I will notice and be devastated. You are one of the few people that write TRULY with no body preference! As a chubby/plus size gal myself I adore your, well, chubby reader posts. We don’t have a lot of writers willing to do that in the kpop community :(
If you truly want to leave go ahead, it’s your choice…but if you don’t mind pls leave this blog up so I can go back and reread :) <3
hi so this is the last ask in my inbox rn so i figured i'd elaborate more here? very slight warning for SA mentions, but i don't go into depth on what happened (it was... admittedly not a huge deal, people have suffered from way, way worse, but its still something thats under my skin and haunted me for a while).
if you don't want to read, i don't blame you, but know the reassurance and support has meant a lot from all people who have given some. if i ever decide i'm going to stop writing on this blog, i'll probably post something and continue to keep this blog up so that anyone who enjoys what's written here can still enjoy it (and i thank you for your support!)
(also im sending u my love in particular anon, its def hard to find people who don't include any body preferences. i'd be fine with it if ppl at least warned for that kind of language, y'know? just sucks when they don't...)
first of all, i really appreciate the kind words i've received both from anons and from a friend <3 sometimes i struggle a lot with having this blog because i've admittedly been through some pretty traumatic things regarding sex. last month i kind of majorly came to terms with my own sexual assault and opened up about it to some good friends, and it... admittedly helped a lot to know i'm not alone, especially when one of my friends went through something similar. the other stuff i'm not comfortable talking about although it was more explicit (and entirely online, relationship-wise), but its fucked with me for years now and sometimes i think i'm never going to get better.
and like. in a weird way, writing smut (both as reader fics and my own oc works, which i've admittedly been doing a little bit lately because i feel like... slightly more detached if that makes sense) can be cathartic. on the other side of the coin, it can be triggering, but i know myself well enough to be able to step back and not push myself to write. that's probably why i only write so often on this blog, other than just the general lack of inspiration at times.
so i guess lately i've been feeling not very groovy and it's been affecting my mental space. sometimes i look at this blog and i feel like my smut's just mediocre? because i'll sometimes see other writers get far more attention way sooner. it just feels lonely in my little corner of tumblr in general most of the time. plus yesterday was my birthday and my birthdays always tend to feel lonelier, even with the sweet words i got from a lot of people (both yesterday and today since i accidentally let it slip to a group of friends since i didnt want them to make it a big deal??)
idk. i just feel out of place sometimes. sometimes i wonder if opening requests would do something, but im picky about stuff (and i have some very very strict 'i do not fuck w this kink' for specific reasons--some being triggers) and i don't feel like i could do any ideas justice.
idk. maybe i'll write some belated bday smut for myself later like i wanted to. just know i appreciate all the support a lot and its been very reassuring to know that there's some people who enjoy my works <3
hiiiii i just wanted to say that i rly love ur work (on here and ur main blog),,, it’s all so comforting and inclusive which is so hard to come by especially with smut :/ ur definitely my favorite svt writer <33 but uh yeah thank u for sharing ur amazing work with us and thank u for being inclusive~! it’s appreciated :D
anon how do u feel about a spring wedding, we can have matching flower crowns and i think that’d be kinda cute—
ty nonny!! inclusivity is something rly important to me (admittedly its less seen here bc its harder for me to write smut specifically from a non-afab/fem/whatever u want to call it perspective) and im glad it doesnt go unnoticed!! ive had way too many times where a random “your tiny frame” “your flat stomach” kind of thing yanked me out of a fic 😔
but 🥺 im honored to be ur fave svt writer omg?? thank u so much for reading!!! i can only throw heart emojis at u 💕💕💕💕 tysm 😭
noooo daisy i’d def notice🥺 “a helping hand” is one of my fave works i’ve ever read on here and i’d be devastated if that along with your other writings were gone :/
hi nonny :( thank you <3 i think even if i stopped writing on this blog, i'd probably leave it up for anyone who wants to read stuff on it
it’s true, i am also maybe an inch shorter than jihoon and am also filled with so much rage. your writing me so flustered tho 🫣🫣🫣 you did such a good job of portraying his ^_^ i’m shy! yet absolutely evil self. (if you’ve seen the fansigns from today https://twitter.com/snapshooji/status/1575076019182399489?s=46&t=c_AG2dqfFe849KFRaUeU3Q) ANYWAYS i look forward to more of your jihoon pieces <3
link <3
tysm!! i am... the biggest softie for this man as u can probably tell from the contents of my sfw blog sdkfhsdf he is evil sometimes but he also go "wooahae <3" and i start crying bc who let him have this duality... unfair </3
thank you tho! i'd def like to write for him more in the future when i'm in the mood to <3
a helping hand… oh my god why did i stuff my face into my pillow so many times. why was that so cute yet hot im gonna disintegrate 😀
exactly the response i wanted nyeheheh >:3 all according to keikaku...
ty anon! probably because jihoon rly is 'cute but also hot ah fuck' in my opinion. love tht dude. together we could beat up mingyu's tall ass (wz and i are close to the same height dsfkhsdf thats all. we r short and our bodies contain only so much space for rage /j)
