fanfic for rainbow or something , loosely inspired by IHNMAIMS .
The world I was in had been familiar to me for centuries , or even better , generations . The years had passed so fast , yet I didn't feel as if I had matured yet , as I was supposed to .
.. I hadn't felt it ,
but it had happened .
The realization only struck me the moment I jumped into this blackhole without a single thought in my head .
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time was warped here .
why not have fun before sabre finally catches a hold of me ?
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The world was so different , the cyan clouds mixed in a maggot like motion with the black clouds , and it was under my control ?
I had tried to test it as anyone as selfish as me would have , but it didn't work .
Which made the Nightmare King much happier than I wanted him to be .
Strangely , this dimension had turned everyone into complete opposites , villains were good , and I was evil ?
The parallels were strangely similar to that of what me and the others were like in the real world .
A frightened child named gold hiding behind a strong and reliable adult named nightmare .
A tormented and apathetic mockery of a cannibal , Dark had clearly been subjected to his own medicine .
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Everyone was good and I was bad .
That still wasn't registering in my head .
Negotiations had been so hard , the false memories must have been strong enough to taint them forever .
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Do I resist ?
Do I start to resist ?
My body hurts from all over .
I don't want to let them destroy me .
I'm not evil , why should I be ?
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Or is it that im not following the rules of this game .. ?
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I get it.
This world is punishing me , with crude mockeries of what I love and graphic depictions of what I hate .
And I understand them all too well .
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and it's started eating away at me .
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I-
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losing ..
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Motherfuckers .
I have refrained from going to extremities for SO FUCKING LONG .
Is this what nightmare , void , elemental , and all those other bastards meant ?
heroes are no different from villains ?
I hate admitting that im wrong .
Theyre heroes yet they still havent changed .
And its irritating me .
Maybe i've finally understood ,
maybe ive finally become mature ,
maybe ive finally become a reflection of that king who'll die on his damn throne .
I am the villain , and they are the heroes . I want to be good but i'm just so fucking evil .
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but im still stronger .
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ive resisted .
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haha ..
Hahaha ..
HAhhahahah ..
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SO THIS IS WHAT IT MEANS TO JUST BE SO HATEFUL .
SO THIS IS WHAT IT MEANS TO BE A VILLAIN .
SO THIS IS WHAT IT MEANS ,
TO BE A MOCKERY OF NATURE
NOW THAT EVERYONES FUCKING GONE .
YOU'LL BE TOO NIGHTMARE .
AND IT'LL BE ME , JUST ME
AS IT ALWAYS HAS BEEN .
I'LL EMBRACE THE MEMORIES THAT WERE NEVER MINE ,
AND BE THE MONSTER YOU WANT ME TO BE .
ISNT THAT JUST LOVELY , NIGHTMARE ?!
