“Have you ever been that one person who has felt lonely to the point where you feel like you just want someone to like you for you? Or accept you for who you are? Have you ever sought love, affection and even attention that you would go out of your way to be with anyone just to get that? Growing up being someone who rarely gets out much and talks to the point where now that you have that chance you are scared to even say "hi" or "hello” that you bottle yourself up and become anti-social? No? Well that’s me, yup little o’ Kara Stokes.“
"I grew up in a small town where I once lived it wasn’t much of anything but at least it was something. Im now eighteen, fresh out of high school soon to be nineteen in a couple of months. I live with both my parents and my older brother Zye who’s twenty three and younger sister Ashley who’s only five. We had recently moved from Germany where as we now live in domino city been here for about five months now. I haven’t really gotten the chance to get out and walk about to take a look at the scenery but I guess ill take that chance, its been about three or four months since ive actually been out of the house on a regular biases. Usually id go to school and just come home and stay in my room for the rest of day not really wanting to be around other people. But mother says I cant keep living like that for the rest of my life so I was forced well more so encourage to take a step outside of my safe haven and explore.
Ive always dreamed of sharing my life with someone special and that he’d treat me as a woman should. No, I don’t expect him to have over wealth like that of a rich person but I want someone who can make me laugh when im down someone who will encourage me when things get tough. Some who will say I love, just someone who will take me in as me and nothing else. I decided to go downtown for a bit and just walk around when I notice a store that had cakes and decorations I realize it was bakery. My mother would bake cakes for our birthdays but these weren’t nothing like birthday cakes they looked more like wedding cakes. Oh how I looked forward to having a wedding and a cake on my special day. Any who, I continue my walk around downtown till I hit spots I felt that I wanted to check out then I chose to go and sit in a café for a while.
I then ordered a small tea and sat by a window as I waited for my small tea I drifted off into a daydream state as I watched all the males and females my age laugh and talk and walk with their special someone and then frowned when I remembered how much I wanted something like that to happen with me. But then something told me that I would never bee good enough for anyone and that ill forever be alone. I don’t talk to people as much I just keep to myself, all this not really talking to people started back when I was a freshman in high school. But oh well I would say to myself maybe one day ill get to be with someone like that till then its just a dream that will never come true.
"miss, here’s your small tea you order, enjoy.” The lady said
“Thank you” I said before she walked off