Kinda update about my situation at home and overall. Well, in very short. They still didn't fix the pipes in the boiler room. And no came to properly disinfect our apartment. And there's nothing else we can do but wait :/.
Anyways, I've been very mentally drained from that. Honestly. I was anxious, in fight or flight mode all the time. And I'm still recovering mentally. Unfortunately, I didn't manage to draw anything new, I'm struggling with sleeping a lot and I'm so so tired every day. I have ideas and I will draw them, I just need a bit more time than I thought. But!! There will be more Santino and Santino x John fanarts by me! I'm just very slow...
I put my mpreg Santino fic to the side for a little bit. He can rest while I write another fic. Haha, he's pregnant, how can he rest X)? I'm writing a fic that's more about angst and emotional pain. Also inspired by the flowers "Forget me not" and yeah there's gonna be emotional pain and just well... pain and tears. Dw, no one dies. I can't bring myself to write any of them dying bc then I'll cry pretty hard. But it's a sad fic, if it turns out how I imagine, it could be very good. I feel it, idk how to explain, maybe bc I'll project myself into both John and Santino. Especially in John this time. The way he thinks, what he's willing to do and sacrifice for Santino just to keep him safe. Safe from himself and whatever pain comes with him. Santino will finally show his emotional side in a way he never did before. And it'll break John's heart (mine too). I'm... I'm getting ready for this :').














