Didn't work out yesterday, didn't work out the day before yesterday, and, actually, didn't work out today either; but we're gonna count the battle with the back yard amazonian jungle as a workout anyway, cause we love me and we don't want to upset me. Yes? Yes!
Honestly, there were patches back there, where the "grass" rose up to my boobies 😂🤣😝 it was truly exhausting. Both for myself and for the grass trimmer as well. It was honestly struggling. Ugh.
Diet wise, I haven't been doing great over the last couple of days. Yesterday was the worst. It wasn't a good day in general, a bit emotional and, yeah, I munched myself to bed, so... 🤷🏻♂️
A lot better today, although I really want to try and stay under 1600kcals. When I'm between 1600-1800kcals, I try to not be too bothered. Anything over that and I'm truly upset. Even if I've burnt off over 1K, I'll still be upset.
Anyway. The other thing is that I can't sort out my macros. I mean, I'm not too bothered bow as I'm just restarting and I'm more interested into a quick cut, but I will start being annoyed by it down the road. I know.
Whatever. Positive thoughts. We're doing something for ourself. Should be happy with that and then build in it.
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 12.9.2025; Feel free to comment/DM me if you want me to @ you in the comments everytime I post a new log of this. So, you get notifs when I post a new log! It could be for any of my posts or specific to these logs, just let me know. Also let me know if you want to be un-taged too. If I tag you also let me know if you change your username thank you!𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪
˗ˏˋ꒰ 🍒 ꒱ If you wish to reblog my post you could just tag me and copy the link to the post into your blog, thank you ˗ˏˋ꒰ 🍒 ꒱
⚠️ Please don't screenshot or post any of my post to r/cringe system or anything like that, I am not claiming to have DID or claiming to have a disorder. This is purely experimental and curiousity. Thank you! ⚠️
⚠️ In general please don't screenshot & share any of my post without my permission, thank you for understanding! ⚠️
˚⟡˖ ࣪ I have a tulpamancy log and another new log I've been working on! Feel free to comment what other posts/logs you wish to see from me! I’d also give credit to you as well if you wish. ˚⟡˖ ࣪
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 ⚠️Warning: ♡My thoughts constantly change so my thoughts/ideas/what I do might not be consistent or the same as the month goes on. ⚠️ 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪
˗ˏˋ꒰ 🍒 ꒱ This is marked as the 100 day productivity challenge because I like the sound of the challenge and 100 days is about 3 months. I am going to probably be doing this for a year or try to do it longer than 3 months/100 days. ˗ˏˋ꒰ 🍒 ꒱
𝟏𝟏:𝟏𝟏 ꨄ︎ I want to become fit and improve my mental health/memory. I want to also lucid dream and further myself back into spirituality. I want to also become toned. I also want to manifest V3 [I know I’m crazy lmao] and eventually practice reality shifting again <3 I’m also going to try to balance my elements and chakras.
☄️Daily Goals☄️
𓏲ּ𝄢 Workout/Exercise Daily (Make sure you listen to your bodies needs & so on) (Active rest days will be on Thursday and Sunday)
𓏲ּ𝄢 Meditate Daily
𓏲ּ𝄢 Play V3 Daily
𓏲ּ𝄢 Tulpa narration daily
𓏲ּ𝄢 Listen to my subliminals/affirmations daily
𓏲ּ𝄢 Say affirmations daily
𓏲ּ𝄢 Do reality checks/All day awareness for lucid dreaming
𓏲ּ𝄢 Self Care
𓏲ּ𝄢 Study
𓏲ּ𝄢 Read
𓏲ּ𝄢 Journal
⚠️Disclaimer⚠️
ᥫ᭡ I apologized if this is pretty long I hope it inspires you all. Also, if it does make sure you credit and or send it to me if you guys make anything based on this. because I'm also curious.
ᥫ᭡ You all are amazing and perfect the way you are, so please do what's best for you and what you wish to do with your own body. I am doing that for me. We also don’t accept fatphobia here so don’t feel discouraged or anything by me working out.
