[As promised, a bit late I know, but I needed my time to not cry for Satoru so an apology. So since I'm not good at describing powers and let's add to that Jujutsu Kaisen has mathematics, which I hate... I just won't go into his god-like powers]
This post comes from the previous idea, you can find it in my profile. Credits to the artist and me for the edition.
⚠️ Warning: This is MY interpretation of the character but it does not define the canon, I want to show my love for him (Fuck Gege for all I care) There may also be pronoun errors because damn my dyslexia affects my eyesight.
On an ordinary night, your mother sent you to the mini supermarket, a place similar to convenience stores like pharmacies. 「More common in my native Mexico, such as an Oxxo.」
Unexpectedly, a curse/demon began to haunt you. Without knowing how, you ended up cornered in an alley, the rain adding a touch of desperation to the atmosphere. Exhausted, you tripped over a trash can, lacerating your leg in the fall.
The unimaginable happened when your blood, the fruit of the scrape, awakened a god enclosed within a bucket, multiple eyes arranged in a dice-like pattern 「Yeah, I fucking used 'It' you thought」. Your blood acted as a call for the imprisoned being lying in there.
Satoru, the god that lay dormant, awoke. Upon realizing your situation, he offered to help you, but not before uttering the words that would seal your fate: "Tell me, mortal, do you accept that I save you by giving me something precious? Yes or no, the choice is yours."
Given your young age of six and the impossibility of facing the dreadful monster that pursued you, you had no choice but to accept. How could you refuse? Hell, you were a brat who could barely carry your mother's bag of errands, much less fight that dreadful thing that wanted you dead.
And so the deal between you and the unknown god was sealed with…. a tongue kiss. 「Despite its polemical nature, it is crucial to the development of the plot」.
❀.°• ─ ─ ─ ─➢ Satoru, in his divine form, is an extraordinarily powerful being. Sometimes, his impressive abilities can lead you into complicated situations, such as when a simple sneeze from him transported you to another dimension. Such is his level of power. 「In this version, we will represent him as an invincible individual to explore his unrestricted potential…. P.S. I hate you Gege」
❀.°• ─ ─ ─ ─➢ Gojo is often playful and teasing, he often jokes with you, even going so far as to claim that you are his "wife" although it sounds like a joke, he really means it. His attitude toward other people's opinions is indifferent. He enjoys showing affection, kissing and caressing you, although he has waited for you to reach adulthood before formally considering you his mate in public.
❀.°• ─ ─ ─ ─➢ When he is not using his 'real' form, we see him as the canonical Satoru, though obviously with Lovecraftian touches to his powers. Despite his divine nature, he exhibits a somewhat childish side, similar to what he shows in canon… BUT 100% times worse, as he has been alone and being powerful, he doesn't have much morals as he considers it stupid to abide by the rules of 'lesser beings'.
Despite his playful and relaxed attitude, he hides a dark side. He is aware of how capable he is of destroying a city with a single finger, if he so desires.
❀.°• ─ ─ ─ ─➢ Handling his jealousy is not his strong point, given that he has always gotten what he wanted and not knowing how to deal with humans despite having spent millennia observing them or making deals before being 'sealed' 「More like sleeping」It always makes it difficult for him to respond to his own emotions.
❀.°• ─ ─ ─ ─➢ Since he is not human and was born in the void of nothingness and everything, he has wandered and fought in various places, often just for fun or out of sheer boredom. His reactions can be fickle and capricious. This Satoru is a mixture of his adolescent and adult stages, mostly acting like a spoiled brat and playful with you but when he is jealous or sentimental, he acts according to his divine position.
❀.°• ─ ─ ─ ─➢ When he feels jealous, his reaction is unpredictable. If the reason for his jealousy persists 「Examples are like a male human talking to you」 And already for that reason he might decide to eliminate the source of his discomfort. For this reason, you hardly interact with other people. It is intriguing how loving words and gestures can appease him…. Although sometimes that doesn't assure you that those poor souls who crossed words with you will be saved from him.
