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Calmer, calmer, calmer...
LEE KNOW x Boucheron for NYLON Japan
DEAR Y/N: SORRY WE TRIED TO KILL YOU
pairing: serial killers!ot8!skz x fem!reader
genre: crackfic, dark comedy, dark romance, thriller
summary: hyunjin invites you over to hang out with him and his friends. they try to kill you. you survive! aaaand now theyâre obsessed with you.
warnings: non idol au, attempted murder of protagonist(reader), violence, blood, stalking, obsessive behavior, mentions of death/murder/dismemberment/(implied)rape(itâs just in a conversation, it didnât happen to anyone in the fic!!), cursing, homicidal behavior/psychopathy, dumb han and felix, people die, the love interests(skz) are the problem, nobody here is okay, english is obvi not my first language
word count: 13k
you almost got murdered.
by eight gorgeous men.
yea, y/n. you got yourself into that situation. but how?
you were walking home once, minding your own business, chewing on some thought. could have been anything. from dinner to what you need to do tomorrow, letâs not act like it matters. none of these little details matter, what does, is that a man was walking towards you. (an: guys iâll clarify it now that itâs hyunjin. i just hate when fanfics try to describe looks when we donât know names yet)
the man passed you. smelled great. nothing more.
âis this yours?â
that was him. his voice. he talked to you.
you stopped then and turned around. he was also standing still, looking at you. holding a single airpod.
no. it was not yours. at all. not your airpod.
âshit. yes, it is.â you smiled. a hundred percent aware that the single airpod was not yours.
hyunjin smiled, relieved in a way that suggested he had not planned beyond step one: talk to pretty girl. he asked your name. you asked his. he pretended he wasnât internally rehearsing how to introduce you to the worst decision of your life.
and thatâs exactly how you got yourself into the situation before your getting murdered one, where you kept seeing hyunjin, never really revealing that the airpod was not yours. you didnât want to, he was just so cute.
and also a serial killer, not like you knew that though.
hyunjin was always the best with the women. or with the people in general. the other seven guys were⊠doing alright with them, sure, some better and some worse, but hyunjin always got what he wanted. he was the one collecting the people, another person to kill.
which did not happen to you, duh itâs in the first line, but how? how, when the eight of them, eight little nobodies who only got through life because of each other, are so good at killing? how, when itâs the main thing that bonds them together and gives them their sick little dosage of joy? how, when thatâs the thing they can do best? how, when theyâre fit? lucky? hot?
yea iâll just stop with all the questions. iâm boutta explain, obvi.
so. you two started meeting up. you not telling him that the airpod wasnât yours, him not telling you he was planning on sliming you out.
once, he invited you out. you two have been out hundreds and thousands of times(like five times), so it didnât seem like anything out of the ordinary to you. not a date, he said hang out. his place. âa few friends might be thereâ he added. you went. fucking idiot.
the place was so fucking cool. big. looked good. kinda place where you immediately lost cell service and your sense of direction.
âthatâs just the guys.â hyunjin had also said when you two got there, gesturing inside.
you met them all in under three minutes, which was about two minutes too many. chan was a gentleman. he smiled. he shook your hand. he had huge arms and was gorgeous.
minho and seungmin both looked like they hated you. looked you up and down. acted like bitches. acted like they didnât understand what you wanted when you said hi and introduced yourself. acted like you were beneath them. hm.
changbin saved the moment by immediately knocking over a chair and laughing at himself. he was sweet. he asked you if you wanted a drink. that was nice, because he meant that. he wanted to get you something to drink, even if he wanted to kill you after. wanting to absolutely murder you wasnât personal, so he wasnât going to make it personal.
felix and unfortunately han, two sunshine or whatever you heard the guys say about them(why were there two?) were sweet, but dumb. han tried to shake your hand and missed. felix complimented your shoes and then apologized to the floor.
jeongin bowed. he asked if you were real. he told chan you were out of his league. chan was about to smash his head into a wall. he seemed intelligent though, a little playful, a little flirty. sweet guy. (also a fucking psychopath y/n run run RUN)
through all of it, hyunjin, the liar, the asshole, stayed near you. calm. watching. soooo fucking hot, man. everyone else was loud or mean or deeply stupid, but hyunjin looked at you like he didnât quite know what to do with you.
which was funny, because the rest of them clearly knew exactly what they wanted to do with you.
they were bad at hiding it. terrible, actually. chan kept whispering. minho and seungmin stared too long. felix dropped something sharp and went âoopsâ. jeongin asked, loudly, if you were good at running, then immediately said he meant marathons.
you thought they were weird. intense. hot, unfortunately. you had no idea you were being sized up.
so. like two hours into the hang out. you didnât have your phone with you, it was in the living room somewhere. you were in the kitchen with hyunjin, leaning against a counter, listening to him explain, calmly, something about the cabinets.
âuhuh.â you said, opening three drawers and finding nothing but knives. so many knives. âoouukay.â
from the living room, something heavy scraped across the floor.
âalright.â chanâs voice came. âenough foreplay.â
you frowned, no idea what he was referring to. yet. âthatâs a weird thing to say out loud.â
hyunjin hummed. then seungmin appeared in the doorway, posture lazy, swaying a lil, with a fire poker in his hand. i repeat, fire poker.
you had just enough time to think oh thatâs new, before he swung. clean. aimed at your head.
you ducked on instinct. the poker smashed into the cabinet behind you, splintering wood, sending a drawer of knives exploding onto the floor.
everyone froze for half a second.
âjesus.â changbin said from somewhere nearby. âwe just fixed that.â
you stared at seungmin. he stared back. you two stared at each other for a while.
ââŠhuh.â you said. âokay.â
then you ran.
the boys just⊠got into it immediately. switched. getting up. listening to your footsteps. laughing. jeongin whooped. they all obviously had done this before. they were so boyish, all of them. and so fucking evil.
you ran down a hallway, heart slamming in your ribs. a door on your left? locked. on your right, open.
you ran into a study and immediately regretted it. felix was there, sitting on a desk, holding a crossbow. WHERE. DID. HE. GET. THAT. FROM.
âoh!â he said, genuinely delighted. âhey.â
âmove.â you snapped.
he winced sympathetically. âcanât.â
the shit that he shot out of the bow that i donât know the name of thunked into the wall beside your head. close enough that you felt the vibration.
âfuck you.â you said, accepting it surprisingly quick that you were getting hunted down.
you burst back into the hall and nearly collided with changbin. he caught you by the shoulders automatically, steadying you.
âokay.â he said, quick and quiet. âleft stairâs blocked. right one buys you maybe twenty seconds.â
âwhy are you telling me?â you panted.
he shrugged. âi like you.â
then he leaned down, pressed a quick kiss into your hair, warm, apologetic, and shoved you forward by the middle of your back.
âgo.â he said. âbefore i change my mind.â
you went.
behind you, he called out cheerfully: âshe went right!â
âYOU FUCKING LIAR.â minho yelled immediately.
you ran up the stairs two at a time. at the top when you turned, han was waiting, holding a bat.
âoh shit.â he said. âhi.â
you grabbed the bat mid-swing, yanked it free, and cracked him across the shin. you fucking rock y/n.
he screamed, fell over, and immediately yelled: âtimeout! timeout!â
you ditched the bat(DUMB bitch) and ran into what looked like a⊠whatever room. it was big, too big, too open, too much of a bad choice.
chan stepped into your path. was this bitch there the whole time? no, he couldnât be. could he?
âeasy.â he said, hands up. calm. annoyingly handsome. âyouâre safe forââ
you threw a chair at his head.
he caught it.
you spun, only to find minho closing in. you kicked him in the knee. hard. he lunged. you ducked, grabbed a chair again and swung blindly. the thing is, you were extremely weak tho. the chair could have been a fucking pillow at this point, because he just stepped away from it. and you⊠kinda went with the chair. but you stood up! luckily.
they loved this. they loved the way you fought. the way you adapted. the way you didnât scream, just swore and moved and made it harder than it was supposed to be. it made them better. sharper. meaner. more playful.
you ran out the door you came in thru and shut it behind you, jamming a heavy table against it. the boys could have prevented that, they just didnât. you were way too fun, and they knew that you were getting tired. they knew they were going to win this. again.
you waited a bit.
the door shuddered. once. twice.
then stopped.
silence.
your stomach dropped. that was never good.
âokay.â hyunjinâs calm voice came, suddenly close, from behind you. âiâm gonna need you to turn around.â
you spun.
for a moment, you just stared at each other.
âyeah.â you said breathlessly. âso. the airpod?â
he winced. âyeah.â
âfigures. sorry for lying about it.â
âitâs fine. i lied too.â he stepped aside, gesturing toward a side door. gentlemanly. insane. ârun.â he said. âiâll count to five.â
âwhy?â
he smiled, small. âbecause itâs more fun when you almost make it.â
you didnât wait for five. you ran again, heart in your throat.
