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Natatakot ako kase

Baka mapagod ka. Baka magsawa ka. Baka matiis mo na ko. Baka mawalan ka na ng gana. Baka magbago tingin mo sa kin dahil mas nakikilala mo ako. Baka masyado ako clingy. Baka nakakairita na ko. Baka sakit lang ako ng ulo sa ‘yo. Baka di sapat yung mga ginagawa ko. Baka di mo nakikita na lahat ng ginagawa ko para sayo. Baka iwan mo din ako. Baka saktan mo din ako. Baka di mo na ko paniwalaan kahit kailan. Baka makahanap ka ng iba. Baka ipagpalit mo ko.

"NATATAKOT AKO KASI BAKA MAYA-MAYA LANG DI MO NA KO MAHAL."

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Ang ayaw ko sa lahat yung MADRAMANG TAO. Malungkot na nga buhay mo, ddramahan mo pa 'ko. Try mo na lang tumawa baka matuwa pa ako sayo.

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Yung malungkot ka na nga tapos makikinig ka pa ng malulungkot na kanta. Bakit nga ba ganun?

Yung kapag walang makausap at makaintindi sayo, at kapag hindi na kaya yung sakit. Mas gugustuhin mo na  lang mag-isa at damdamin ang bawat sakit na dinadala mo. Yung tipong sobrang sakit? Na walang kang ibang kakapitan kundi sarili mo lang tapos makikinig ka ng isang kanta. BOOM BALIW!

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Why does your partner never posted your photos together?

‘We don’t have to tell the world we’re in-love or whatever we are feeling for each other, the most important thing is that we know we love each other and I trust him.’—That’s right, but wether we like it or not, we are now living in an Internet era where most people spend more time on the Internet more than the ones closer to them. Even business meetings are already being done on the Internet nowadays. Many couples even meet each other on social applications. The Internet has provided everyone an easy way to connect to people, hit on them, to easily flirt and find a partner. How can some people ignore this issue when it actually affects relationships? I have seen couples fighting over photos being accidentally shown on their profiles. Husband and wives separated because of Facebook messages. What if you found out that your partner has been exchanging flirty messages to the exes and other people? Is it still just some skin deep issue? When it matters, it matters. Don’t ignore.

Let’s give you all the possible reasons why your partner never posted your photos together even if he/she’s always online, always uploading selfies, posting selfies with other people and never posted photos of both of you. (But posted photos of him/her and the ex before and I’m not trying to manufacture drama in your head, I just want to point out that if you give your partner a chance and others a chance to cheat on you, then it’s okay to play cool.) There’s nothing wrong about letting the world know about your relationship, if it’s not a big deal if he/she doesn’t post your photos, it’s also not a big deal to post it anyway

Your partner doesn’t want the ex to know that s/he’s already in a relationship. –it possible that your partner just broke up with the ex or yet still about to break up or still have feelings and there’s a possibility to get back together.

Your partner is trying to protect you from the ex to avoid the ex from making drama, insulting you and hurting you emotionally and physically.

You partner doesn’t want the world to know that he/she’s taken so s/he can still get attention from people who wants to flirt with him/her.

He/she is not proud to have you and only use you for sex and company.

Your partner is still not yet decided if he/she is ready into more serious step.

You’re not the only one.

Your partner is hiding something so s/he can prevent people from having a any contact with you. (Maybe s/he’s have a background on his/her exes that you are not supposed to know)

Your partner’s job requires him/her to be single. (Which you should know and explain you why, and trust you that you would understand)

Your partner doesn’t want to flaunt everyone your butt and have a way to flirt with you.

S/he doesn’t want to lose or get you followers because of him/her.

Your partner thinks it’s too cheesy to show everyone your photos together.

It makes people think s/he’s needy. (or less of a man)

But it’s still best to talk to your partner and tell your insecurities than making things up or jumping out into conclusions. If it bothers you, tell your partner. Don’t be scared, you’ll feel better afterwards.

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Do Long Distance Relationships Work?

Since many of LDR cases are unsuccessful, many people become pessimistic about it. I want to share my thoughts regarding LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS because no one can predict the future but we can make decisions base on  the informations we have right now. The moment you click this topic is the moment you doubted your relationship and since you’re already here, I would like to share you the reality, good or bad about about having a Long Distance Relationship.

Let’s start with Paolo Coelho’s quote:

"I’ve learned that waiting is the most difficult bit, and I want to get used to the feeling, knowing that you’re with me, even when you’re not by my side.”