❀.°• ─ ─ ─ ─➢ As a divine being, he has the power to materialize anything you desire. His gifts have no limits, and he takes you wherever you want. Sometimes, on a mere whim, he grabs you and takes you on unexpected rides using his abilities. It is curious how he shows jealousy towards any thinking human being, and even animals, taking you back home without allowing the date to continue or any activity prior to his jealousy.
"Toru… for once, let me enjoy this vacation. If you take me somewhere, make it really worthwhile. I couldn't even ride the roller coaster just because the ticket booth clerk was a man…" You looked at him as he pretended not to have pulled you out of the amusement park just 5 minutes ago due to his jealousy.
"Come on, couldn't we go another time…? It's no big deal, you know I can take you anytime, why don't we cuddle instead of fighting, would you like me to shower you with kisses, mmh? Come on, my sweet bean mochi!!! I want to…" You looked at him, almost incredulous. You really doubt he'll let you go to a crowded amusement park. If you go, it will surely be when he's off duty or with a snap of his fingers, it's not for nothing that he can stop time.
"Even if you do that, it doesn't mean I'm no longer upset with you." You watched her pouting expression. Despite having six beautiful eyes and six arms, you didn't want to fall for his game.
Gojo was unwilling to listen to your complaints. He was in a bad mood, convinced that you would understand his position. He acted like a child seeking to get your attention to deflect your anger. And so, he devised a plan. He moved closer to you by climbing up on the edge of the bed. "Mochi, do you prefer something sweet or sour?"
"Do you think that's an appropriate question to change the subject? I'm still annoyed with you. Hey, let go of me!" You felt his firm embrace, laughing as he kissed your neck and his chest pressed against your back.
He took a lock of your hair behind your ear and fiddled with it in his mouth. A shiver ran through your body as his lips brushed your earlobe. "Why are you playing hard to get when you know I know you well? Besides, I know my jealousy doesn't affect you, and I'm going to make sure you're only mine." He laughed softly, pulling you closer to him.
"Satoru… That doesn't justify you threatening anyone who looks at me. I don't want to be embarrassed like the other day in the cafeteria, when you tried to hurt the cashier just because I ordered a cappuccino." You whispered as his six arms held you tighter and in different places, listening to his childish whimper as he buried his face in the back of your neck.
His behavior was becoming more aggressive and lustful, making him dangerous. He held you in such a way that you could not move. He looked at you with playful eyes, sketching a smile.
"So what if I'm jealous? If I'm honest with you, if another guy tried to get your attention, I'd be sure to eliminate any interest he showed." A smirk formed on his face. You knew that ugly smile well, a cruel and possessive one, dealing with his jealousy sometimes exhausted you … you had no choice since your soul was bound to him.
He kissed you passionately and caressed your body, his touch was too pleasurable to resist, your flushed but annoyed face said it all. He didn't mind at all acting that way in public if it meant you would still be his. "You will always be my only princess….. I love you, my precious mochi," he whispered softly before delivering another intense kiss, this time on your lips, his arms frolicking with you and bringing an even more severe blush to your face.
NSFW:
••┈┈┈••✦ This Satoru loves to make you scream, if Sukuna in his original form can grind you to exhaustion, our albino won't let you rest.
••┈┈┈••✦ He loves having you in front of his cock, the worst thing is that he can create more if he wants to. Let's add that he has six arms, each one can overstimulate you, forget to mention that Gojo is 213 cm / 7'1 feet, you are a midget next to him. So his cock and fingers are the size of your arms, but he can fucking manipulate reality and adjust your pussy to his size.
••┈┈┈••✦ He loves you riding his cock while he hears you moaning, sometimes you end up kissing him. He loves you sucking him while he pulls your hair. His hands usually go from your breasts to your waist [Sorry I'm not good at writing NSFW] All while you swallow his cock, his fingers have claws and putting them all the way in hurts but in the pleasure you end up giving priority to your lust, forgetting the pain.
