October 8, 2023
Dear Diary,
It’s past midnight, and I just feel the need to write you an entry—even if I don’t know exactly what i wanna say.
Today i sit under the tree and feel the warmth of the wind outside after my whole day sitting infront of my computer, it’s just another normal day. I even forgot that today is Saturday until someone asked me how’s my weekend going. lol
That 30 minute silence was enough to calm myself and think of how privileged i am to be living this life. Lately I’ve been complaining a lot about me going through this existential crisis that I forgot to thank God for all His blessing and love for me.
Last month I turned 25.
I finally got my own house.
I am living a comfortable life.
I have a genuine and peaceful heart.
I’m continuously learning and growing as a person.
I am surrounded by people who loves and supports me, people that respects my own space and boundaries.
And a lot more of good things i have in life that i almost feel ungrateful with because i was focused on my ”could’ve beens”. I realized that after all my years of always trying to look for something better, i wasn’t aware that all this time— i am already living it.
I still have a lot of emotional baggage inside, whos not going through something anyway? But today I chose not to bring my attention to any of those. I am even more proud of how I build my emotional strength over time. And i owe it to God, for giving me all these privileges.
Here’s to more silent wins,
Rhia
Ps. I love that this letter turns out positively hehe xx