âYOUâRE DOING GREAT!â felix shouted when he saw you run past him. âI MEANâSTOP!â
yeah. pfftt.
the house stopped making sense after a while. corridors doubled back on themselves, which was fucking brutal. there were rooms you swore youâd already crossed. you ducked into a side room and slammed the door, immediately realizing, too late, that it didnât lock.
âfuck.â you whispered, hands on your knees, trying to quiet your breathing. and you listened. footsteps walked past. someone laughed, a really⊠loud laugh. jeonginâs voice echoed from somewhere far off. you could hear how unserious his voice was, talking bout sum âsheâs still upright, folks, which is honestly impressiveâ genuinely just making fun of the situation.
âkeys.â you muttered. âi need keys.â because you clearly remembered hyunjin closing the front door after you.
from behind the curtain came a soft, confused, very close: ââŠhuh.â
you froze.
the curtain moved. it was han, holding a knife and a flashlight upside down, blinking at you.
âohâ he said. âhi.â
third hi he said tonight. hi to you too, han.
you stared at each other.
âuh.â he said.
âyeah.â you replied.
a beat passed.
another.
he frowned at the flashlight, turned it the right way up, immediately blinded himself, and yelped.
âsorry.â he said, rubbing his eyes. âdidnât mean to corner you.â serial killer btw.
âyou did.â you said. âthatâs literally what you did.â
âright.â he nodded. âyeah. so. iâm supposed to, uhââ he made a weak stabbing motion with his hand that held the knife. missed entirely. ââdo the thing.â
you glanced at the knife in his hand. them at him. then back at the knife. âyou donât look super confident about that.â you said.
he shrugged. âi get nervous.â he hesitated. then leaned in and whispered: âhyunjin gave his keys to chan, i saw it.â
ââŠthaaanks.â
he smiled, shy. âokay.â he said, stepping aside. âiâm gonna count to⊠uh⊠whatâs fair?â
âten.â you said immediately.
he nodded seriously. âten.â
you bolted.
âONEââ he shouted, already losing count. âTHREEâWAITââ
you ran out. didnât get far though, you heard too many noises, so you did what made sense at the moment. hide again. and you did hide again, at least tried, you were soon interrupted by seeing felix, who was crouched behind a couch, chewing on a cereal bar.
he looked up mid bite. âoh. hello again.â
âmove. again.â you said.
he scooted instantly. âyep.â
you walked past. paused. looked back. âwhy are you hiding?â
he swallowed. âi forgot what the plan was.â
âoh. iâm sorry.â
âitâs alright.â
from the hallway, heavy footsteps approached. chan, probably. he walks confident. you can just⊠hear his walk. felix heard it too. he grimaced.
âheâs gonna be mad.â felix whispered. âhe hates when i lose track.â
you looked at felix. then at the hallway. then back at felix. âyouâre fine. itâs not your fault. i think so, at least.â you looked around. âhe just feels like the fucking star of the show, having the keys and all thatâ
felixâs eyes lit up. âoh! yeah, heâs got those.â
boom. that was your plan. sneak the keys into the conversation. get to know about it. youâll be out of there in no time, y/n.
you looked back at him. âcan you distract him?â
felix thought for a second, then shook his pretty head enthusiastically. âabsolutely not.â
ââŠfair.â
he stood anyway, squared his shoulders, and ran into the hallway yelling âHEY BRO I THINK SHE WENTââ
you didnât hear the rest. you ran. you climbed stairs, ducked under a railing(just being extra for no reason pfffft), slipped through a door that led into a laundry room, and locked it. the blessed, beautiful click of a lock nearly made you cry. then you crouched between machines, shaking, trying not to laugh or scream or do both.
minutes passed. nothing. then, a knock. polite. gentle.
you stared at the door.
hyunjinâs voice followed, calm as ever. âiâm not coming in.â
âyeah?â you called. âpromise?â
âcross my heart.â
âdonât have one.â jeongin added from somewhere farther back.
hyunjin sighed.
the fact that jeongin heard you talk and didnât go to the laundry room says a lot about them though. tells you that theyâre doing this for fun. that theyâre not in a hurry at all.
you edged closer to the door, careful. âi need the keys.â
âi know.â
âgive them to me.â
a pause. you imagined him leaning against the wall, hands in pockets, watching the floor. âyou almost deserve them.â he said. âthatâs the problem.â from down the hall came a crash, followed by changbin yelling. hyunjin continued anyway, softer now. âif you get them, though⊠youâre really leaving.â
âyes.â
âshame.â
fucking manipulator. thatâs what he is. âyouâre really leavingâ oh boo fucking hoo. sappy asshole. not one sincere bone in his beautiful body.
the doorknob jiggled once.
âfive minutes.â he said. âthatâs what I can give you.â
then footsteps retreated. you sagged against the dryer, adrenaline basically ripping your muscles. five minutes. okay. you had to get out for sure, otherwise you would be so dead. so, next, run. you were going to run. open the door and⊠go⊠some⊠way. anyways, thatâs what you did after about one minute of sitting on the floor and thinking about how will you do that. you got out, and didnât stop running so much as you failed forward into the next hallway.
somewhere behind you, han shouted your name wrong, twice, then tripped over absolutely nothing and went down with a sound like a dropped bookshelf.
âFUCK.â he yelled. âiâm okay! IâM OKAY.â
you risked a glance back just in time to see him scramble up, only to immediately collide with minho, who had come around the corner too fast. they hit the wall together, tangled, swearing.
you burst through a door and nearly slammed straight into seungmin. both of you froze. like actually froze. inches apart. his breath was loud. yours was worse. he stared at you. you stared at him. his grip tightened on whatever sharp thing he had in his hand.
ââŠhi.â you said.
âsup.â he said. âyouâre shorter up close.â
âfuck you.â
âlater.â he agreed easily.
you looked at him, furrowing your pretty brows.
he glanced down at the knife in his hand, then back up at you. âthis is awkward.â
âyeah.â
he tilted his head. âyou okay?â
âno.â you said.
âhm.â
there was a beat where neither of you moved. somewhere far away, something crashed, probably han.
seungmin tilted his head. âyou gonna run, or are we doing this weird staring thing?â
you lunged left.
he lunged right.
you both smacked into the same doorframe and recoiled in pain.
âfuck.â you mumbled, rubbing your pretty head.
âshit, okay, that oneâs on me.â he admitted, rubbing his shoulder. his pretty shoulder. that sweater looked good on him, by the way. yeah. hm. really good. but that didnât fucking matter when he lunged again.
you screamed, slipped on a rug, and went down hard, only for minho to come in from the side and tackle seungmin directly into a glass table. the table shattered.
you stared.
they stared back.
ââŠgo.â seungmin shook his head, waving you off.
you did not need to be told twice. behind you, minho yelled smth like âWHY ARE YOU LETTING HER GO?â
a crash. a thud.
then seungmin, very calmly: âbecause youâre pissing me off.â
you ran straight into han and felix arguing at the end of the hall.
âi said left.â han insisted, holding a crowbar upside down.
âyou always say left.â felix argued, holding a taser and clearly forgetting how it worked.
you skidded to a stop.
all three of you froze.
you were panting. âcan you bothââ
felix lunged. han lunged. they lunged into each other. they crashed, arms everywhere, legs everywhere, clothes everywhere, the smell of men everywhere, tangled up, the taser going off uselessly into the air.
âSTOP STABBING MY JACKET.â felix yelled.
âI THOUGHT YOU WERE HER.â han yelled back.
you stepped over them. âthank you.â you said sincerely, and ran.
you rounded a corner and slammed straight into chan, full chest to chest. you both stumbled back a step. he held you automatically, hands on your arms. you stared up at him. he stared down at you.
he almost smiled.
then han came sprinting in, tripped over absolutely nothing, and took chan out at the knees.
âOH MY GOD IâM SO SORRY.â han yelled, tangled in chanâs limbs. âI DIDNâT SEE YOU.â
seungmin and minho found you again. jeongin leaned against a wall, wiping dust off his knees. han just got up and felix came in late, and they tripped over each other again. chan just sighed at this point.
you backed toward the door, hands up.
then while getting up, felix slipped. took han down with him. again. they crashed into minho, who slammed into seungmin.
jeongin smiled. âDOMINOES!â
that was your chance to do something. something to even just slow these guys down, anything, bro. so, you did. when chan stood up finally, you lunged for him.
but like⊠that asshole just laughed in your face and twisted away easily, shoving you past him. âgo.â he said. âyouâre warmer when you keep moving.â
weirdo. but you ran again anyway, down a side corridor, thru a door and immediately ate shit. your foot caught on absolutely nothing, and you slid, palms burning, your pretty little skin they want to cut so bad just gone like that.
behind you, there was a collective âOOHHHH.â
you rolled your eyes. sighed. thought about just lying there because they would probably still miss even if you were completely still. you decided maybe not. so you scrambled up and ran again, swearing, adrenaline making everything feel fucking crazy. unreal. is this really happening?
you didnât know how long you ran. time stopped somewhere around the third near death experience.
you went downstairs and upstairs and downstairs again, back and forth, hoping to find something that could save your life. when you were back at the stairs for the seventh time that night, you took the stairs three at a time, only to find han at the top, again, wheezing, holding a knife backwards.