••┈┈┈••✦ Honestly, Satoru can make your body not get tired so easily, but he is not cruel so he can set limits for you. He especially loves to bite, while you scratch him all over the place.
••┈┈┈••✦ His aftercare is incredibly gentle, he kisses and lulls you as if you were a baby, and how could he not? When he leaves you all exhausted down there and you can't feel your legs. Sometimes he gets to the point where his excitement clouds his judgement, ending up with your bones broken.
In general, having a relationship with him is like going on a roller coaster ride: You can feel a rush of various emotions and in turn want more of it even though you know it's scary to a certain extent. Just avoid making Satoru jealous and everything will be fine [What won't be fine are your mouth, your ass and pussy]
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— 《Because a true fan will love their favorite... even in bad times》
Note: If you click on the image you can hear the song, for now I only put half of it. I'm sorry it took so long, I was in the process and I was stressed hehe (This was not edited so there may be errors. )
I have always been a fan of Satoru Gojo, I used to say to myself: If Satoru kicks me, I will thank him, if he spits in the air I will swallow his spit... If gojo is lonely, I would hug him, if gojo dies .... Me too, even if they call me crazy, I'll still love him....
I thought it would be enough to see him, to be a fan from my world ... but he died tragically, is it a JOKE? I thought so, I cried for weeks and thought of committing suicide, it's unfair that the 'strongest' was also the loneliest.
That's why in my last breaths, I begged whoever it was, I only wanted to be with my beloved....
They say there is a war
Between the man and the woman
I've never felt like this before
My heart knew that I couldn't
And now that I'm here- It feels like a dream, as our eyes meet for the first time, somehow god helped me fulfill my dream.
That's why, as Gojo's young eyes meet mine, my heart hammered against my chest and I got butterflies in my stomach.... Then his cute voice ended it all, those words he said almost killing me all over again: "Nice to meet you.... My fiancée! Hehe!"
And then you take me in
And everything in me begins to feel like I belong
Like everybody needs a home
At that instant I fainted, the last I heard, everyone was scared.
After I woke up, I met those beautiful blue eyes that contained a sky in them and... A deep loneliness, he looked at me worried, he asked me again if I was well... Oh Satoru! How I love you, sometimes I still think it's a dream and soon I'll come back to reality.
But your eyes, Satoru, those that look at me and your lips, I know that we are just children but I want to marry you, even if you don't love me... I will continue to support you.
And when I take your hand
Like the world has never held a man
I know I cannot heal the hurt
But I will hold you here forever if I can, if I can
"My fiancée... are you okay, really?" again you asked unsure of my actions, I just smiled like a fool and whispered without thinking....
"I love being Satoru's girlfriend, you are very beautiful and innocent .... I love you"
Do you like my words so much that they made you blush? I hope so, because every day in my previous life you did... laugh or cry, I always felt accompanied and happy just by seeing you in the anime or manga, you stole my heart and attention every time you appeared.
"D-do you really like being my fiancée? .... W-well it's obvious because I'm the one-"
And then I learned the truth
How everything good in life seems to lead back to you
And every single time I run into your arms
I feel like I exist for love
Like I exist for love
Only for love
You say it so confidently, so I couldn't help but hug you. Call me cheeky, accusatory and crazy, but I know that since you were a child you have been alone, with a weight on you and the sadness of losing the one you still don't know: Suguru Geto.
I thought at the time, I will stay by your side even if I end up dying for it, because everyone around you will trust you and- Unfortunately your smile won't be entirely sincere, that's why I want to be the one who makes you happy.
And then, in the blink of an eye, spring came to Gojo Manor.....
I can't imagine how it is to be forbidden from loving
'Cause when you walked into my life
I could feel my life begin
These months I have become quite close to you. Satoru, you may be called annoying and conceited, but it's not entirely true, people are as capable as a gift wrapped gift. If you get to the bottom of the box, there is darkness but a surprise awaits, or at least that's how I see it.
