#xeon yaps

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i hate life ☹️ not in a depressed way but because of how scared it makes me feel. like i don't want to die but i also don't want to live forever. what happens when i die and since i never come back what happens then, but if there's an afterlife i stay in there forever

im terrified of eternity and death and i hate it 💔

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i finished the first season of apothecary diaries last night and im obsessed with lakan. i found out about lahan on pinterest and i like him a lot too.

LIKE LOOK AT THEM SHTBSUFBVE

dumbass foxes

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i haven't drawn her yet but i wanted to yap about my yuusona and how the plot might change idk

heartshackle isn't as close 💔

she isn't really afraid of malleus but prefers not to talk to him

she doesn't like when ace asks to stay with her in ramshackle but lets him anyway

when she saw ramshackle for the first time and learned she'd be staying there, she got so mad and cried

she often gets frustrated by grim and his antics but still cares about him

she doesn't sign the contract in book 3 and honestly wouldn't be involved with it at all

she's extremely desperate to go back home

during overblots she gets super upset and cries, telling the overblotter she hates him (she doesn't really mean it)

she can't swim and is honestly useless in book 3 (she hates feeling useless)

she's most comfortable with jack, silver and professor trein (not at first but she warmed up to him) and least comfortable with floyd and sebek

she doesn't let floyd call her shrimpy, she despises nicknames

she's younger than everyone at nrc and often feels out of place

these aren't as relevant but i thought i'd share them anyway

all she ever does is read or draw

she gets bad mood swings

she's pessimistic and stresses herself out over things (she tends to let it out on other people)

she's a picky eater and gets stomach aches/nausea frequently

this is all i have for now, i really need to draw her soon. my angry, sad, and lonely yuusona

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guys send me asks, i want to answer questions and stuff 🥺🥺

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my tomodachi island is something else because ishmael and hong lu started dating and then heathcliff fell in love with an (pjsk) and then an fell in love with hong lu 😭 and this all happened in the last hour

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something that bothers me really bad is that my mom always uses chat gpt. she uses it for recipes when she literally has pinterest and never searches things up on google anymore 💔💔💔

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im mad because i had to stop drawing to do something. even though it only took five minutes it made me mad because i was locked in 💔💔

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limbus company hyperfixation so bad im reading all the books the sinners are based on (currently reading don quixote)