âWAIT.â he said. âhold onâtimeoutâmy lungââ
you ran past him.
he immediately tripped over his own foot and tumbled down the stairs alone, screaming âIâM FINEâIâM NOT FINEâTELL MY MOMââ
you didnât look back. you burst into a bedroom and slammed the door, locking it just as something heavy hit the other side.
silence.
your chest heaved. sweat slicked your now skinless palms. you pressed your back to the door and slid down until you were sitting on the floor, brain finally catching up enough to think.
okay. door. big house. front door has keys. keys are on someone. they told you itâs at chan but he could have gave it to anyone since that.
that was bad.
you stood, looking through the room. window. too high. bathroom. connected. closet. tiny but usable. fuck yes. you hid in the closet just as the door opened.
footsteps. slow. unhurried. manly.
âyou know, i really thought we had something.â jeongin. sweet. acting, obviously.
you clapped a hand over your mouth.
he paced the room, dragging something metal lightly along furniture. an axe, maybe.
âlike, donât get me wrong.â he continued conversationally, âi love the chase. big fan. but the eye contact earlier? intimate.â
you heard him stop in front of the closet.
ââŠyou in there?â
you didnât move.
he sighed. then, dropped to his knees. you could see him through the slats now, sprawled on the floor.
ây/n.â
you could hear your breathing. you could also hear his. which meantâŠ
âcome out.â
âŠhe could hear yours too.
okay. fuck. your only option was to make a run for it. so, after taking a biiiiig big breath, you burst out of the closet and kicked him in the shoulder. was it successful? was it a good kick? who knows. it knocked him down, thatâs what matters, but it was a pretty lame kick after all. he only went down because he wanted to, not because you actually kicked him good.
anyways, you ran again. out the room. then immediately skidded to a stop when seungmin opened a door in front of you.
he stepped aside immediately. âafter you.â he said, gesturing inside.
you stared at him.
he stared back.
you could hear hyunjin make a noise, talking with changbin.
seungmin raised his brows. âi insist.â
he knew that you needed an escape route and this was your only option. you knew he knew.
you sighed. ran through it, and it slammed shut behind you. you could hear a snicker(his voice), then silence. maybe he left. maybe not.
the room you were in was darker. storage. boxes. is this place even owned by these guys? or do they just come here to⊠play?
you hid behind a shelf, crouching, heart in your ears.
okay. think.
front door. locked. too obvious. you needed keys. you needed a person.
but they were playing. this wasnât about killing you quickly. it was about the fun. about testing themselves. about proving, again, that they were smarter, faster, better. the teamwork thrilled them. having prey thrilled them.
footsteps approached. you tensed.
door opened. han stepped into the room, tripped over absolutely nothing, and fell into a stack of boxes. why always this guy?
âoh COME ON.â he groaned. âi wasnât even chasing her!â
neither of you moved.
ââŠyou okay?â you asked.
âyeah.â he said, looking up, nose bleeding. âyeah. you?â
âliving the dream.â
he nodded. then, very gently, he pointed back towards the door. âtheyâre coming.â he whispered.
in the doorway, felix appeared, pointing at han. âdude. again?â
you took the chance and got out of your hiding place, quick, and bolted past them both.
felix gasped. âoh shitâsorryâsorryââ
han tried to follow, slipped again, and yelled: âWAIT FOR ME!â
a crash. a curse. someone else falling over him.
you ran down the hall toward what you hoped was the front of the house. behind you, shouting, laughter, whooping, bodies colliding, someone yelling âWHO LEFT THIS CHAIR HERE?â you rounded a corner and skidded to a stop in front of the front door. you tried the door. locked. you didnât know where the keys are. your chest tightened. behind you, footsteps slowed. confident. chan, seungmin, minho, jeongin, closing in.
you turned around. the wall met your back hard enough to knock the air out of you.
âokay.â you said, breathless, palms flat against cold wood. âokay. this isâyeah. alright.â
the other four found you too. felix, panting. han, limping. hyunjin and changbin obviously not affected because they didnât really take part of the chase. blocking off every possible exit.
chan didnât take his eyes off you. âeveryone good?â he asked, calm. so fucking calm. knowing he won.
âpeachy.â jeongin said.
âbit winded.â felix added. âbut spiritually fulfilled.â
changbin gave you an apologetic little wave. âsorry.â
two seconds later, seungmin lunged.
you fought, harder than they expected, apparently, elbowing, kicking, swearing. but they were sure now, hands grabbing wrists, legs hooking yours, pressure applied. you went down. not slammed, though. controlled. that fucking pissed you off more.
seungmin had your arms pinned. minho had a knee on your thigh. chan crouched in front of you, looking down at your pretty face.
the second you were fully restrained, jeongin shrieked. âoh my GOD we got her!â
he leapt into felixâs arms. felix caught him, squealing back.
âwe did it!â felix yelled.
they spun once. almost fell. han clapped wildly and then tripped into changbin, taking them both down.
you laid there, chest heaving, heart pounding, really feeling your body, not knowing what the fuck was happening. because they didnât seem dangerous, but you knew they were.
chan tilted his head. âyou ran well.â
âthanks.â you said.
jeongin crouched down to your face. âso. how you feeling?â
âfuck off.â
hyunjin tilted his pretty head, hands in his pockets. âyou did really well.â
you forced yourself to breathe slower. think. keys. chanâs jacket pocket. right side. youâd seen the outline earlier when he caught one of the boys midfall.
jeongin tilted his head at you. âare you afraid? like, iâm actually asking, because i need to know what to do differently next time. are you afraid of death? did we make you feel like youâre going to die? how would you rate it out of ten?â
you sighed, looking down at the floor. âgetting killed is, like, the last thing on my list right now.â
they paused.
seungmin grimaced. âyeah, no.â
âoh, no.â felix said, shaking his head
âdude.â minho murmured.
âwe would never.â changbin whispered.
âew.â han blurted, horrified.
you narrowed your eyes. âew?â
ânoânoânot ew you. i meanâfuckâyouâre hotâshitâsorryâwhat I meant wasââ
jeongin smacked the back of his head. âstop talking.â
seungmin grimaced. âweâre not⊠that evil.â
minho crossed his arms. âjesus.â
chan straightened slightly. âthatâs not our thing.â
you watched it all. the discomfort. the immediate correction. the way the tone shifted. interesting.
ârelax.â you said, rolling your neck as much as the hold allowed. âi know.â
âthank you.â han said, sweating. âsorry. respectfully.â
âyouâre fine.â you murmured.
âyeah?â
âyeah.â
but something had changed. you saw it. that weird line youâd dropped, (half joke, half truth because itâs horrible that we have to live in a world like this), went somewhere they didnât like. their version of evil had rules. sooo fucking weird ones, but still.
âokay.â you said. âwait. wait.â
they paused.
âwhat.â
âi think iâm gonna throw up.â
âfuckââ changbin recoiled.
ânot on me.â minho said, backing up.
âturn her head!â felix yelped.
jeongin scrambled backward on his hands and feet.
chan watched seungmin loosen his grip. âare you actually nauseous?â
âyeah.â you croaked, gagging for effect. âstress. adrenaline. it hit now that iâm still.â
hyunjin crouched beside you, studying your face. âyou might want to give her space.â
âTHANK you.â you gasped.
they got off you. you rolled to your side, clutching your stomach dramatically. and in that shuffle, arms moving, balance adjusting, you shoved your hand straight into chanâs jacket pocket. your fingers hit metal.
keys.
you grabbed them and curled them into your palm just as jeongin leaned back in. âyou good?â
you gagged louder.
âjesus.â minho said, disgusted.
âokay, okay.â changbin said. âbathroom, bathroomââ
âdown the hall.â hyunjin said.
you scrambled to your knees, pushing past them, one hand over your mouth, the other clenched tight around the keys.
âdonât run.â chan warned.
you made eye contact with him.
and ran.
âFUCK.â seungmin yelled.