"WIFE!!! Look what I can do-"
My eyes saw how you asked, I would never refuse to give you what you want Satoru, my feet ran to you and I hugged you tight, you had been learning more about your cursed techniques ... The truth is that I don't understand anything, I don't have cursed power but my family is rich and possesses evil treasures, maybe that's why they promised to marry us. But if it doesn't make you happy Satoru, I'll leave.
"You are amazing Toru! You will be the best sorcerer and I will support you in everything!"
My words were not lies, so why- Why did you cry Satoru?
Like I was torn apart
The minute I was only born
And you're the other half
The only thing that makes me whole
At that moment I didn't know it, your tears were of happiness, without knowing it you clung to me....
Then later I realized, a maid who had pulled my hair was lying dead on the floor and in your innocent hands- Her head cut off; you had that horrible look, I was shocked but sighed..... You were just a child, I tried to understand so I don't care, I only care about making you happy.
"I'm sorry you saw that my wife- But that maid upset me!"
Even if you tried to excuse yourself, I would follow you.... So I hugged you caressing your hair, your smile was worth it, if I ignored the blood it was as if it was just you....
I know it sounds like a lot
But you really need to know
We are leaning out for love
And we will lean for love forever
I know, I love you so...
I thought I could hold on, I know... my life plunged into a whirlwind of emotions and strange situations. Although you were my platonic love, the reality far exceeded my expectations. The engagement was not only a marriage bond, but also a journey through a world of curses and sorcery that I had previously only known through the pages of a manga.
Even though you became stronger by receiving praise, my love for you did not diminish. I tried to understand the darkness that was hidden behind that bluish look and the violence you unleashed without mercy... like that time when you killed that maid for pulling my hair, again I know that my love for you far exceeds my fears... I keep convincing myself that I was just a necessary facet of your world. "I love you no matter what," I kept repeating to myself like a mantra, which is true.
The days passed, we immersed ourselves in laughter, hugs and moments of tenderness, I also witnessed the shadows that lurked inside you. I could not ignore the signs of danger, but I fooled myself with the idea that my love could save you from your loneliness and that thirst for violence that seemed to emerge uncontrollably.... Bloodlust that wasn't really in your character or the version I imagined.... But I guess you don't know someone if you've never dealt with them, now that I live with you, I know you have more layers of depth Satoru.
And then I learned the truth
How everything good in life seems to lead back to you
And every single time I run into your arms
I feel like I exist for love
Only for love
You started to change as any person would but my idealized image of you was only distorted.... I remember in winter you used to bring me sweets, when your father used to lock me in that old room just because I was too incompetent and weak. But it comforted me to know that you would come to me.
"Wife... don't cry ok? It's only a few hours before you go back to your room... Although I would prefer you to stay here, so no one would see you. Only me"
Your beautiful gaze had darkened, that night I didn't care about your dark words, you looked so handsome that I ended up blushing, that dark winter night was like Christmas for me.
One day, as we strolled through the gardens of the Gojo mansion, you looked at me with those blue eyes that, despite their beauty, reflected an unfathomable sadness. I could not restrain myself and asked you tenderly, "Satoru, are you really all right?"
Those childish lips that have yet to be reclaimed curved into a forced smile before answering, "Of course I am, my fiancée. I'm fine, don't you see? We should go for lunch, what would you like?" You took my hands as you tried to stop me from asking questions, again out of respect for you ... I ignored it.
My feelings were mixed between the desire to protect you and the anguish of facing reality, the one that told me that we were still not close enough, but again I just wanted to love you. "Satoru, you don't have to hide anything from me. I'm here for you, no matter what," I said, feeling that my own words were a reminder of the fantasy I had plunged myself into... believing that you could love me as I love you.
For love I have endured by your side the looks of contempt that came from your relatives, because of you my wounds were not so serious. We both took care of each other, you felt alone as a child and I gave you all my love.
