I spend so much of my life overthinking and I never really get a chance to relax my brain. It never ends. I can't even begin to tell anyone just how mentally drained I feel daily and I genuinely think I spend most of my life complaining about one thing or another. I've actually hit such a low in my life, I cannot force myself to smile for photos... I just look like a fool. This Easter, however, that is going to change. It's time to turn over a new leaf and start making myself a happier person. It's time to stop being so scared of who I am, hiding myself away from the world. If there's one thing that's obvious, it's that I struggle to socialise with others. I literally don't know how to do it, I really don't. I always feel like I say something wrong or do something weird and I'm so, so over it now. My anxiety seriously needs to take a hop, skip and a jump out of my life because it's holding me back from so much. I want to start hanging out with new people, see new sights, do new things, and just start making happy memories. Living my life for today rather than worrying about the future and how people regard me. So, 2017, I'm about to start fighting back against the shit you keep throwing my way because I am so done with it. I'm done with being walked over and letting people use me as and when they need me only to leave me after. #yesthisislong #noidontcare #fightingmentalillness #iwillwin #happinessisinyou