Secretive still wasn’t used to it, even with the time that had passed since the attack. Her wounds had had time to turn into scars, but her heart didn’t heal as easily. She told herself that he had fought bravely, that the Great Wolf must be proud of him. She told herself that the attacking tribe had been desperate for food. The winter had returned too early and the animals and plants died in the frozen wasteland.
It didn’t help much. It felt like a punishment. Secretive could have gone to Wind, her older half-brother, for help, but she didn’t want to burden him. Not now. Not when she knew what they had done to him, to his beautiful wife.
When she grabbed Wave and headed for the oldfashioned round house her neighbors lived in, she knew that it wasn’t a time for pride. What food she had, she gave to Wave, but she wouldn’t be able to keep it up. Her house was too cold, no wood left for a warming fire. They’d need help.
She was greeted by gloom. Sable and Dust had both perished in the attack and the children were all too young to fend for themselves. Moving back in with their grandfather wasn’t exactly a relief either. Knowing had become even more mean-spirited in his old days. Today, however, he wasn’t up for a fight, not even after hearing his young neighbor’s plea.
“All we have to spare is a bit of bread that’s gone moldy”, he mused and looked at her weary expression with some concern. “Are you sure you wanna keep living there by yourself, girlie? Could be dangerous. They might be back once they’ve eaten all they’ve plundered.”
She gathered up all her courage and gave Knowing a reassuring smile. It might have been the hardest thing she’d ever done, and she had borne a child. “Take heart, old friend. The Wolf won’t abandon us. He’s Naithoul. He walks at our side with silent paws, and leaves his prints in the snow. In helping me, you’re doing his work, as you allow me to keep fending for myself and my child. The temple will remain open. In fact, just like my dear ... just like he wanted, at the end of the week, I’ll host a get-together for whoever can afford to come. If you’d give me that bread, I’ll gladly take it.”
He didn’t fight. In fact, she believed she might have impressed him with her resolve. A resolve that faltered when she bit into the bread. It was vile, tasted rotten on her tongue. It didn’t matter. If mold was what she had to eat to stay alive, then she’d do it. She’d fight. For her family. For the Great Wolf.