A doodle that turned into something a lot more detailed than what I originally anticipated. I figured it was still sketchy enough to post here 8>
The famous trash rat on the right still belongs to @routaluonnokset
Underneath is a little thingy I wrote of this picture. Not too happy with it, but exploring these two in written form is always nice!
Yehochanan stepped outside on Lucian’s balcony, the long haired brunette following closely behind him as he left the door halfway open. Lucian’s apartment was pretty warm during this time of the year so might as well ventilate a bit. Yehochanan stopped right before the railing of the balcony and after looking through his pockets, he pulled out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter. He took two cigarettes from the pack and offered one to Lucian.
”You want one?” he asked, already lighting his.
”Oh, sure, thank you…” Lucian nodded, took the cigarette from Yehochanan and looked at it. He had been craving for a smoke all day… Maybe one of these days he’d be able to quit his bad habit but, for now, reducing it was the best he could manage. Yehochanan leaned closer and light up the cigarette in Lucian’s hand, then took a long drag from his and blew out a small smoke cloud that soon faded into the warm summer air. Lucian followed his example and soon felt a calming wave rush through his body, making all the muscles in his body loosen up and relax. That feeling alone was one of the addicting aspects that kept Lucian clinging on to his smoking habit even if he knew how bad it was for him and how it made him feel worse in the long run. The human mind sure was a strange and stubborn thing…
The two men stood in silence for a while and watched over the beautiful city view that opened before them. The sky had turned from a beautiful pink to a deep, inky black color as however many hours had passed – Lucian didn’t know anymore, he had completely forgotten his sense of time many, many hours ago. All the light coming from the streetlights beneath them and the buildings in the distance created a warm, golden and orange glow that blended into the black sky, creating a beautiful gradient. As the duo were multiple stories off the ground, the only noise that accompanied them was a cooling breeze that came and went as it pleased. For some people, the silence was uncomfortable, awkward, and spoke of a lack of connection between people, but for Lucian and Yehochanan, it was quite the opposite. For them, it was a much needed break from their otherwise chaotic and unstable life. And besides, sometimes all they needed was someone’s company, even if the silent kind. And they were fine with that.
”Hey…” Lucian suddenly broke the silence between the two men as he sighed and looked up at Yehochanan who, in turn, replied with an asking look on his face. ”Thank you for coming. I… I think I really needed this.”
”Don’t mention it”, the redhead replied and blew out another smoke cloud. ”I’m glad if my company suffices to ya. And y’know, I happened to be in the area so I thought to come and stop by.”
”How very considerate of you”, Lucian teased with a smirk.
”Well, you know me, the world’s most considerate man”, Yehochanan sighed dramatically and soon the two men chuckled quietly. Silence fell between them as Lucian turned his gaze back to the busy streets below them where he spotted a couple walking together. He hummed silently. Sure, he was only joking around, but it was actually nice that Yehochanan had thought about him and even bothered to come and see him. Lucian enjoyed his company and it was a nice thing to have every now and then, even if Lucian had a hard time admitting that to himself.
Lucian glanced at the redhead from the corner of his eye. He felt like… He could be himself, nothing more or nothing less, in Yehochanan’s company. Both knew exactly what kind of work they were doing, how it almost split them into two different personalities, and they had agreed not to talk about those sides of them. Instead, they had focused on what kind of people they were outside of their work. What they were interested in, what did they like to do in their free time… Lucian liked that. For once in his life, he like he could be just a normal human being instead of a horrible monster, who had taken the lives of so many people he had lost count, when he was with Yehochanan. Moreover, Lucian liked his attitude towards life. He had a tendency to live in the present and, while usually having a lot of going on at all times, he also knew how to take it easy without too much worrying. He had his spontaneous side to him as well, as he sometimes helped Lucian get out of his apartment and explore the city around them. Lucian also liked his sense of humor. It was dry and sarcastic yet surprisinlgy witty. Overall, Yehochanan was a man with a very rough and coarse exterior… Yet, somewhere deep inside of him, Lucian could feel the soul of a good, loyal man. Perhaps that was why he felt so safe and good around him…
”...Is there something on my face? And don’t say my scar - I know. That joke has been beaten to death.”
...Huh?
A familiar voice dragged Lucian back into reality as he quickly shook his head. Shit, he was staring again, wasn’t he?
”Ah, no, no, not all! Sorry, I just… Must’ve spaced out. It happens often”, Lucian sighed and quickly looked away.
”Got a lot on your mind?” Yehochanan asked, raising and eyebrow at him.
”When don’t I…” Lucian groaned and took one long drag from his cigarette before he smothered it in the ashtray. ”Sometimes I wish I could stop thinking altogether. Maybe then I’d actually get some sleep.”
”Yeah… I have my ways for silencing thoughts, but you wouldn’t like those.”
”Is that so? Do I even want to know?”
”Nope.” Now Lucian was really curious, but sometimes ignorance was bliss… That, and he had learned not to ask too much the hard way.
”Well, nobody’s perfect as they say…” Lucian huffed and then turned to face the redhead. ”But even so, I…” Lucian shut his mouth before he could even finish his sentence. He wanted to say so many things to Yehochanan, but the words couldn’t come out – or perhaps they didn’t even want to. He felt an ache in his chest… An ache that wasn’t quite what he usually felt when he was having one of his sudden ”attacks”… It was an ache he hadn’t felt in many, many years and the kind that he thought he would never experience again. Lucian relaxed his fist that he had clenched without even noticing and sighed. ”…I still think you’re a good guy, despite what everyone else might say. Like I said, you even bothered to come here.”
”Didn’t I tell ya not to worry about it? It wasn’t that big of deal, really”, Yehochanan snorted and finally put out his cigarette as well. ”...But thank you, I guess. You’re all right, too.”
”’All right’?” Lucian scoffed. Phew, he bought that. ”I think that’s the most genuine compliment I’ve ever got from you.”
”Oh, fuck off”, the redhead huffed and smirked. ”Anyway, shall we go inside?”
”Sure”, Lucian nodded. Yehochanan already stepped inside when Lucian still hesitated, his hand on the door handle. The ache in his chest was still there and it seemed like it wasn’t going anywhere soon.
He would have to talk about it with Yehochanan at some point. He wouldn’t be able to keep it a secret forever.
