finally openly claiming the label of "transspecies" for myself, even though I will in all likelihood not be able to achieve any of my transition goals lol. I've always felt strongly that the dysphorias were similar for me, and I genuinely would really love to transition somehow to make my flesh suit more habitable! :3c
this will be long so the actual list is under the cut! will be returning to this post to edit + add links as things progress <3
body changes (normie):
thicker fur (also gender-related)
cool tattoo(s) of my theriotype(s) (will probably design myself)
wing back tattoo (specifically)
body mods (elaborate):
fang veneers (for both kitty + angel 'types)
subdermal paw implants w/ medical tattoos (saw someone else mention them, but since I'm an artist I'll need to research if they'll impact my ability to draw? that'd be a deal-breaker)
horns (if they can make it safer to get the bigger ones, my horns are like 6in long)
whiskers?? can you get those as body mods?? idk but I want them
pointed ears (it'd be impossible to get them looking like my actual kintype's ears, but it's a step in the right direction!)
accessories (subtle):
black faux fur jacket
black faux fur leg warmers
realistic pawprint shoes (the kinds that leave kitty pawprints instead of shoeprints when I walk)
claw rings (bc they apparently feel more realistic when you use them to open things, since you gotta flex your finger to do that)
capes!! (would be cool to have some with wings printed on them)
more shirts with cat + angel designs on them
kitty bell necklace!! (preferably one that's easy to hide / isn't too feminine, since I'm transmasc)
anything spacecore tbh (celestialkin)
outfits + wearables (expressive):
fluffy kitty collar w/ a bell + a tag,,,
cool kitty therian mask
hydraulic angel wings that can use that one vtuber software to be moved via my brain (I have no clue if this is at all realistic whatsoever but this entire list is just pipe dream after pipe dream so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)
kitty ears that also move via brain (ik these exist!)
hypermotion kitty tail!!!
kitty paws for my forelegs (ngl even tho they're for kink the leather ones look really comfy,,, maybe something that binds like that but is covered in fur? do those exist?)
realistic kitty paws for my hindlegs (saw some really cool ones on bluesky the other day!)
colored contacts (kitty + angel 'types both have the same eyes basically besides the angel's black sclera, but the sclera contacts scare me lmao) (would be double cool if they were reflective but idk if reflective contacts are a thing? I mean, they have to be, right?? I can't be the first person to ever want smth like that-)
feathered elf ears (I'm not an elf but that's the best way to describe them tbh, they're not really "wing ears" because they don't bend in the middle ^^;)
cat harness w/ backpack leash
satyr leg things
big horns that... don't fall off after being tapped by a butterfly (I've yet to find some that stay on well ;-;)
items:
cat shampoo (need to research if this is okay for people)
kitty food bowl :3c
kitty perfume
big ol' comfy cage (because I can make it into a little den, and human-sized cat trees don't exist in any way that can fit into a house)
kintype-related adult pacifiers (for my sfw agere littlespace)
stuffie of my kitty theriotype
bunk bed (bottom is for sleeping with my love, top is for nesting since it's high up and has walls to keep everything from falling off)
cat bed / bean bag
cat toys that won't break if played with them by a big kitty :'<
those cat treat puzzle things??
idk, maybe a feline packer?? I don't really have "that" kinda species dysphoria tho, so it'd be more for funsies (since I'm transmasc and will be getting one anyway)
fun kintype-related stickers!!!
social + lifestyle:
buy cereal more often (mmm kibble,,,)
find more snacks that make me feel kitty
incorporate meat more into my diet (for both kitty and angel)
come out to friend group (this will be difficult)
get at least one irl alterhuman friend (probably impossible but arghgh I need it)
unmask more around my partner (he's already accepting, I'm just a coward that fears vulnerability)
possibly enter into a more owner-pet dynamic with partner (ig technically this would count as petplay? but it'd be sfw)
learn how to purr more consistently
get better at meowing convincingly
if it's safe, I'd like to wear light gear in public (probably at most ears + tail tbh, the rest seems too eye-catching)
learn quads (I need to work out more anyway, and this seems pretty fun! would be nice to run on all fours)
go hang gliding!!!
use viviterms for myself irl
idk, maybe try weed?? since catnip is just. weed for cats
I’m Nix / Xtar, your friendly neighborhood fallen angel! I use xe/xem exclusively
I’m a 22-year-old transspecies Catkin (pure black Maine Coon), and I’ve been interacting with the alterhuman community for a few years. I’m also Satyrkin (though that one’s kinda weak), Celestial Fallen Angelkin, Squirrelhearted, and Doghearted. I’m kinsidering if I have a Novakid hearttype too, but I haven’t played Starbound yet so idk I could be wrong on that
I have a list of my unrealistic species transition pipe dream goals lmao
also lowkey I funlink Pinkie Pie (but as a guy),,, he’s just so me frfr. also Caine from TADC. new to ‘linking, idk maybe I’ll ‘link more characters/species/things in the future lol
I’m an age regressor. I used to just post n’ reblog all the stuff related to that here, but recently I made an agere-specific blog: @little-xtar
I’m also neurodivergent, queer, trans, and xeno! I might link my flag hoard somewhere at some point, but I gotta actually put it somewhere first.
I uh, do art sometimes, but I dunno if I’ll ever post any here... idk I might draw my kintypes at some point but that’s probably the extent you’ll see of that lol
since like 99% of the things on my blog are reposts, I’ve made the #xtarfall tag for all the Xtar Originals, you can find a list of all the other tags I use consistently here
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please DNI if you’re here to spread hate, you’re just wasting time- mine and yours <3
