10 What scares them about entering a relationship?
Oof, this one may need a breakdown per xpac. Wolfram and Raubahn both had a lot of fears. This will have spoilers for my comic/script series. That can be followed here.
They both were nervous because committed relationships were new for them both. Plus they fell in love *quick*. (We're gonna blame their ancients for that BTW) Wolf was worried Raubahn wouldn't love him if he knew about his past - which is why he got into it with no intention of ever telling him. Unfortunately, 2 years later the bond with Rau had made him a better person. He was planning to propose and couldn't in good conscience keep up the lie. Obviously, telling Rau confirmed his fear (in his mind anyway) as he was instantly dumped.
Wolfram - He didn't think Rau would ever talk to him again, much less befriend him. He never stopped loving Raubahn but a relationship wasn't even on his mind as a possibility so he didn't even think about it enough to be scared.
Raubahn - It didn't occur to him until the patches when he realized he was in love with the man he had left for basically being completely at odds with his own morality. Who had made him so angry that night he didn't recognize himself - he went through a lot of self-doubt. Had he no pride? Even if he pushed that aside, would Wolf feel the same way after so long? Plus he was scared of what the Monetarists would do if he had any public romantic partner, much less the Warrior of Light. Political nightmare. Still, he was a bit flirty, he couldn't help it.
Wolfram - Still didn't think Rau cared about him like that so wasn't even considering a relationship. Despite the fact that they called each other's linkshell almost every day and then made out / almost slept together on the night of the Grand Melee. Dude gaslit himself into the friend zone. 😅
Raubahn - The events of the Bloody Banquet made him very introspective. He couldn't help but draw a comparison from his rage that night to his rage the night Wolf told him his past all those years ago. He was scared Wolf could never forgive him. He formally apologized to his friend on a linkshell call and Wolf told him there was nothing wrong with him - he's patient and kind. He deserved Rau's anger and so did the Monetarists (he literally wanted to join Rau to fight them). That pretty much relieved the fears Rau had and he decided to try and get back together if Wolf was interested. They were even flirty with each other. When Wolf stopped things the night of the melee, it made Rau think he wasn't interested for a moment, but then he realized Wolf was likely just in his own head about it so he'd give him time and not bring it up.
Before the patches, they were basically dating without realizing they were. Everyone else thought they were a couple. Despite there being every sign that Rau was interested, Wolf kept gaslighting himself.
Wolfram - In the first patch, the night Raubahn was basically fired by his best friend. Wolf stuck around when Nanamo left to comfort him. Rau was very sad, feeling like the life he built himself had ended and upset that he wouldn't be able to protect the Sultana. He was lost and impulsively told Wolf he loved him and wanted them to be together. It caught Wolf totally by surprise. Then terror. He had recently helped Rhun and Arya deal with Lilith which really hit home how dangerous and unpredictable being possessed by a voidsent is. He couldn't risk being so close to the love of his life if there was a possibility of his voidsent taking over. For some reason, the voice in his head was always louder around Rau, in his mind making it an even greater risk. Scared is an understatement to how he felt and therefore he handled the situation in the worst way possible - not properly explaining how he felt and leaving.
Raubahn - He was completely heartbroken when Wolf turned him down and left without giving him straight answers. He would have even been okay if Wolf had turned him down and stayed to comfort him as a friend. So when Wolf left he was sad and then angry - wondering if he had led him on for some reason. Making (incorrect) guesses about why Wolf wouldn't want him.
Wolf had the same fears but in the end, Wolf told Rau about them so at least the commander wasn't angry with him anymore. Wolf feared the voidsent. Rau feared the pain of being near him when he wanted more than friendship. So they became just colleagues who hardly talk but love each other very much and they both know it.
Wolfram - Once he learned he was no longer possessed, he started to fear where the voidsent went and if it could return somehow. Later Rau told him a potential possibility about the fiend's fate, which embarrassed Wolf more than anything. So he was scared that even if he was no longer a danger - he was still not worthy of Raubahn (or happiness in general).
Rau - Wasn't scared at all. He (very smugly) *knew* they'd get back together. He was extremely flirty and relaxed. He was right.
Wolf just had to die to stop second-guessing himself. They got married when Wolf returned to Sharlayan.
During the patches, it's no fear - all awesome battle couple stuff. (Rau goes with him to 13th). DT should be similar so please look forward to it 😂
