me as a white person talking about how whiteness is evil makes me... feel a little insane because i know people who don't know what i'm talking about are going to think im self flagellating when i'm not, esp because they have before. i have had people think i was holding shame and being self punishing when talking about this when i'm not ashamed of anything, because i don't use it as an identity.
which i think could just put people on edge more, but like i am not ignorant of my placement within the racial caste system nor do i reject that it is my placement and that my experiences are influenced and shaped by that.
it's just like... it is nothing more to me than that placement. i'm more than that, and i don't want to embody it so i'm going to do everything in my power to deconstruct it within me.
not from a place of shame, but because i know what whiteness is and i know who i am. and i don't want to be that. and i don't have to, even if i cannot stop it from being forced and thrusted upon me.
ykwim? i don't have to hold onto that. i can move through my life doing everything in my power to disassemble it within me and outside of me. matter of fact, it is in my own personal interest to not only distance myself from whiteness but, through community and action, break away from it.