-you have to get used to it, you must show your there with your partner wether you’re together or far away, you have to exchange positive outlook about the relationship. If Long Distance Relationships during the old era made possible by letters, then how couldn’t it be possible with this modern era, where both can exchange messages just seconds away? I know being together is still different but both needs to communicate as much as you can.That way, you might not be together but you can both feel each other’s presence.

-next thing you do is to deal with your doubts. Do you trust your yourself and your partner? Everyone is capable of cheating. We are humans, we have feelings and sexual urges.  If couples who are together managed to have extra affairs, so is LDR’s. And it is important to be transparent on everything you do, wether you are out with your friends, tell your partner you’re out with your friends, call or send a snap when you’re already home. In order to avoid the things from happening, you must set goals like meet few times in half a year depends on how you fix this with your partner. It’s good when you have something to look forward to that can hold you back yourselves from doing something stupid.

Set a future plan, you don’t have to be accurate but at least show that the relationship is heading somewhere.When can you live together finally, how long does it take? In 3 years?,4?5? It make things difficult and blurry when there’s no plan set. No one wants to wait in vain.

I will share you another Paolo Coelho’s quote:

“Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering.”

If you have already started having an affair and started acting weird, and you know you’re gonna do it again, it’s tough but you have to tell he truth unless you want to lie from further damage to another until you’ve reach the point that both can’t even look at your shadows anymore. If you don’t want to lose each other, keep what you still have left, respect.

-Give sometime to heal, develop a good friendship, and keep the communication with both. One day, if things are better, mature and different and when both haven’t found what you’re looking for wherever you are around the globe and realised that you have actually been with the right person in un-perfect time, then it’s still possible to renew what you have left then take it back, in a way you’re no longer just lovers but also friends.  And even if you won’t be together, you still have respect for each other as friends.

That’s how Long Distance Relationship works. If you’re asking me if it works, I can’t tell you that.

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I'am Broken now

I can’t breathe I want to but no air comes out I want to speak but no words come out Why do I feel... hurt? I feel betray I feel like love had forgotten me Like God only help those who have love My heart hurts My heart feels like a thousand needles went through my chest and now it’s bleeding slowly for me to die Why Why when I try to move my hands to touch the ground I can't Touch the ground Just to know it’s still there  Just to know I am still alive Broken  I feel like a broken doll  Shatter into pieces Pieces all over the floor With no one there to put me back together ...no one... Will fix me No one will love me No one will help me breath not feel things that is real not to even to tell me that I’m alive

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Hangover

Uminom na naman kami kanina kasama dawala kong bruhang kaibigan. Dahil nagtitipid kami o siguro’y gusto lang namin maiba, Emperador Light naman ang ininom namin. 3 lang kami nung una, naubos namin yung 1 litro tapos dumating yung 2 pa naming pogay na kaibigan at bumili pa ulit kami ng 2 pang litro ng Emperador Light.

Tatlong Litro. Sabog.

Hinatid ko pa yung mga 2 pogay sabog na kaibigan ko sa sakayan ng tricycle pagkatapos nilang malasing, (pag sabog uuwi na). Kahit medyo tinatahi ko na yung daan, nagawa ko pa ding makabalik sa apartment nung dalawa. Umiinom din pala yung mga kapitbahay nila sa labas, may handaan pa. Hindi ko alam kung anong meron, basta kumain ako dun at napa-shot din ng Emperador at ng Jägermeister bago bumalik. Pagkatapos ng pang-anim kong shot doon, dumerecho ako sa banyo para sumuka. Hindi ko na kaya. Minsan, sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na “Ayos lang sumuka, ‘wag lang sumuko.” Pero, sa pagkakataong yun, tinawag na ako ng bulagta sa sala. Di ko na kaya kasi alam kong pagkagising ko sa umaga, dadatnan ako ng hangover.

Kani-kanina, nagising ako, 1 oras na tulog naramdaman ko na. Sakit ng ulo, pagkahilo, photosensitivity, at kung ano-ano pang signs and symptoms na makakapagtulak sa akin na isumpa ang sarili ko kung bakit naparami ang inom ko kaninang hapon (‘tangnangyan). Ilalahad ko ang mga iba’t iba kong paraan para mapawi ang aking hangover: 

Rehydration

Iinom ako ng maraming tubig bago matulog at pagkagising ko sa umaga. Minsan, bumibili pa ako ng gatorade o kung ano mang drink na may electrolytes. Basta, makikita mo naman yun sa label. Ang alak kasi, diuretic yan. Ibig sabihin nun, inilalabas nito ang tubig mula sa katawan mo. Kaya ka ihi ng ihi kapag nagiinom ka. Nawawalan ng tubig ang brain cells mo at iba pang cells sa katawan mo kaya kailangan mong palitan yun. Isa pang tip kapag umiinom ka ng hard drinks, ‘wag ka nang mag-chaser ng iced tea. Diuretic din kasi yan. Lalo ka lang mawawalan ng tubig sa katawan mo.

