#xnctafraid

[headstrongblake]

@xnctafraid asked :  am i.. dead?

there’s nothing to describe it. no words to explain the agony both bellamy and athena have been in since the doctor told them now it was up to octavia. if she fought for her life...if she really wanted it then there was hope she’d open her eyes. but if she wanted to die. truly wanted what all those pills had done to her body then they’d never see her again. never see her smile that could light up the whole world. 

the first time a nurse caught athena curled up beside octavia in the hospital bed, careful of her sister’s wires and ivs of course, the nurse had tried to discourage any further nights together. but...athena couldn’t leave. she couldn’t lose her sister.

it’s when the sun begins to set on another day that gets athena. “tell me something, a good day when you guys were younger, before...” before me. her words falter and emerald hues shift back down to her pale sister. it takes bellamy a moment. at first athena’s sure he’s not going to answer her. it’s too painful to reminisce about the past when they’re not sure their sister has a future. finally he tells her about a game they played in the house. lilly pad’s. jumping from furniture to furniture when mom was gone for days. it was all fun and games until octavia cut herself on a sharp counter corner. athena can hear the emotion overtaking her big brother. would they have more time to make anymore memories with o?

am i....dead? ever attuned to octavia, even sleep deprived athena almost instantly shot up at the sound of her sister’s weak voice. emotions run thick in her throat as emerald hues take in octavia. she’s opening her eyes. looking around. the softness and confusion evident in her features. athena hadn’t been holding her breath but seeing octavia now? it’s like suddenly she can breathe properly again. “o...” her voice cracked, lips pressing against brunette strands over and over again until she reached octavia’s temple. “not if we could help it.” athena whispered, arms reaching to wrap around octavia the best she could while they both laid in the hospital bed. “i love you o, okay, i love you so much.” 

[hasdefected]

‘  maybe you have an affinity for things buried deep.  ‘        @xnctafraid

[a-shebore]

“  how  long  was  i  out ?  ”

@xnctafraid  ♡’d  for  a  starter !

[roseguided-a]

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@atlsbrn​ , @keplei​ , @earthsheir​ , @raevenant​ , @sorrowfound​ , @soleilwept​

[hasfought]

‘  there’s still hope.  ‘     she says. maybe she wouldn’t have believed it a few days ago, seeing as she was still trapped in her own mind. but after everything, somehow, she came out on the other side of it. living, wanting to live, was a tricky thing. she doesn’t know if she really wants it. she doesn’t know if she truly deserves it. but she at least owed it to herself, and the few who loved her to figure it out.    ‘  i resigned myself to death, but i’m here. and i don’t blame you for what you did. if he knew the entire truth, he would understand. we’ve both done worse things.  ‘        @xnctafraid

[speispy]

@xnctafraid

𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚗𝚘 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚝.  every second that went by was another one that put their people at risk and they needed bellamy, octavia, and clarke back at their camp side. whatever was happening with gabriel was officially taking too long.  before, there was nothing that could be done about it.  sit and wait.  something that drove daggers into her stomach.  but russell had made a mistake.  he had trusted ryker.  for now, ryker was eliminated.  but with the nightblood serum having worked on echo, it meant she could move past the radiation shield undetected.  it meant that she could go and find her people again.  she’d been tracking in woods her whole life.  even exhausted, it only took a few hours for her to hunt them down.

“octavia!”  she hissed out the other woman’s name, not wanting to draw too much attention to herself.  dark eyes look her up and down once to make sure that she’s in decent shape and not obviously injured.  if anything, octavia looked better than she did.  “are you alone?”  who knew what had happened to her since bellamy had abandoned her in the woods?  echo didn’t.  but she did know that octavia was a good fighter and they needed her.

[hellboyeda]

re  :   octavia blake    -    @xnctafraid

         he must be a    fucking    psychic.     green hues watch the girl,   her chest heaving up and down,   up and down.   violently.    more violently than a sword in her hand.   he watches her hands curl into balls in front of her,    as if she were struggling with an internal war,   a war she couldn’t physically fight.    he can’t help the smirk upon her features.    his brows raise in amusement.

                  “     you really are the psycho little sister,   huh.                                                        called it.   “

[azhefa-moved]

@xnctafraid

          if she’s staying, so am i. jaw is set  tight, fingers closed around the hilt of his sword at his hip. he realized something was wrong when he turned to find the rest of the part had not joined them on the ship again. deducing the rest wasn’t exactly difficult, not with how tense things are between the blakes. a second too late and he might not have made it before the elder sibling closed the door. he stands now on the outside of the vessel, determination and stubbornness etched in his features. anger.  some part of him had hoped his threat to leave would make a  difference, but instead both are them are being shut out and left behind. so be it. he knows where his loyalties lie. bellamy might be willing to give up on his sister, but roan is not.