The truth was revealed when, in a fit of rage, Satoru unleashed his cursed power against a group of enemies. The violence, blood and destruction he left in his wake had a profound impact on me. Though I tried to justify it, the truth was undeniable: Satoru Gojo was not the hero of my dreams, but a man trapped in the darkness that threatened to consume him.
In the silence that followed the storm, I approached him cautiously. "Satoru, I don't want you to fight your demons alone. I'm here to share your burden," I murmured sincerely.
His eyes, still filled with sadness, met mine. "You are brave, my love, but there are things I cannot share with you. I don't want to drag you into my dark world."
However, I was not deterred. "I don't care about the darkness, Satoru. I love you, and I'm willing to face anything by your side, even if it means losing myself in this cursed world with you."
Our fates were intertwined, and though reality outweighed fantasy, my love for Satoru Gojo persisted, stronger than ever, defying the darkness that threatened to separate us. Spring was blooming at the Gojo mansion, but the real challenge was yet to come.
"Kill them, they deserve to pay for taking her from you" Red, blood and corpses.
You died and I was not a good father, I promised to protect you and I failed.
I don't know how long I was there, lost in my memories, while my body moved by itself. I only felt rage and loneliness.
***
"Look what I brought you."
"A stuffed animal! Thank you ota-chan, I love you"
"All for you, my cute mochi"
"Hehe!"
"I love you, daddy."
"I love you too, my princess."
***
How was I supposed to know that if I let you go, you'd disappear. You didn't even stay home anymore, you were always going with the freshmen on missions or shopping.
I wanted your happiness, but that cost me your life, you have left me my little mochi.
I shouldn't have been so permissive, if I was given a second chance, no matter if I hurt you, I would protect you.
I can't forgive myself for letting you die, I wish I could take back those last moments.
***
"Ota-san, look toward the camera."
"Oh!!, my princess wants a picture of me … I feel so flattered!."
"HAHAHA!!! I'll be your photograph on this day, hey, megumi, join the photo, don't be bitter!"
"I don't want to, plus it's childish and the flash bothers me. I don't know what they take pictures for, they just fill up space."
"You're mean! ota-san, megumi offended me!"
"Forget about him, let's take lots of pictures and then print them out"
"Yay!"
***
I still have those pictures, I remember your frustrated face, you always tried to take pictures of megumi and all of them came out blurry, except one where they kissed each other on the cheek.
I must admit, I felt angry and jealous, but I was happy because you enjoyed a childhood that I could not.
Not only that, but I tried to give you everything you wanted, but you didn't want anything of mine anymore, you preferred your friends and the girls to spend time with.
I'm sorry, even though I knew that girls your age would grow up and move away from their fathers, I kept forcing you to stay.
The moment you started growing up, I felt my heart beating faster, because of you. I tried to accept that you are already an adult, and yet, I wanted you to stay little, I didn't know how to cope with it.
***
"Mochi!!! I want attention too!"
"satoru, I'm too old for that nickname. Besides, we see each other every day."
"But my baby girl, you're always with megumi or yuji, so why don't you want to be with your ota-chan?"
"O-oto-san. i'm just having fun. I appreciate that you want to be with me, but you always want to treat me like a child, which I'm not. For God's sake, I'm 16, I'm already a teenager."
"Exactly! You're still underage and you're too weak compared to me."
"Well, we are all weak before the great Gojo satoru. HAHAHAHA!"
"Then if you're not going to stay for good …. I'll make it so you can't walk! Tickle, tickle"
"N-no, anything but that, hahaha …. S-stop it, it's okay… I-I'll stay, just s-stop with this."
"Yay! Let's go buy candy!"
"Seriously oto-san, too much candy hurts!"
"I told you to call me ota-chan, I don't like her to be formal with me."
"Ok, ok, ok, ok, let's go, mister-boy-adult"
"Why do you keep calling me mister-boy-adult? I'm already 28."
"Because you act like one."