âGO GO GO.â han screamed, even though he was on the wrong side.
you sprinted down the hallway, heart about to explode, keys biting into your palm. behind you, footsteps. but now⊠less playful. more oh shit.
han tripped immediately. felix ran into a wall. changbin yelled: âSTAIRSâCUT HER OFFââ and jeongin was just shouting around for fun. just hootin n hollerin.
you ran down the hall.
behind you, hyunjinâs calm voice said: âdonât panic.â which was funny. because they finally were.
you ran away from them. deep into the house again. you heard the footsteps disappear from behind you. good. good.
you slowed just enough to think. you couldnât outrun eight of them forever.
chan and hyunjin were walking together on the halls. hyunjin had a small, neat folding knife now resting loose between his fingers. chan had taken a syringe with him. already prepped. yes, he can do a lot with only one syringe. his other hand kept brushing the empty space where the keys used to be.
he didnât like that.
âshe took them clean.â chan said.
âyeah.â hyunjin replied quietly. âgood hands.â
chan glanced at him. âyou sound impressed.â
âi am.â
âyou like her?â
hyunjin didnât answer.
âif we lose her, we change locations.â chan said, ignoring that his earlier question didnât get an answer. he already knew it.
hyunjin nodded. but there was something under it. for the first time, the outcome wasnât certain. that was unusual for them, because they usually did really, really good at this. once someone was caught by them, there was no escape. you were the first one who lived to a second round. he found that interesting. and yeah, he might have started developing a tiny little crush on you, back when you two were just meeting up normally. so what? heâs allowed to!
jeongin moved alone. still with his axe that heâd twirled into familiarity. he swung it lightly as he walked. he checked corners, smiling. as if he was dancing.
ây/n.â he called, sing-song. âbe honest, was it the flirting? too much? i can dial it back. slightly.â
he stepped over a fallen chair.
âi just feel like we had chemistry.â
he grinned to himself. he loved this part, the story, the tension, the almost. he knew you were thinking now. they got a thinker. he loves that. he hates that.
he paused, listening. then grinned. âoh, you sneaky girl.â
seungmin had the fire poker again. reliable. brutal.
he liked the chase because it stripped people down to instinct. no masks. no pretending. no lying. just raw survival. thatâs what he respected.
âcâmon.â he murmured. âdonât go quiet on me.â
you were irritating him. he barely got irritated. ever.
changbin and minho moved together. changbin carried an injection case now, plus a heavy flashlight he could swing if needed. minho had a hunting knife.
they turned a corner. empty.
âsheâs doing something.â minho realized.
changbinâs smile(that came upon his face while he was thinking about you, hehehe) faded. âoh.â
they heard a noise and both spun, only to slam into each other again.
âFOR FUCKâS SAKE.â minho snapped.
âshit.â changbin said, steadying the other guy by his shoulders. âletâs just go.â
you moved through hallways. your lungs burned, but your head was clear now. you slipped into a side room and crouched low, listening.
footsteps passed. voices echoed elsewhere. theyâd spread too wide.
you waited. counted to twenty. then moved.
back at the hyunjin chan duo, hyunjin stopped in the hallway. âsheâs heading back.â he said quietly.
chan. followed his gaze toward the front of the house. âyou sure?â
âyes.â
âhow?â
âitâs what iâd do.â
meanwhile, at the front door han sat on the floor, back against the wall, holding a shovel. felix sat beside him on the other side of the door with a frying pan he absolutely did not need to be trusted with.
ââŠwe guarding?â han asked.
felix looked at the door. looked at the hallway. looked back at the door.
ââŠyeah.â he decided.
they both nodded, serious.
âyou think she thinks iâm cute?â han asked, adjusting his grip on the shovel.
âbro.â felix said immediately. âabsolutely.â
âreally?â
âyea, mate.â
they dapped each other up.
âif she makes it back here, i call saying something smooth.â felix said thoughtfully.
âwhatâs smooth?â
âi donât know yet.â
while they talked, you grabbed a metal⊠something from a side table. and started walking back toward the front door.
âshe definitely liked when i said she was hot.â han said.
ârespectfully.â felix said.
ârespectfully.â han looked away, then back at felix. âsheâs gonna be so impressed when we catch her.â
âdude. literally.â
they fist bumped.
then, a loud sound came from down the hallway, and a metal object rolling fast across the floor toward them.
they screamed, then scrambled to their feet, immediately abandoning the door.
âdude. weâre gonna fucking die.â han cried.
felix grabbed his arm. âif y/n was here right now, sheâd hold my hand.â
âyeah.â han said, terrified. âsheâd be so brave.â
âshould we check?â
âabsolutely not.â
ââŠwe should get the others.â
âyes.â
they ran away from the door, deeper back into the house, yelling for backup.
the front door stood unguarded.
you waited three full seconds after their footsteps faded. then you moved. silent. you didnât run, that was important. you didnât want to make noise.
behind you, distant voices.
âFRONT DOOR!â
âTHEY LEFT ITââ
you walked to the door quickly. put the key in. wrong key. tried another. wrong key. another. unlocked it. opened it.
now, you ran. you ran, and didnât stop. you didnât look back. already past the gate. past the trees. gone.
for the first time ever, theyâd lost.
the boys regrouped at the front door. empty. door slightly open.
silence.
chan looked at the door. then at hyunjin, who stared at the gap, face blank. he felt respect. and relief.
seungmin looked at the lock. then at chanâs empty pocket. then back at the lock.
for a second, nobody spoke.
âyouâve got to be fucking kidding me.â minho said, sneering.
behind them, han and felix jogged in, out of breath and pale.
âokay.â felix panted. âsoâupdateâthereâs a hallway demonââ
they stopped when they saw everyone standing still, all backs turned to them.
felix looked around. âanyone else feel a breeze?â
chan walked to the door in three steps and shoved it open the rest of the way. empty driveway. dark trees. no you.
jeongin blinked. ââŠno.â
seungmin made a sound like someone had just run over his foot. ânoooo.â
minho rubbed both hands down his face. âno no no noââ
jeongin looked at the ceiling. âoh thatâs embarrassing. thatâs so embarrassing for us.â
han gasped âshit, she did it!â
felix nodded. âi always believed in her.â
they high-fived.
every head turned.
âare you two serious right now?â seungmin snapped.
han immediately jumped into felix arms.
chan stepped back inside slowly and shut the door, quiet. too quiet. âno one moves.â he said.
seungmin was already halfway to the threshold, fire poker still in hand. âwe can still see the roadââ
chan grabbed his arm. hard. âi said no.â
seungmin yanked free. âsheâs on foot.â
âshe has a head start.â
jeongin crossed his arms, shifting his weight. âso we justâwhatâclap?â
âuse your brain for once.â chan, voice low. âyouâll make mistakes.â
âoh, iâm sorry.â seungmin snapped. âdid your pocket make a mistake?â
OHHHHH.
minho swore and kicked a chair across the room. it smashed into the wall. âTHIS is why we donât get cute.â he said. âthis is why we donât play with our food.â
chanbin winced. âokay, that phraseââ
ânot the time.â seungmin cut in.
hyunjin leaned against a table, arms crossed, watching the boys.
seungmin looked at him, suspicious. the level of angry where he gets suspicious at anything. âyouâre quiet.â
âthinking.â
âabout?â
hyunjin didnât answer.
âyou liked her.â minho accused.
hyunjinâs eyes flicked to him, calm and flat. âirrelevant.â
âbullshit.â
chan stepped between them before it turned physical. âenough.â
âno, not enough.â jeongin shot back. âshe got past eight of us. eight.â
âseven.â seungmin muttered. âi was close.â
âYOU HIT A CABINET.â changbin screeched.
felix, still holding han bridal style, raised a hand. âi think we should acknowledge that she was very good.â
everyone stared at him.
han nodded seriously. âand brave.â
minho looked like he might actually kill them. âput him down.â
felix gently set han on his feet.
han immediately pointed at minho. âyour energy is aggressive.â
minho grabbed a glass off a table and hurled it into the fireplace. it shattered. âTHIS is aggressive.â
âbilly badass over there.â changbin murmured, crossing his huge arms.
minho didnât hesitate to turn towards changbin and shove him. changbin shoved back automatically.
âdonât start.â chan warned.
too late. seungmin grabbed minhoâs shoulder and pulled him back. minho shook him off. jeongin stepped between them, not to help, just to watch. âgod, youâre all so emotional.â he muttered.
seungmin started toward the door again, fury radiating off him. âiâm going after her.â
now, chan didnât just stop him but actually pushed him away by the chest. a confident, violent push. manly. frustrated. âno.â
seungmin rounded on him. âsheâs RIGHT THERE.â
han raised his hand again. âi still think she likes me.â
everyone yelled at once: âSHUT UP.â âREAD THE ROOM.â âYOU WERE AFRAID OF THE DARK.â âSHE HIT YOU WITH A BAT.â âYOU LEFT THE DOOR.â
âwe were investigating a threat!â felix said defensively to the last one.
