So i feel like i have made my fiance feel like she dont deserve me cause of how jealous and how big of an ass to her i have been when it is the oppostie way. i dont deserve to be loved by such a flawless, loving, caring, and goregous creature. and yet she does. this is my appology to her for being how i am and a vow to not be the jealous and immature person i have been. i know the distance doesnt help us, but in just another year we will be on our own. granted it seems scary to me, but like you told me, we will get through it and live our life together happily. Kathryn Ilysa McMahon, i love you dearly and never want to lose you. i'm sorry for how i have been and i dont ever wanna be that way again