#writingtheraphy

[spectacles-of-living]

i shoved the reality

at the corner of darkness

for i alone

was never brave enough

to face the dark

i put my pain

the melancholy

on your palms

knowing you are aware

made me calm

i bottled all the tears

to show everybody

how much it hurts

and how much i cried

i embraced your presence

allowed myself to be dependent

when all along i knew

it won't last for long

my heart, aching true

my mind, in chaos with the thoughts of you

and then i burned myself down

when i lost you

i wrapped myself with bandages

took painkillers

that only numbed me

for taking much too much

and yet here is the pain

lingering in my veins

yet here is the pain

breaking me into pieces

i thought i was saved

when you rose from nothingness

filling in all

the empty spaces

but you only break me

even more.

lyvin

[hanyakleinsodalane-blog]

8.17.2015 I don't feel well today. My spiritual emptiness reflects on my physical health. Sad lang kase I'm not doing it right, there is a leading from the holy spirit to confess again, pray more, read scripture but I did none of those and did what will lead me on the opposite end. I'm sorry G.='(( Clear my mind and heart. Help me to follow the leading. You know me well better than everybody else, better than myself. Holy Spirit I surrender to your leading. Make me STILL and Control me. I need encouragement and guidance. I need to feel you physically, emotionally and spiritually. Please take care of me. #writingtheraphy #prayerwriting #dailydevotion #honestly #DearG #busridetohome