ᥫ᭡ I own protein powder and try to have it often which protein is important for recovery and such.
ᥫ᭡ I also already played v3 and seen the gameplay of it many times lmao (I've been obsessed with this game since 2017 that's over 8 years). I've also been in spirituality, manifesting, reality shifting, subliminals, subliminal/affirmations making, and so on since 2017 so I also have a lot of experience in that field. I've been soulbonded and connected to v3 since 2017 and tried shifting there many times since 2017.
ᥫ᭡ DNI if your against endos, tulpamancy, soulbonding, and so on; thank you! All anti endos and/or negativity will be deleted and blocked instantly. Unless you want to have a civilized & respectful discussion sending proof/links or your disagreements that's okay, insulting anyone isn't okay. It also makes you look immature. I have DID friends who are okay with tulpamancy and I have a family member part of Buddhism so I'm allowed to practice tulpamancy regardless and I'm not bothered by others practicing it. Also, DON’T friend me if you plan on asking for money I don’t have any and I WILL block you. I block freely.
ᥫ᭡ All negativity, hate, and so on will instantly be deleted and blocked.
ᥫ᭡ I'm basically my own human experiment. But I hope to inspire you all too. You can do it! I believe in you!
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🎀Resources/Credit🎀
⋆˚࿔ Note; All these apps are probably/should be on Apple! ⋆˚࿔
𝄞⨾𓍢ִ໋🎧ྀི Emojis; https://emojicombos.com/music
𝄞⨾𓍢ִ໋🎧ྀི I got an idea for this from this post; https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1294382
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 1.2.2026; I'm still sick but not as bad as yesterday, I am going out and I'm playing DRS & V3 as my comfort games.
―୨୧⋆ ˚Workout/Exercise: Went out
―୨୧⋆ ˚Meditation: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Play V3: 00:05:16 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Play DRS: 01:00:41 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Tulpa narration: 01:18:53 hrs
―୨୧⋆ ˚Subliminals: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚V3 Voice lines: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚V3 Gameplays/Content: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Affirmations: 00:09:06 mins | 415
―୨୧⋆ ˚Reality checks/All day awareness: 00:00:38 secs | 3 RCs
―୨୧⋆ ˚Self Care: Yes
―୨୧⋆ ˚Studying: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Reading: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Physical Journaling: 00:16:19 mins
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 1.3.2026; I'm still kinda sick sadly, but I'm getting better and going out again.
I've been using my bullet journal & planner. I'm trying to think of more creative and useful things to use in my bullet journal.
―୨୧⋆ ˚Workout/Exercise: Went out!
―୨୧⋆ ˚Meditation: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Play V3: 00:13:29 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Play DRS: 00:14:31 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Tulpa narration: 03:22:35 hrs
―୨୧⋆ ˚Subliminals: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚V3 Voice lines: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚V3 Gameplays/Content: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Affirmations: 00:16:53 mins | 774
―୨୧⋆ ˚Reality checks/All day awareness: 00:01:25 mins | 10 RCs
―୨୧⋆ ˚Self Care: Yes
―୨୧⋆ ˚Studying: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Reading: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Physical Journaling: 00:47:54 mins
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 1.4.2026; I've seen this cool post which gave me ideas. My throat is still bothering me but I think I'm doing better today compared to the last couple of days. I want to clean up.
💬 0 🔁 3 ❤️ 15 · Things I like from my bonus spreads of my bullet journal
The title page. I like doing the little Dutch door things, I've
I am going to be cleaning mostly today and then later today back up my files since I haven't done that in awhile.
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 1.7.2026; I went out with my mom and updated some of my dream journal. I also have been writing affs for an unfinished subliminal I was working on for a while now. I also cleaned up my bedroom which I'm happy about.
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 1.9.2026; My Tulpas have been very touchy today I have been kinda productive today and have been working on decembers dreaming log which has been doing good.
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 1.10.2026; I have a 160 day narration streak so far xD and I've been practicing on narrating more and having more complex conversations but it's been difficult but I've been improving so it's okay.
