#withoutpurpose

[vishalsingh]

I look at him and find no muse in me, Everything feels so counterfeit, so not amusing, I then ask myself, "What could become of someone in this world?" Without love, without introspection, "Why doesn't one awake until they fall?"                                                                ~ V.S.

[colormyflaws]

Feeling a little down and a little upset.

My boss told me today that it is "a little weird that I color in coloring books." I was like hmm okay but that book is my book I created it. I'm just like everyday why in the world am I a nurse. Helping people is cool and I love that part, I just wish that I had more time to follow my dream and be around people who draw and create art and don't think that it's "weird" to color. I question why I went back to pursuing art? I felt at one point that it was just a dream for kids and as an adult I have to do adult jobs. I almost lost my life last year and decided to do what makes me happy. Bills dictate that I don't have time to do what I love because bills have to be paid. I don't know I just have to believe that I can do better and one day I can draw for Disney or something crazy like that lol. Disney is supposed to be where dreams come true.