#withmeyougo

[shake-off-the-happiness]

Tomorrow is my 17th birthday! And I'm so excited.

Can't wait to see Zack this weekend(: And my family, of course(;

Yes, we're talking again.

Yesterday morning he sent me a text and asked if i was feeling better 'cause I was sick monday. Still sick now so i hope it's gone by Saturday!

Sam made me cookies(:

got 40 dollars from dads side of the fam, i got bandanas, perfume, candles, a new purse, giraffe socks, and a bracelet. New headphones from Abigail, and then Mom's making me a homemade alfredo tomorrow night.

[shake-off-the-happiness]

Abigail & Wes; Thank you. You've both helped me with a lot. And You've kept me sane.

I know there's more to life than always being sad and thinking about everything bad that's happened. 

I know life's not as bad as I make it out to be. 

I can promise you, things are getting better. 

I don't plan on going through with it. 

I dont plan on dying anytime soon.

But I'm sure you get in moods sometimes where you don't think life is worth it.

I had read some old messages and kept thinking about how happy I'd been when me and one of my ex's had been together and how much things sucked now because we weren't even speaking.

Stupid high school drama, and really not even worth getting upset about, but he's the guy I first gave my heart to. He knew absolutely everything about me and he helped me as best as he could through all my problems. 

I used to not see myself being with anyone but him, and then I met Jake, and I dated him, and then we broke up, and now I've lost two of the guys that I was closest to, but I know things are looking up for me.

Thank you guys, again, for keeping me alive and reminding me that life is worth living. 

And Wes, when I got your ask, I almost started crying. Because I know what you said is true. Thank you again.