has outstanding grades overall.
cousin Alice (exactly the same age as me - 16-years-old) - has her own business, had excellent grades, has quite a lot of money, is getting engaged in a month’s time, is ‘skinnier’ than me, is ‘prettier’ than me, travels a lot, is going to be studying for a business degree.
then there’s me. - has basic qualifications with low grades, has a saturday job, always broke, single, ‘heavier’, mentally unwell, studying a BTEC at college, can’t even kill herself properly, general disappointment to entire family.
there needs to be more housing options for young people who don’t feel safe in their home due to a crime. just saying.