Why I have not been posting as of late.
Alright so I am planning on getting out of my house hold. my family is in a legal battle with the state for the house and other stuff and we can’t afford bills and shit. And either way my mom wants to sell the house even if we do get possession over it. She is a lot and i am hitting depression rots again and she accused me of being a porn star over me playing video games with a bra and shorts. She has tried to turn the whole family against me and said a lot of shit. She is actively talking shit about me . Told me stay home because she raised me to be weak and delicate but the told me to join the army. I am tired and worn out I have been working 2 jobs and taking her everywhere because she doesn’t want to drive. I am ready to do the leap of faith and go to college far away in the most peaceful way I possibly can. I want to have my degree I want to be a student and do student things. I am tired of being the adult for an adult.
I have lost so much weight it is crazy and all the muscle I have gained has been slowly going down. My nerves system is so overwhelmed and out of it I can’t sleep at night comfortably. I know what I must do. I just want a normal life and not stress about issues that aren’t mine. I am so scared to run into my ex even seeing their name gives me panic attacks. I am scared to be in the same state and I want out.
Thank yall for yall patience and time i promise i will be posting soon again!