âyou are the threat, you idiot!â seungmin barked, then grabbed the front of his own shirt and screamed into it.
minho kicked the wall.
chan exhaled through his nose, centering himself. âno chasing into the dark.â he said. ânot like this.â
âsheâs getting farther.â jeongin argued.
seungmin made a noise like something dying. chan folded his arms. thinking. hyunjin stared into the night air like he could still see the path you took.
behind them, han whispered to felix: âwhen we catch her, iâm gonna ask if she thinks my eyes are pretty.â
felix nodded seriously. âthey are.â
eight dangerous men. outplayed. and every single one of them wanted you back.
so yeah. thatâs what happened, like⊠two weeks ago now? yeah. about two weeks. now youâre living your life. you hadnât told anyone. what would you even say? you decided to just leave it. process it. give yourself time to get over it.
now you are standing in line for coffee. lifeâs been fine since that after all, you deserve it. you slept. eventually. not well, but enough. you changed routines. new routes, new locks, pepper spray, therapy waitlist, the works. you tell yourself youâre fine.
your name gets called.
âhey.â
your stomach drops before your brain catches up. you donât turn around. because you know that voice. so you grab your coffee and walk. behind you, footsteps.
âokay, so donât freak out.â jeongin says.
you keep walking.
âthatâs actually a terrible opener, sorry, ignore that.â
you cross the street. he crosses too. you donât look at him. you donât run. at least you try.
âyou look good.â he adds.
âgo away.â you say calmly.
âworking on it.â he says, which is not how that phrase works.
you turn a corner toward a busier street. people. noise. couples. kids.
âno.â you say.
âi just want to talk.â
âno.â
âdid you get a haircut?â he tries.
you stop dead and turn. âhow long have you been following me?â
âtoday? orââ
âjeongin.â
he winces. âokay. today today? like twenty minutes. but not in a creepy way. i was building courage.â
you resume walking faster.
he matches it, breath puffing a little. âlisten, i know we didnât end on a great note.â
âyou chased me with an axe.â you cross the street without looking. a car honks. jeongin grabs your sleeve and yanks you back just enough to keep you from getting hit.
you stare at him.
âi didnât come to hurt you.â he says. âif that helps.â
you keep walking. he groans softly and follows. people passing by just see two hot twenty somethings having what looks like a mildly tense situationship talk. itâs kinda crazy that they have no idea what happened two weeks ago.
you walk faster. he matches it.
âyou dropped something.â he blurts. when you give no reaction, he tugs at your sleeve. âreally.â he says, pointing behind you.
âthat only worked once.â you say, yanking your hand out his grip.
âyeah.â he sighs. âworth a shot.â
a florist stand is set up on the corner. without stopping, jeongin leans sideways, grabs a small bouquet, tosses a crumpled bill onto the table, and keeps moving. he shoves the flowers toward you.
you stare at them. then at him. you donât take them. but you stop walking and finally look at him.
he looks⊠normal. hoodie. messy hair. no axe. no grin that clearly tells heâs in animal mode. just this pretty guy.
people move around you, annoyed at the sidewalk blockage.
âyou have five seconds.â you say.
he nods, serious now. âokay. weâre not going to hurt you.â
you stare. you start walking again.
he follows. âthe boys havenât shut up about you.â
âthatâs not flattering.â
âit kind of is.â
âi donât know what you want. iâm not coming back.â you say.
âi know.â
âyou canât follow me.â
âalready am.â
you reached your apartment building. this is bad. this is very bad. you stop again, turning to face him fully now. his eyes shine.
âwe donât want to kill you.â he says quietly.
you search for anything that could say heâs lying. you canât find it.
âthat doesnât make you better.â you say.
âi know.â
âyouâre stillââ
âyeah.â
ââŠif you come near my place again, i call the cops.â
he nods immediately.
âif i see any of you, i run.â
âmhm.â he holds the flowers out again, then seems to think better of it and just sets them on the sidewalk between you. âi just needed you to see that iâm not⊠only that.â
ââŠyou are that.â you say. youâre not even being mean, just honest. brutally honest.
âyeah.â he says.
you go inside without looking back. not caring about where will he go, when will he go, why will he go.
the next day, you change your route. different coffee shop. different street. hoodie up, headphones on, just really fucking trying to stay away from them in general. youâre in that coffee shop now. then you step out of the cafĂ© with your drink, and nearly walk straight into a guy. you flinch back hard.
âwhoaâsorryâsorry.â a voice says quickly.
you look up. it takes your brain a second. glasses. plain black frames. simple gray t-shirt that does absolutely nothing to hide the fact that this man is fucking fit.
changbin.
he gives you a small, awkward wave like you ran into each other and not like he⊠he found you. âhi.â
you just stare.
âi come in peace.â he adds, lifting both hands.
you close your eyes. âyouâve got to be kidding me.â
âokay. before you walk awayâi deserve thatâbut justâhi.â
you glance around. public. morning rush. safe enough. âwhy are you here.â
he adjusts his glasses. âi just wanted to talk. like, normal talk. not chase talk.â
you sigh, and start walking. âyou have two minutes before i start screaming.â thatâs more time youâve given jeongin, though.
he falls into step beside you immediately. âyou couldâve called the cops.â he says after a moment. genuinely confused. âyou still could.â
you look at him. âyou donât think iâve thought about that?â
âi figured. but you didnât.â
you sip your coffee, buying time. âyouâd disappear before anyone got there.â
ââŠyeah.â he admits.
âand then what? i spend the rest of my life wondering if youâre gonna show up mad?â
he nods slowly. he canât argue that.
âalso, i donât want to tell that story out loud. figured it would be the best for me if i just lived through it and got over it. eventually.â you add, quieter.
changbin nods âokay. yeah. that makes sense.â
you study him. he looks the same as in the house, almost friendly. that makes a question pop up in your head. âhave you done that before?â you ask. âlike. killing people.â
âyeah.â
âhow many?â
he blows out a breath through his teeth. âi donât keep a number.â
âand why?â
he takes a breath, thinking. actually thinking. âitâs not the killing part.â he says slowly. ânot for me. thatâs just⊠the end of it. itâs the before. i dunno. i like the teamwork. but thatâs just me, ask the others if you want their version.â
youâre confused. ââŠdid something happen in your past?â
he shrugs. âno. grew up rich. had friends. i have a great job. my mom calls me on sundays.â
you stare at him.
âiâm serious.â he says. âiâm just⊠like this.â
you hate how calmly he says it. âwhen did you start?â
âearly twenties.â
âwhy didnât you stop?â
he gives you a small, almost embarrassed smile. âiâm good at it.â
you donât answer. a car horn blares down the street. someone laughs nearby. the world keeps going, oblivious. âyou scared me.â you say.
âi know.â
âyou still are.â
âi know.â
you swallow. you check the time on your phone. âi told jeongin iâd scream if any of you came close to me ever again.â
âi heard.â
âyou got lucky.â
âiâm glad.â
a bit of silence.
you meet his eyes. âi donât trust you.â
âyou shouldnât.â
âbut you still came now. why? why canât you leave me alone?â
he shrugs, small and helpless. âi liked talking to you in the kitchen. before we⊠started.â
ow. sounds bad. so bad that you take a step back. away from him. youâre scared.
âi donât feel things the way other people do.â he says finally. he wanted to spit that out for a while now, he just couldnât scrape the courage together. âitâs like everythingâs gray unless itâs intense.â
you sigh. ââŠat least youâre honest.â
he nods. âi just⊠i wanted one interaction with you that wasnât you running.â
you watch him. heâs still scary. âyou got it.â you say. ânow what.â
he shrugs. ânow i go away.â
you study him. glasses slightly crooked. trying very hard not to look threatening. failing, because he looks like he could lift a car.
you almost smile. almost. âdonât follow me.â you say.
âi wonât.â
âtell the others.â
âi will.â
you start to walk off.
âhey.â he calls.
you turn, tired.
âyou were really impressive.â he says. sincere. really.
you hold his gaze. âi know.â
then you leave him standing on the sidewalk, alone. alone with his horrible, evil soul. alone with this weird dumb crush he recently developed on you. alone with his biceps, flexing because he feels a lot and it just⊠happens when he feels a lot.
itâs the next day. normal day. sunâs out. people walking dogs. a delivery truck is parked. blablabla anything that says world goes on. you were paranoid this day, sure, but you survived so far. youâre currently locking your apartment building door after yourself so you could go grocery shopping when a voice behind you says:
âokay, donât be mad.â
you close your eyes. slow inhale. you turn.
itâs felix. and this guy literally tried to shoot you once, you remember clearly, but he looks⊠perfect. perfect hair. expensive jacket. shoes that cost more than your phone. holding⊠a container?
you stare.
he smiles, so sweet. âi made you muffins.â
ââŠyou what.â
âblueberry.â he says proudly.
you look at the container, suspicious. âiâm not eating that.â
he frowns a little. âthat hurt my feelings.â
âyou tried to kill me.â
âsorry.â
you rub your face. âwhy are you here.â
he shifts his weight. heâs nervous. itâs cute tho. âwe voted.â he says.
