#written vomit

[key-0]

Not a princess

Once upon a time there was a girl.

She wasn’t an important girl just a sad girl.

So sad that she wished to fall into a deep sleep,

like the princesses in fairy tales,

knowing that no one was going to save her,

and she preferred it that way.

[key-0]

Random pointless story that means nothing... enjoy.

Once upon a time there was a boy.

This boy didn’t have a name; he wasn’t called by any name.

This boy was a boy of a forest. The forest never assigned him a name nor addressed him by one.

His mother was a doe. She raised him in her nest.

His father was a bear. He taught him to fish.

His family was the wolves. They taught him how to hunt.

The small creatures taught him to hide.

The large creatures taught him to fight.

The raptors taught him the opportune moments.

The amphibians taught him patience.

He was never taught right or wrong, there wasn’t such a thing.

He was a child of the forest.

[boomgardener]

Frustration

of the orientation kind! Under the cut!

For a couple of years now, I've always thought that I'm bisexual. I've felt attracted towards all genders, but I feel like my tastes are kind of odd, in a way.

I've never been that attracted to guys that are typically viewed as attractive--William Levy aside, I haven't been attracted to anyone like the guys from One Direction or the stereotypical muscular, porn-star type guys. However, I've always felt attracted towards guys like Sufjan Stevens or Lee Pace. You know, the nerdy, milder types.

The same thing goes for girls. Like, I don't think girls with blonde hair or tans (of the Hollywood/Barbie archetype) are all that attractive, but I do like women like Zooey Deschanel or other "nontraditional" beauties.

I've noticed, however, that I like those who are more androgynous a lot. There's a fellow band member I've been talking to who I kind of like and met at Unity (my school's LGBT club), but I've been too scared to ask them out.

After my most recent attempts at having a partner, I guess I've been a little confused and nervous. I'm hoping to find out exactly where I stand with this whole sexuality thing this summer, but I guess I'm just scared of the results.

I'm scared that if I ever get interested in someone who's a girl or genderqueer, my parents will reject me (though it's stupid... I'm blessed with a family that doesn't discriminate very much).

I'm scared that my neighbors and friends will reject me.

Mostly though, I'm scared that God will reject me (which I hope is again, stupid). I never felt scared of this when I thought I was bi, but now I guess I've been in panic mode.

I just needed to let that out.