Scrambled Eggs,  Bread

Nakanampowtek, itlog. Malamang, iba-iba tayo ng trip na pagkain pero subukan mong kumain nito kapag may hangover ka. Yung scrambled egg, pinapatakan ko ng liquid seasoning sabay konting paminta, ayos na yun. Yung, ilalim dapat malutong. Yung Protein na makukuha mo dito makakatulong yun para hindi ka masyadong masuka. Tapos dapat may Toasted Bread o kung wala naman, pwede kang kumain ng Sky flakes. Makakatulong din kasi ‘to para hindi ka masuka.

Aspirin

Dalawang tablets ng aspirin para mawala ang sakit ng ulo. Pero, kung kaya mo naman indahin ang sakit ng ulo mo, iwasan mo nang uminom ng aspirin. Baka lalong masira ang Liver mo. kaya di ko tinry

Kape

Diuretic din ‘to kaya dapat konti lang ang inumin mong kape. Yung mainit na tubig at yung caffeine, pwedeng makatulong para mawala ang hangover.

Maligo Ka

Amoy alak ka pa din, mabaho pa ang hininga mo. Malamig na tubig ang ginagamit ko tapos ang shampoo ko e yung Kahit ano, basta yung malamig sa ulo. Tapos medyo pinapatagal ko ‘to sa ulo ko. Syempre, ‘wag mong kakalimutang mag-sipilyo. Kawawa naman ang kausap mo.

Tulog

Minsan, kailangan mo lang itulog ang hangover.  Magpahinga ka. Pero ito ako nag tatype ngaun sa post na ito. Di na kasi ako nakakaramdam ng hilo.

Hair of the Dog

Kayo na lang bahalang mag-research kung bakit “Hair of the Dog” ang tawag. Minsan, ko lang ginagawa ‘to ko. Yung “Sundot”. Iinom ka ulit ng alak para mawala ang hangover. Sinbukan kong uminom ng isang can ng Red Horse, ayun nawala ang hangover ko. Malamang, hindi mo na mararamdaman ang hangover kasi malalasing ka ulit. Tapos, hangover ulit, iinom ulit, hangover, inom. Paulit-ulit lang. Tapos, pwede ka nang mag-apply sa Alcoholics Anonymous.

Ilan lang ang mga ito sa mga itinuturing kong “cure” para sa hangover. Madami pa yan. Sigurado akong meron din kayong alam na iba pang lunas para mawala ang hangover niyo. Pero, syempre, ang pinakamaganda mong gawin e huwag ka na lang uminom…ng marami. Sapat na ang dalawang baso ng beer o dalawang shot ng paborito mong hard drink kada araw. Hindi mo ito iipunin ng ilang araw at ibubuhos na lang sa sikmura mo sa isang araw.

Kapag umiinom ka…kapag nagmamahal ka. Malalasing ka, malamang. Masaya at may halong drama. Minsan, hindi mo rin maiiwasan ang hangover matapos nito…ang heartbreak shit.

Kapag may hangover ako, parang naihahalintulad ko din ito sa pag-move on mula sa masaya, magulo, nakakahilo, at sakit sa ulong sawing relasyon. Madami akong steps na ginagawa para lang mapawi ang sakit na nararamdaman. Minsan, iinom ako ulit, “Rebound” kumbaga. Pero, hindi ito ang solusyon, hindi ito tama para sakin. Magpahinga ka din, nakakapagod din naman kasi. Oras lang, dre.  Hintayin mo lang dahil tanging panahon lang ang makakapawi sa sakit na nararamdaman mo.

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YOU LEFT ME STONGER

Hey there, It’s been awhile, do you remember me? I guess you might not since I wasn't very important to you. You know, I spent so many days thinking about – what I did wrong. I questioned if maybe, I was at fault or If I was screwed up. I thought a lot about the things you said.

The things that were my fault, my problems. I took them to heart at first, but then I realized you were wrong. I realized that you are selfish and ugly on the inside. On the surface you pretended to care, but like a cancer. You amputate someone the moment you think they’ve gone bad.

You hide from the rigouts of life and only emerge like a parasite When everything is good – when everything is fine and dandy. I used to think that I was afraid of you leaving. But now I know, that you’ve left me stronger that I was before. You know, this was supposed to be an emotional whine; an emotional spill. Maybe I was supposed to cry tears and beg you to come back, but you know what.

I just don’t need you anymore. :D Thank you!