It's funny how you can tell on months/days where I'm more motivated when my logs have a lot more text and what not lol
It's my lil bros birthday today so I spent time with him and my mom lol
♬⋆.˚ Finished dream journal, nothing much to note this week. Finally recovered after being sick
♬⋆.˚ Making good progress with my tulpas and DRS.
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Monday-Sunday || 1.12.2026 - 1.18.2026
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 1.12.2026; So, I spent like 3 hours working on my bullet journal. I decided to do February since I have a feeling I might be busy the rest of this month. I also added a tulpamancer spread with terms, tips, and stuff to talk about with my tulpas.
I'm kinda obsessed with playing DRS! I should really begin playing V3 again lol I started farming for coins in DRS.
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 1.13.2026; Ah, I went out! I got new sports earbuds that are jlab. They have an awareness mode which makes it easy when I'm out in public and want to listen to my subliminals while also paying attention to my environment which is difficult with my other earbuds. I also manifested other things as well and I did my nails.
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 1.18.2026; Ah I lost one of my bobby pins even though I have more it still sucks I’ll probably find it somewhere in my bedroom lol. It’s my moms birthday today and my grandmothers birthday is tomorrow.
Okay, so I backed up my files & game! I am getting pretty lucky in V3 & DRS bonus modes! I should probably start using the Danganronpa tags but I'm unsure about that lol
I was looking on James clear website and reading some articles I signed up for the article stuff. I kinda got inspired by in his book that he posts every Monday and Thursday to be honest I should start doing that. I'm not sure if I'm going to post art publicly. I also got his app I'm going to check it out.
I've been playing drv3 ultimate development plan and Danganronpa S more for the last couple of days I got an S card for Angie finally in ultimate development plan!
Okay so I added Danganronpa tags to my things hopefully I don't regret that lol
♬⋆.˚ I feel my tulpas presence everytime I narrate. Especially when my narration is more high quality.
♬⋆.˚ Been keeping up with things and playing v3 more. I've been narrating more but the last couple of days have been lacking quality narration. I also started reading. I still have a subliminal I need to finish.
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Monday-Sunday || 1.19.2026 - 12.25.2026
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 1.19.2026; My one leg still feels weird sadly.
Finally exercising again, going to start slow.
So I tried doing all the habits I wanna pick up today, I began reading Atomic Habits again to practice my mind voice and to read. It was pretty interesting, it's nice to gain more perspective on habits.
Not sure if I should put this here but this is a chart of the page of the book I read. I thought it'll be useful to share since it's about 1% bettering can lead to more changes over time.
―୨୧⋆ ˚Workout/Exercise: 00:05:04 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Meditation: 00:31:14 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Play V3: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Play DRS: 01:05:23 hrs
―୨୧⋆ ˚Tulpa narration: 01:10:44 hrs
―୨୧⋆ ˚Subliminals: 02:13:48 hrs
―୨୧⋆ ˚V3 Voice lines: 02:13:44 hrs
―୨୧⋆ ˚V3 Gameplays/Content: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Affirmations: 00:01:51 mins | 100
―୨୧⋆ ˚Reality checks/All day awareness: 00:02:05 mins | 10 RCs
―୨୧⋆ ˚Self Care: Yes
―୨୧⋆ ˚Studying: 00:27:52 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Reading: 00:18:57 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Reading notes: 00:17:17 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Physical Journaling: 00:18:51 mins
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 1.20.2026; I found this video I interesting!
―୨୧⋆ ˚Workout/Exercise: 00:05:01 mins | went out
―୨୧⋆ ˚Meditation: 01:17:12 hrs
―୨୧⋆ ˚Play V3: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Play DRS: 00:28:33 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Tulpa narration: 03:42:09 hrs
―୨୧⋆ ˚Subliminals: 10:31:02 hrs
―୨୧⋆ ˚V3 Voice lines: 06:34:01 hrs
―୨୧⋆ ˚V3 Gameplays/Content:
―୨୧⋆ ˚Affirmations: 00:11:42 mins | 601
―୨୧⋆ ˚Reality checks/All day awareness: 00:02:45 mins | 18 RCs
―୨୧⋆ ˚Self Care: Yes
―୨୧⋆ ˚Studying: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Reading: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Physical Journaling: N/A
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 1.21.2026; So, I'm very sleepy today I had dreams of V3. I also swuffered the floors.
