just a little blog update of mine.
I see not very much interest in my writing since months by now and this is quite demotivating for me. I've been feeding you for almost a whole year by now but recently you haven't been feeding me much with feedback and your opinion about my ideas and such and this is super demotivating.
I have decided to feed you one more time by uploading the fic that will win my new poll, but after that I will go back on hiatus for an unkown time. I am sorry you guys, but like I said: I don't see much interest in my writing anymore (as it always happens whenever I join a new fandom.) and thus I will step away from the writer community for a bit. All the drama that has been happening here recently is also a reason why I don't feel that comfortable in the writer's community right now :/.
We writers live for your feedback and if you don't feed us then most of us lose motivation to keep going. This is the reason why I have given up on so many fandoms and it's also the reason why I have completely given up on the german writer Community. I haven't recieved any feedback there anymore for many years and this demotvated me so hard that I decided to stop writing german fanfictions once and for all. It's no fun for a writer when we get the feeling no one is reading our fics. We spend so much of our life time writing all this stuff and the only thing we ask for in return is a little bit of YOUR time when you leave us some feedback to show us that you read and maybe like what we post. If you don't do that then it demotivates, makes most of us feel like our writing isn't good anymore and then we lose interest in writing more. So please you guys: feed your writers as much as they feed you. And please don't send them lame excuses why you don't comment. This won't make the situation better but worse.
Right now I am working on something in private, but I am writing this just for myself. It has nothing to do with Hazbin Hotel or any other fandom. It's an own work of mine. I tend to write when I feel really bad and I am in the middle of a heavy depression wave right now and need to deal with it somehow.
As much as I hate spring and summer, but I can't wait until my main photography season starts again, so I can indulge in this hobby of mine again. After all, nature photography is my main hobby and it works wonders on my mental health.
It really pains me to make this post and at this point I wanted to thank all you people who still stick around and enjoy my writing. You mean a lot to me and I am so very happy to have meet you because I love chatting with you, even if we send each other long a** mails (but I love it haha. I am getting to said long a** mail as soon as I can^^)
Sadly my two latest fics has become lost in the depths of tumblr, because hardly anyone reblogged them and thus they have become forgotten. That's why I would like to keep the other fics to myself until the interest comes back and if the interest won't come back, so be it. I am used to this after 14 years of being an active member of the writer community. But I just don't want that my fics will be forgotten one day after the upload, you know? I work hard on them, even if these are just fanfiction. It takes me weeks to write one and more weeks to translate one. So I really don't want them to get lost and forgotten that quickly.
I think this fandom is getting an overdose of fics and that's why it has become very hard to write anything that stands out and I consider myself an okay writer. Not good, but not bad either. I can't come up with fancy storylines anymore and thus it feels like my fics have become boring at some point and I can understand this. I mean we are writing tickle fics. It's practically the same in each and every fic we write. It's hard to write something that feels different and that stands out then.
I am sorry for this negative post, but I tend to write my feelings down and recently I have seen that I am not the only member of the Hazbin t-word community who feels that way. Many writers and artists have stopped creating content for this community and said community has become pretty quiet recently or is this just me?
Anyway, I will still be here and answer mails and all because I love staying in contact with people from all over the world. I also keep reblogging and commenting on things I enjoy myself. I just want to step back from writing for this community for some time.
Like I said: I am demotivated and I am working on something for myself right now (and I enjoy writing on this story much more than on my fics right now to be honest) and I also have started to really enjoy this "Forgotten Places" book series and I still have like 15 more books to read, so I will be quite "busy" with this^^.
That being said: Have a nice day^^