#xd fml

[euphorica-smiles]

Got off my ass from being lazy and scanned the clear file >w< had to carefully take it out of its plastic because lol it’s that precious. I don’t really see this clear file from proxy anymore x_x bleh, luckily I bought extra *sobsob*. But who knows, if I might see another one around and I get lucky, I might get another one (not to give away again, incase you were wondering). 

SO! Bless your wall with a Soukoku/Souko-choco-ku/Chocosoukoku/I AM SO LAME LOL FORGIVE ME if you want to print this out to hang or something XD like....I do AHAHAHA;; Chuya look so effin’ sweet I can’t even can I not have Dars choco but just lick him-- NO I DID NOT SAY THAT SHOO SHOO PLS NO >//>

Still got time for mai Soukoku/BSD giveaway so while I can only hope for any of you to be the three winners, you can still have a Soukoku. Uh. Something. XD Lord, forgive me lol I’m a bit brain dead and tired today after my first Japanese lesson since I haven’t studied in so long so I’m at like my 3rd cup of coffee right now to stay awake. 

Also! If any of you happen to use this image from the clear file I scanned for anything, most likely edits if I may be assumptive, credits isn’t necessary but it is much appreciated. 

Have fun. Lol

[isayni]

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[an-emaciated-youth-blog-blog]

conflicts are quite irritating,

as you might know, or have once experienced. 

THE BAD.

First off, there is the fact that money is starting to run low. Whether my parents admit it or not, I know when they are a bit short. With Doug being lame, that means more vet bills. And both my parents know how concerned/conservative I am of money. I worry so much about it. And even when I don't need to worry, I spend nothing, just in fear. So I hate having Doug's vet bills pop up.

Doug's lame. FML. Like seriously? I was just starting to jump him, and we were going to do like tiny jumps at a fundraiser type show thing today at our barn. But then I couldn't do it on him. Like I just want to be able to walk my horse. Take him out of this stall. I just hate that I feel bad for him. I can't stand the fact he's just in his stall, he can't go anywhere, physically. Mentally though, he's in another paradise, dreaming of rainbows, and butterflies. (Some things mom's just know)

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THE GOOD. 

The pony Lexus that I have been riding has been perfect lately, I rode her in the fundraiser/show type thing today, and holy jesus she was perfect. I couldn't have been more proud of her. Things are going so well with her. My best friend told me and my trainer was saying it's too bad that I can't buy her and train her and make her better. I want the pony. My trainer apparently is liking (loving?) me on the pony. asdfgjkl; I hate money I really do.