Ngl I kinda feel unhappy with my alarms I think I'm going to redo my schedule/alarms I barely use my alarms or have a schedule
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 1.28.2026; I got Manifest 7 steps to living your best life by Roxie Nofosui my mom even asked to see it and assumed it was an affirmation book she said she should read it. She also asked if these are books I'm interested in lol I also got a pink bookmark with moons on it. I like manifest, habits, and psychology like books more than non fiction ones lol
I also got Mom a book mark because she made me go back there. She likes the one I choose it's a green tree it was nice and leather she thanked me.
I got another bullet journal which is the same as my one I use now.
I added more stuff to my bullet Journal and more tulpamancy stuff to it. I like how it turned out! I wanna try a new method of doing things too.
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 1.29.2026; I think I am going to meditate mostly at night before bed. But I am going to switch between the void state meditation and a Tulpa meditation and go back and forth.
―୨୧⋆ ˚Workout/Exercise: 00:06:23 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Meditation: 00:25:47 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Play V3: 00:49:04 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Play DRS: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Tulpa narration: 00:47:04 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Subliminals: 11:29:22 hrs
―୨୧⋆ ˚V3 Voice lines: 11:29:17 hrs
―୨୧⋆ ˚V3 Gameplays/Content: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Affirmations: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Reality checks/All day awareness: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Self Care: Yes
―୨୧⋆ ˚Studying: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Reading: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Physical Journaling: 00:15:18 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Drawing: 00:12:39 mins
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 1.30.2026; I got a fortune cookie, when I went to the Chinese restaurant I really wanted the cookie so I put it in my pocket and it says "Do not give up, the beginning is always the hardest."
I began reading Manifest 7 steps to living your best life by Roxie Nafousi and I was using my mind voice practicing reading within my head. I was going to narrate to my tulpas but just decided to just read and practice using my mind voice. It definitely takes effort to read within my head instead of vocalizing it.
―୨୧⋆ ˚Workout/Exercise: Went out
―୨୧⋆ ˚Meditation: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Play V3: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Play DRS: 00:23:20 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Tulpa narration: 03:35:38 hrs
―୨୧⋆ ˚Subliminals: 03:02:54 hrs
―୨୧⋆ ˚V3 Voice lines: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚V3 Gameplays/Content: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Affirmations: 00:09:02 mins | 495
―୨୧⋆ ˚Reality checks/All day awareness: 00:09:27 mins | 23 RCs
―୨୧⋆ ˚Self Care: Yes
―୨୧⋆ ˚Studying: N/A
―୨୧⋆ ˚Reading: 00:06:57 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Reading Notes: 00:10:17 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Physical Journaling: 00:18:42 mins
―୨୧⋆ ˚Drawing: N/A
𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 1.31.2026; Ah I went out nothing much to note I did listen to my subliminals the entire time I'm out and I'm finally getting the sleep phones I wanted for a long time.
Weight on June 1: 173.3, weight on July 1: 165.8, weight on August 1: 161.2, weight on September 1: 154.8
I did every bit of the half marathon training and I am ready for the trail this weekend. I still have some ankle twinges (nerve pulses and slight pains) from time to time, but I still feel like overall it’s holding up fine.
When I really committed to losing weight again at the beginning of June, I had a pipe dream goal of losing 20 pounds by the time I went to Michigan for Woodstock. Welp. I leave Wednesday and I am down 18.5. ☺️ So happy.
I was a bit worried to deadlift again, but my lower back seems to be doing okay. For now. I tried using a belt, but I think I need a smaller one. I’ll try a different one next time. Got a new PR as well
I remember when I started lifting, looking to the 25 pound and 30 pound dumbbells and thinking “Can’t wait until those are easier to lift”. Now everyday I grapple with the fact that it never gets easier, you just get stronger 😭
