after all these years, trying to FIGURE OUT ways to be happy again; where just waisted minutes of time. there was just nothing that could be put a smile on her face that could tell the world she was really just f i n e. but NO, the universe always gave her more reasons to cry about. first, just after her birth, her parents ABONED her, like she was trash. & --- at the age of 17, her adoption parents died in a horrible car crash. no one wants to live a life like this, alone, in the darkness. putting on a fake smile to tell the world she’s fine, while she’s actually on her breaking point. maybe two months flew by, a miracle has happened. for so long she had been searching someone who UNDERSTOOD, someone who could be there for her, & tell her he wasn’t leaving. wrapping her arms around her waist as she leaned herself in the doorway of his bedroom, shoulder strugging. the salty liquid approaching her eyes fast, chocolate brown orbs locking themselves onto the wooden floor, lips slighty seperating; TREMBLING. ❝ i just--- feel like everyone is leaving.. i’m aboned by my own parents who didn’t even gave me a chance.. they even took my adoption parents away.. ❞ alexis mumbled, sobs shrugging off her shoulders. ❝ i NEVER had s-someone who looked me in the eye, & told me they weren’t leaving.. aiden... ----- ... i don’t why.. it’s like i’m doomed.. & everyday.. i..❞ pause. ❝ .. ask myself... is anyone at all ? ... cause i’m n-not dreaming.. ❞