âyou VOTED.â
âyeah.â
âON WHAT.â
âon not killing you.â
you just stare at him.
he brightens. âit was almost unanimous.â
âWHO voted no?â
ââŠminho.â
yoy try to step around him toward the street. he mirrors you accidentally.
âfelix.â
he freezes. âyeah?â
âmove.â
âoh. right. sorry.â he sidesteps so fast he almost falls off the curb.
âyou cannot come here.â you say. calm. really hoping heâll understand. âyou cannot follow me. you cannot bake for me. do you understand how insane this is?â
he nods immediately. âyes.â
âthen why are you here.â
he looks at the muffins. then at you. âokay. so. weâ iâ baked.â yes baby, we know. you told us already.
âi see that.â
âfor you.â
âi gathered.â
he nods, satisfied that the point has been made.
you start walking. he starts walking. directly into a street sign. itâs loud.
he recoils. âow.â
you pinch the bridge of your nose.
âis it bleeding?â he asks, pointing at his face, but he immediately goes cross eyed as you push his face away instead. his skin is warm. feels nice tbh. he blinks at you, unbothered. âyou have strong hands.â
âgo away.â
âokay.â he says.
he does not go away.
you reach the crosswalk and the light changes. felix steps forward without looking. a car honks.
you grab his hand and yank him back.
he stumbles into you.
âjesus.â you mutter, still holding his hand as you cross. âyouâd be roadkill in five minutes.â
he looks down at your joined hands, his big eyes shining, absolutely taken aback by the fact that you would do this for him. well, all that until you drop his hand on the other side of the street.
âthanks.â he says cheerfully.
a man wearing a watch worth a monthâs rent, carrying something he made for you that you wonât eat, who could absolutely overpower you, and instead just almost died to a car.
âdonât follow me.â you say.
âokay.â he says, still following.
you glance at him. âyouâre unbelievably stupid.â
âthank you.â he says.
âthat wasnâtââ
âiâve been working on self-acceptance.â
pffft.
you stop. âfelix, listen. i donât want you guys here.â
he looks at you, tilting his pretty head in confusion.
âyou scare me.â you clarify.
âoh.â he says quietly. that, he understood.
you point at the muffins. âthose could be drugged.â
âtheyâre not!â
âi donât know that.â
silence hangs between you. street noise fills it. someone laughs across the road. life just keeps going.
âi liked talking to you.â he says finally.
âyou didnât talk to me.â you reply. âyou hunted me.â
âyeah. iâm sorry.â
you watch him. disappointed that something this beautiful can be this cruel. âyou need to leave.â
he nods. but he doesnât move yet. âdo youâŠâ he starts, then stops. tries again. âdo you hate us?â
you donât hesitate. âyes?â of fucking course bro???
his little brain absorbs that. shoulders drop a little. âokay.â
he holds out the muffins one last time, hopeful in the dumbest way possible.
you just look at him.
he lowers them.
âjust go, felix. bye.â
âyeah. bye.â
he turns the wrong direction.
you grab his hood and spin him around. âthat way.â
âright.â he says, walking off.
he makes it three steps. turns back. holds up the muffin container. âdo you wantââ
âno.â
âokay.â
he walks into a bike rack.
you watch him go. he looks beautiful.
you hate him.
you check to make sure he crosses the next street safely before you turn away.
that passed too. a few days later you are leaving a pharmacy in the afternoon, receipt crumpled in your fist, focusing on your surroundings now.
and across the street, leaning against a lamppost, is chan. he raised a hand, giving you a little wave, mouthing: you good?
you mouth back go away.
he nods once, then pushes off the pole and walks in the opposite direction. not chasing now. actually walking away.
then youâre in a grocery store, looking at pastas, deciding which one you want to eat tonight. a hand reaches past you and places the more expensive one in your cart.
you turn. itâs seungmin. black hoodie. baseball cap.
you immediately pull it back out. âno.â
he takes it. puts it back into the cart.
âno.â
back in.
âstop.â
it went on for a good five minutes.
at checkout, you unload your stuff, and when youâre about to pay, seungmin comes up behind you and wordlessly uses his card. do you process that in the head? no, only when he is already at the exit, hands in his pockets, not looking back.
he walks straight into the automatic door before it finishes opening. you hear the thud.
you rub your temples.
then youâre walking through the park because thatâs the shorter way home. peaceful. sunlight. children playing. then the bush next to the sidewalk starts shaking.
you stop. you kick the bush. han tumbles out directly at your feet. face in dirt.
ââŠhi.â he says into the grass.
you look down at him. âwere you hiding?â
he looks up at you, leaves in his hair, expression hopeful. âno.â
you start walking again. he scrambles up and follows, then trips on the sidewalk edge.
you catch his sleeve before he eats pavement. âuse your brain.â
he nods seriously. âi keep meaning to.â
next time about days later, you see felix before he sees you. heâs staring into a store window, clearly confused by mannequins.
you walk past.
noticing that, he turns and his pretty little face lights up. âhi!â
âhi. donât.â
âokay.â
he walks into a mailbox.
you only see hyunjin once, at a distance. not close enough to speak. just standing outside a train station, hands in his coat pockets, watching the crowd, not just you.
when your eyes meet, he doesnât smile, just gives a small nod. then he leaves.
days after that itâs seungmin again. at night. parking lot. you only came with car because it was too far. youâre unlocking your car and a shadow leans against the hood.
âyouâve been avoiding me.â seungmin says, casual as hell, like he didnât once swing a fire poker at your skull. âman.â he continues âsmall world, right?â
you turn, pepper spray in hand, and spray it directly into his eyes.
he screams, drops to his knees, clawing at his face. âOH MY GOD ITâS LIKE SATAN PISSED IN MY EYESââ
âstop finding me!â you yell.
heâs laughing through the pain. laughing. âyou look good today.â
you drive off while heâs still swearing.
the next time minho follows you through a bookstore. keeps pretending to browse. picks up a book upside down. so you turn a corner and wait. he walks right into it. he also gets a taste of your pepper spray.
âSON OF A BITCH.â he chokes, doubling over between romance and self help. âyou fuckingââ
âYOUâRE STALKING ME.â
they find you in different places. weeks apart. or days apart. but they always come back.
something is clearly wrong with them. like, all eight are sick in the head. but it doesnât seem like theyâre following you around to kill you. they talk too long. they get distracted. they bring you things. they absolutely eat shit every time you fight back. and you do fight back. diva.
minho and seungmin have been pepper sprayed so many times they flinch when you reach into your bag. jeongin tries every possible pickup line on you. han once tried to sneak up on you and got hit in the face with your tote bag and apologized.
itâs ike theyâre still in hunting mode. after you. into you. but now theyâre⊠unsure. they donât seem to want you dead anymore. they just⊠want you around now. or to just be around you, at least.
itâs the middle of the night right now. youâre in old sweatpants, hair a mess, waiting for the food you ordered. and soon enough, the doorbell rings. you shuffle over and look through the peephole for a second. delivery uniform. cap. bag. seems normal. so you open the door.
itâs felix. smiling ear to ear, holding your takeout, wearing the uniform jacket and cap. âhi!â
âabsolutely not.â you say, already closing the door.
he sticks his foot in. âwait, waitâdonât slam it, the soupâll spillââ
thatâs when you see it, behind him, in the hallway. a man on the floor. the delivery uniform pants still on him, only his jacket gone, the one on felix right now. thereâs blood under the man.
your stomach drops. your organs drop. after staring for about a minute, you slowly look back at felix. ââŠis thatââ
âokay.â he says quickly. âbefore you freak outââ
âBEFORE I FREAK OUT?? YOU KILLED THE DELIVERY GUY?!â
jeongin leans into view, coming next to felix, hands in pockets. âit wasnât him who killed the guy.â
you point wildly, not even concerned about the fact that thereâs two of them now. âTHAT IS A PERSON ON THE FLOOR.â
âyeah but likeâŠâ minho says, stepping into the doorframe, arm around felixâs shoulders now. âheâs not using the uniform anymore.â
your mouth opens. nothing comes out.
and then, without a word, chan walks past you. into your home. into your fucking home. felix shrugs and follows him. the other six too, actually taking their shoes off.
YOU ARE STILL HOLDING THE DOOR. THEY JUST WALK AROUND YOU.
