hiiiii its wormnon, someone who's identity you couldnt possibly know, and i have mayoi thoughts tonight to share with the class
(tipsy pls forgive typos)
sooooo to me theres no way in hell is mayoi cis. trans masc? genderfluid? unlabeled nonbinary? agender? no clue what they are, but what i do know is that i wanna help them explore that part of themself ❤️
(for the sake of making this simple im gonna call mayoi amab and transfem since thats probably one of the more common readings of her gender)
he looks longingly at cute things and those cute things often tend to be quite feminine. there's nothing wrong with this! he's no misogynist, he has no shame in liking "feminine" aesthetics or having stereotypically "feminine" interests such as knitting! but well... the reactions of other people are still anxiety inducing. everyone says to be yourself but could they ever truly like him? feminine interests and all? he lives doubting his worth constantly for everything ever and this call he feels to womanhood feels just as dirty as every one of his other desires... surely he will never have the confidence to fully embrace this side of him publicly!
enter: reader
meeting this guy you find him intriguing immediately. sure, some people may find him off-putting, but something about him catches your eye. despite his eccentricities, he glows with kindness and bravery, standing strong against the winds of anxiety every day of his life. truly, it is quite admirable! time only increases the amount of comfort you feel near him. but... there is something on your mind. Something that only becomes more obvious as you spend more time with him and get more chances to observe him.
He... might not be a "he" afterall?
Now, this isn't a judgement on what someone can or cant be based on superficial evidence, but it just seems that something about being a man- or at the very least, a stereotypical one- repulses him. The way he shys away from certain aesthetics, the way he preens under certain compliments... everything points in a direction that would be at odds with what would be expected of him if you judged him by the gender assigned to him at birth. All it takes is a single suggestion one day for him to crumple under pressure and for your suspicions to be at least somewhat confirmed.
He's not ready to explore his gender in the outside world, but at least in the bedroom... he's willing to try and be a good girl.
And oh how good of a girl she is. You can command her any which way, pull on her hair, kiss her limbs, shove her down your throat, fuck her 'til her minds blank- absolutely anything and she'll thank you. she's so shy and demure with her cute little skirt and her runny mascara, you just cant help it!! its also so much easier for her to embrace being girly somewhere so intimate and unjudging, where no outsiders can lay their eyes upon her and cast their judgement before she's ready to face it.
time passes and the girl inside of her grows and grows until she's bursting at the seams to let her free!! finally, one day she decides that enough is enough, and for the first time, she lets herself exist in her most natural self where everyone can see. A Mayoi who can take pride in her cuteness, in her love for cuteness, in her hobbies, and most importantly, in who she is.
(oh yeah and i also want to shove estrogen down her throat and make her gag but idk how to elegantly weave that into this ask lmao)
- wormnon
this truly does embody estrogen could fix her. except that it requires a person to shove it down her throat first