***
What else I do to heal this emptiness? I came out of that prison, but I entered a nightmare, seeing your inert and bruised body.
They didn't want to tell me, they were afraid of me. They were afraid of how I would react to your death, they were right. I have gone mad, even though I was already mad before that.
***
"This isn't real, she's not dead."
It's been a few days since then, and my sanity has become questionable.
I keep thinking that you are alive and that this is just a dream, a horrible one that I want to wake up from. I would like to see your smile and hug you, but I still can't accept that you are gone.
Likewise, I heard about those events from some students, I wanted to kill them all. Why did they have to kill you, why did they take you from me?
I had accepted that you wouldn't return, but I still hoped you'd be there, even if it meant a world without you.
***
"Gojo-sensei, are you all right? He has been in (Y/N)'s room for days"
"No, yuji. They took away what I wanted the most. I'm supposed to be OK? I don't know what's real anymore, I just want to wake up from this nightmare."
Yuji, my student possessed by sukuna. I killed him too, I blame you all, you were my world and you're gone.
"Why are you still here, why am I still watching you die?". Those dreams of your corpse haunt me.
But it's okay now, you can rest, after it's all over. The end of a sad story, because no one's really gone, because it's just my delusions.
Delusions of a lonely father who carries the guilt of his baby, which he never accepted had grown up. Didn't you get too big, in such a short time?
I have to take care of my daughter, I just hope she will be able to forgive me in the end.
My name is gojo Satoru, right now I am just an ordinary man, but a father knows nothing but suffering.
This is not what I wanted to be, this is not what I imagined for my daughter, but I can't help it.
I'm sorry, my princess.
I know you will hate me. Furthermore, I am afraid of what you will say or do if you see me again.
But, my dear child, please understand that I have done everything I could. And the end of this is just a small part of my past and present, which must be left behind, because it is better this way.
I know that you love me and I know how much it hurts, because I would be with you in every moment, as I was always, I wanted to protect you, but I failed.
I know you will be mad at me, but it is the best solution.
Please forgive me, you are my whole world. I don't deserve you.
Sorry, sorry, sorry my baby!!
This is the end of this story, I promise!
***
"It's time to go, my princess. Time for school."
"Alright, dad, I'll be ready in a few minutes.
"Good, we're almost late for class."
***
I just couldn't let go of those memories, of your adorable little face, with the chubby cheeks and beautiful eyes.
I know I wasn't the most reliable father, but you didn't need a perfect father to raise a wonderful girl, you only needed me.
I know you don't want to hear these words, but I have no choice.
You were the most important thing in my life, I will never forget you. If I find you in another life, I promise not to let you go, even if you cry, I won't care anymore, my mind is broken as well as my sanity.
I just can't believe that I lost you.
I don't know what to do with myself.
But I'll always love you, my little mochi.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry, my little one.
I waited for you to come back, but you didn't.
I was waiting for you, but you weren't there, because you died.
I know you would be disgusted by me, but I don't care anymore.
I was so careless, I should have protected you better.
I didn't want to lose you, but I was too stupid.
***
"Stop blaming yourself ota-chan, I never wanted to tell you, but I can't rest seeing you like this. I love you daddy, I love you as much as you love me, forgive yourself, because I already did."
Is this for real? I heard your voice, oh my dear mochi, you have given me back my hope, but I am no longer that childish man you knew. I am a mess inside, I don't know who I am anymore.
I'm not the same, I am not the same as before, I don't know what I am.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
I know that I am not worthy of someone like you, I know that you would rather be with someone more suitable to your heart, but I can't help myself, I just can't.
I loved you, I still love you.
Not only that, but I still care about you and want to protect you, even if you don't want it.
Goodbye, my little baby, your ota-chan will always wait for you.
Your memories will always live in my heart, until the day I die.
***
For those who did not understand, this is a Yandere Gojo x daughter! Reader scenario. Here, we see how he loses his sanity little by little, until the death of the reader himself.