âwhatânoânoânoââ you manage, backing up as they enter.
han closes the door gently behind them. âheatâs nice in here.â he says.
hyunjin looks at you and mutters a quiet but confident âhiâ before going further into your living room.
changbin walks past you and spins slowly, taking in the room. âoh this is cute. this is very you.â
âYOU BROUGHT A CORPSE TO MY DOOR.â you choke.
felix is still holding the food bag. âyour noodles are getting cold.â he says softly.
you make a noise that doesnât exist in human language. (imagine something close to a windows crash sound)
seungmin tosses his jacket over a chair. thereâs a smear of blood on his sleeve.
you gag.
he notices. âoh, relax. itâs mostly the delivery guyâs.â
âOH MY GOD.â
âhey, whereâs the hand soap?â han asks, already at your kitchen sink, washing blood off his fingers.
you stare at the red swirling down your drain.
jeongin flops onto your couch. âi like what you did with the lighting in here. mood.â
âGET OUT.â you say, voice coming back in bursts. âGETâOUTâOFâMYâAPARTMENT.â
they all look at you. itâs obvious that they donât really understand whatâs your problem.
chan gestures toward the takeout bag. âeat first.â
âI DONâT WANT THE FOOD.â
felix looks devastated. âyou picked the combo mealâŠâ
changbin is by your bookshelf now. âyou alphabetized? thatâs hot.â
âaâ iâ eughâ what is HAPPENING.â
minho leans against the wall. âokay, in our defenseââ
âthere is NO DEFENSE.â
ââwe didnât come to kill you.â
âYOUâRE TRACKING BLOOD ON MY FLOOR.â
they all look down.
han lifts his foot. ââŠshit.â
jeongin points at him. âmop boy.â
han salutes and grabs paper towels.
âlisten.â chan says, turning to be in front of you. âwe just wanted to see you.â
you stare at him. then at the door. ââŠyou couldnât text?â you ask hoarsely.
eight grown ass serial killer men exchange glances.
jeongin shrugs. âdidnât have your number.â thatâs alright sweetie, not like you canât find a phone number when you can find an address perfectly. not like you canât ask for it from HYUNJIN.
you make another sound.
changbin steps closer, hands up, gentle. âokay, hey. we know this looks bad.â
âLOOKSââ
âbad phrasing.â he admits.
seungmin rubs the back of his neck. âwe didnât plan the delivery guy part.â
âthatâs WORSE.â you sag against the wall. âyou have got to be shitting me.â you whisper to yourself. then you look at them. all of them. in your apartment. on your couch. at your sink. in your life. âout.â
they donât move.
jeongin tilts his head. âwe just got hereââ
âOUT.â
changbin actually flinches.
seungmin raises his hands. âokay, volumeââ
âyou killed someone. again, i assume. and brought it to my DOOR. do you understand how fucking insane that is?â
silence.
âi canât sleep normally. i check reflections everywhere. i donât walk with headphones anymore. do you get that? do you get what you did to my brain? i couldnât function for weeks. every sound was footsteps. every guy walking behind me was one of you. i have three different hiding spots in my own apartment.â
han raises a hand slightly. âthis oneâs not great.â
âNO IT IS NOT GREAT.â
felix looks genuinely confused. âwe didnât think about⊠after.â
âYEAH. THATâS THE PROBLEM. you donât think about after. you donât think about people being PEOPLE. you think about adrenaline and teamwork and your little murder club hangouts.â
changbin crosses his arms. âokay when you say it like thatââ
âhow else is there to say it??â you gesture wildly at the room.
they donât look guilty. they look⊠attentive. theyâre paying attention. trying to understand you.
you swallow. âno, seriously. i want to know. when you followed me for weeks? when you showed up at my job? when i thought every man walking behind me was about to grab me? that was fun for you?â
seungmin shrugs. âengaging.â
you grab the nearest thing, a throw pillow, and launch it at his face. then relax your shoulders and sigh. âi am a person. with a nervous system. i had a normal life before you guys.â
thereâs a long pause.
felix raises a hand slightly. âyour food is still warm.â
âREAD THE ROOM.â
he lowers it.
han whispers to him: âsheâs upset-upset.â
âno shit.â you snap.
chan has his hands on his hips. âyouâre saying we made you paranoid and ruined your life.â
you stare. ââŠare you fucking for real right now.â
âtrying to understand the damage.â
âDAMAGE???â
jeongin leans forward on the couch, elbows on knees. âwe donât feel fear like that, or guilt the way you do.â
âyeah, i noticed.â
âbut weâre not dumb.â hyunjin says quietly.
your eyes flick to him.
he meets them. calm. honest in a deeply unsettling way. âwe know we changed your life. we can see the behavioral shifts. we know what we did. we just donât care.â
you blink. does this fucking asshole hear himself.
he continues. âand what youâre saying is that our continued presence equals harm.â
you blink âyes.â
âeven without immediate violence.â
âYES.â
he nods once. processing. filing it somewhere in his terrifyingly organized brain.
chan takes over. âweâre saying, we understand the outcome. even if we donât experience the emotion attached.â
changbin rubs his neck. âwe didnât think about the after. usually there isnât one.â
you let that sit. âyeah.â you say. âbecause people die.â
quiet.
han finally says, softly: âyou didnât.â
you look at him. âno. i didnât. and now i have to live with what you did.â
thereâs a long silence.
then jeongin claps his hands once. âso. solution. anyone? ideas?â
you point at him without looking. âyou are on thin fucking ice.â
he mimes zipping his mouth.
seungmin rubs his face. âokay, but question.â
you glare.
âwhen we stopped trying to actually kill you⊠that didnât help?â
you just stare at him. ââŠyou hear yourself, right?â
he thinks about it. ââŠyeah.â
felix looks like heâs actually using his brain for once. âwe thought⊠not finishing the job was growth.â
âthat is the lowest bar i have ever heard in my LIFE.â
but you see, the thing is, this is a system error for them. youâre not prey right now. youâre not running. youâre furious, first of all. human. loud. hurt. they donât know this game. they only know the killing and manipulating one, but they want to have you. they just⊠donât know how to get you.
chan clears his throat. âso the correct action would be⊠removal of our presence.â
âyes.â
âimmediately.â
âso fucking immediately.â
âwe donât want to kill you.â minho cuts in, hoping that this saves their situation a bit.
âyeah, you told me a hundred times already. your point?â you ask
âwe like you.â
you make a face like you bit into soap. âthat is not how liking works.â
âfor you.â he agrees.
chan exhales. decisive. âwe adjust behavior.â
you cross your arms. âinto WHAT?â
silence.
felix brightens. âdinner?â
you stare at him.
han nods eagerly.
you look around the room at eight serial killers in your living space, one of them holding a roll of paper towels covered in someone elseâs blood. ââŠdinner.â
changbin shrugs. âlow pressure environment. public. you feel safer. we practice acting normal.â
minho adds: âexposure therapy. for all parties.â
âi just gave a speech about how you ruined my sense of safety.â you whisper, voice defeated.
hyunjin nods. âwe heard you.â
âand you want to take me to DINNER.â
âyes.â
âwhy.â
he doesnât hesitate. âbecause harming you is now counterproductive to the thing we want.â
you are actually taken aback by the words this guy uses. ââŠwhich is?â
he holds your gaze.
âyou.â
the room goes quiet.
then han whispers to felix, way too loud: âis this flirting?â
âyeah.â felix whispers back. âi think this is the good kind.â
you drag a hand down your face. ââŠget the fuck out of my apartment.â
they stand, immediately obedient. getting their shoes on and whatnot.
changbin gives you a small wave. âweâll text?â
âyou do not have my number.â
jeongin points at hyunjin. âheâll give it to us.â
âI WILL CALL THE POLICE.â
they walk out.
han pauses at the door. âsorry about the sink.â
door closes. silence. your apartment is a disaster. your life is worse.
but⊠they looked weirdly sincere, actually. and they were.
soon, they stopped showing up unannounced. mostly. they also stopped bringing weapons into your line of sight. mostly. and they stopped treating you like prey. completely.
how were they about you, comes the question.
obsessed.
and they did not process attachment normally. if they processed it. they did not understand love. but they understood preference, and if you told them enough times, then eventually they understood your emotions too. well, not understood, but they processed the fact that you feel the way you feel and they can do something about it if they actually try.
han once fell down an entire staircase because someone said your name and he turned too fast. chan pretended he wasnât competitive about board games and then absolutely lost his mind over monopoly. hyunjin brought you flowers all the time. you learned that seungmin always had to sleep on his stomach.
you started to understand the function of them. not excuse, no. absolutely not. just understand and process the fact that theyâre how they are. and you couldnât do shit about it, and you couldnât get rid of them now. so you lived with it.
they still killed, of course. that was one of the few things that brought them happiness in life, so you couldnât expect them to stop doing it. they didnât kill around you, though.
but you knew they still did it. and you could feel when the tension built when they havenât hurt anybody in a long time.
it also⊠whatâs the right word, scared? impressed? took you aback? could be either, what matters is that when you saw that all of them had it in them, even han and felix who behaved like total angels throughout the day, it⊠upset you. or just moved something in you, seeing that each of them has that empty place where fear or guilt or empathy should go.
they didnât kill out of anger. it was release. their brains were wired wrong. thrill, control, mastery, stimulation, those hit the reward centers. violence scratched an itch they couldnât reach any other way.
and after, they were calmer. lighter, like theyâd gone for a run. when they were satisfied with themselves, they tried to tell you about it. you always stopped them, because you did NOT need to hear the horrible things they did. no matter how much they wanted to brag about it, how much they wanted to make you proud.
you werenât safe in the world, but you were weirdly safe with them. and they would have died for you.
but you had to set rules. actual rules. âdo not follow me into bathrooms.â âdo not threaten my coworkers.â âdo not kill anyone within a five-mile emotional radius of me.â the basics. and they tried. god, they tried. but they didnât really⊠do well.
once you opened your door to seungmin at one in the morning, and he stood there, breathing a little heavy, COVERED in blood.
you just stared.
he stared back.
ââŠyou good?â he asked.
âare you good??â
âoh. yeah. not mine.â
you almost slammed the door. he stopped it with a hand, but gently. always that now.
âdidnât come here for that.â he said.
âfor what, seungmin, WHAT possible reason makes this a normal social call.â
he shrugged. âadrenaline crash. didnât wanna be alone.â
that did something weird to your chest. not forgiving, just⊠information. because you realized that now they wanted you. your company, your voice, your hands. and it felt good.
anyways, you told him to take a shower, then you let him hang out with you.
they also fought each other more than they ever fought you.
once minho and jeongin, two extremely capable men mind you, actually went for each otherâs throats in your kitchen while hyunjin and chan tried to separate them.
you yelled at them then. they paused and looked at you.
jeongin, bleeding from the lip, grinned. but like in that hot way. âsorry.â
âtake it outside if youâre gonna be like this.â you told them.
âfair.â chan said, dragging minho back by the collar.
you werenât scared of them like prey anymore. you were scared of the capacity. the strength. the speed. the way the air changed when something in them flipped.
youâd seen what they could do, you just werenât the target now.
they were on your dick constantly, though. emotionally. socially. existentially. texting wasnât their thing, but presence was. which meant they showed up unannounced a lot. but the reason for that was that they didnât want to lose access to you, to be honest. didnât like the thought of that.
one night you opened the door to changbin. he told you he was going to come over later. well, it was late. around midnight.
when he saw you, his eyes lit up, and wrapped you in the warmest, most affectionate, full-body hug of your life.
you froze.
because he was sticky.
wet sleeve. iron smell. your cheek against his skin. your hands touching the back of his shirt.
he squeezed tighter, cheek against your hair. âmissed you.â
you pulled back.
looked down.
this boy was covered in blood.
he smiled, soft, relieved. âhi.â
you shoved back, stumbling, hand over your mouth, already shaking your head like that would stop it. you barely made it to the sink before you threw up in it.
behind you, changbin stood there, horrified. âoh. oh no. right. right. thatâsâ thatâs on me.â
from the hallway, jeongin yelled: âdid you forget again??â
âI GOT EXCITED.â
hyunjin was the only one who followed you then, already grabbing a towel, turning on the sink. he didnât look at changbin, and he didnât look at the blood. he looked at you. âiâve got you. youâre okay. breathe.â
they kept forgetting what you were. alive. normal. human. that for you it was a body, a person, a life.
it wasnât the only time, of fucking course. theyâd be loose, relaxed, calm. youâd be staring at hands that had done something irreversible two hours ago. there were a few nights like that, a sleeve not changed, a stain not noticed, you throwing up in your own kitchen while eight men who could disassemble a human being panicked because theyâd upset you.
not because they felt guilt like you did. because theyâd hurt something important in the environment. you. you, who sometimes made it to the sink, sometimes didnât.
they did learn, though. slowly. painfully. they didnât feel what you felt, but they learned it mattered. which, for them, was the closest thing to empathy available in the system.
you fell asleep on the couch once while they were over. you didnât mean to. how could you mean to, when you knew what they were capable of?
and you woke up pinned. well, luckily not trapped, just surrounded. han was hugging your ankle. felix was using your shoulder as a pillow. changbin had an arm across your middle. jeongin was half off the couch but anyways. seungmin pretended he wasnât involved but his foot was hooked under your leg.
they didnât experience comfort like most people did. but proximity? pressure? familiar scent? that, they liked.
they were really, really glad that you survived them. and because of that, somewhere in their broken little predator brains, you became home. and what do predators do? bring things home.
once han showed up beaming, holding something behind his back.
âi got you flowers.â he said.
you blinked. that was⊠new.
he revealed it.
you stared.
it was technically arranged like a bouquet. the only problem was that⊠they were human lower arms. a lot of them. like flowers. just⊠arms.
you made a noise. you looked away, then back at it, then had to look away again.
âi thought it was romantic.â he said, crushed.
âhoney, i appreciate that, butââ you gagged. held the doorframe. teared up.
he watched you throw up then. patted your back after.
felix once brought you a wallet because âyouâre always losing yours.â
you opened it. immediately closed it. âfelix.â
âyeah?â
âreturn that.â
chan was⊠fucking brutal. he didnât bring objects. he brought information.
âfound a guy whoâd been stalking women in your area.â he said once.
you went cold. ââŠwhat did you do.â
he met your eyes calmly. âtook care of him, of course.â
you didnât know whether to scream or say thank you. this one wasnât bad, actually. you just had to sit down for a minute.
they were not house trained though, not even a little. one time you caught seungmin about to piss in your giant houseplant.
âseungmin.â you sighed.
he froze mid-zip. ââŠyeah?â
âif you water that plant with your BODY i will end you.â
âokay, okay.â he said, offended. âgod. boundaries.â
felix once wiped his hands on your curtains. han sat on your coffee table. minho had to be told three separate times that knives did not belong âwherever feels right.â changbin once tried to âair outâ your apartment by opening every window during winter.
and jeongin was just really spontaneous in general. if a guy talked to you, he would insert himself into the conversation, no matter what. âbro.â heâd say, arm slung over the strangerâs shoulders. âi love your confidence. truly. quick question, how attached are you to having kneecaps?â
you hit him. heâd grin. the stranger would evaporate.
hyunjin was the only one who got you normal gifts. they were⊠brutally expensive, yeah, and you had no idea where he had that kind of money from, but you appreciated every gift from him.
and oh my fucking god, the mailman. felix hated the mailman. for no reason. the man was fifty something and friendly. still, every time the mail arrived, felix would appear at your window, talking bout sum âheâs back.â ???
âfelix, thatâs his job.â
âyeah but why is he always here?â
âbecause i live here. thatâs how mail works.â
the suspicion remained.
but beneath all the insanity, the red flags, the daily reminder that they could bring a corpse to your doorstep any day, they were sincere. they never played with your feelings. never lied about what they were. never pretended.
they just⊠adjusted their behavior around one central rule, which was not to lose you. to keep you safe, even if they didnât understand why they wanted to keep you so safe. or why did you find so many things they did wrong.
you had, at one point, physically grabbed felix by the hair and yanked him backward because he was halfway out your front door, whispering âi just wanna talk to him.â about the mailman.
âNO.â you barked, fist in his hair.
âheâs BEEN HERE THREE TIMES THIS WEEK.â felix insisted.
âTHAT IS HOW MAIL WORKS.â
he did not agree with you.
changbin loved cheek kisses. loved them. unfortunately, changbin also had a chronic issue where he just⊠forgot he was holding things. knife. wrench. crowbar. gun.
youâd feel a gentle kiss on your cheek and open your eyes to see cold steel six inches from your face.
âbaby.â youâd say.
âoh, shit.â weapon would go on the table like car keys. âsorry.â heâd say, and kiss your other cheek, now technically unarmed.
then once you mentioned to hyunjin that you were cold and he wordlessly took off his jacket. it had a suspicious stain. he saw you notice.
ââŠiâll get another one.â he said immediately.
because he really didnât want you to be cold. not like he understood what your problem was with a little blood, but alright. anything for you.
now that iâm getting carried away with the stories, iâll tell you that han did not understand personal space.
for an example, if you scolded him? immediate cling. youâd finish saying âyou cannot threaten the barista for writing my name wrongâ and suddenly heâd be attached to your side, rubbing his face into you, arms around your shoulders, chin on your head.
âokay, but weâre good though, right?â
âsweetie, iâm trying to pay.â
heâd nod against your hair, not moving. that went on for twelve minutes until a woman asked if he was concussed.
they clung like that a lot, they didnât understand a lot, they acted up a lot, they hated a lot, but they loved one thing.
you.
they didnât understand jealousy as an emotion. they understood it as something wrong with their insticts, and you in danger. how did that make sense? it didnât. it just sounded horrible. because it was. but it was also the most sincere attachment they were capable of.
you were still scared sometimes. still human. still deeply aware of what they were, and reminded of it a lot of times, of course.
but theyâd learned one thing with absolute certainty:
you were not prey.
you were home.
and they were trying, badly, incorrectly, concerningly, to deserve to be there.
felix and his skz.
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