cellophane rose costumes 4 halloween 2k14 ready GO
y'know i thought about this the whole time i was at work and i couldnt come up with anything creative apart from gavin's frankenstein and dreyden's the monster :')
clive's either not acknowledging halloween at all and being very grumpy at everyone or he's being some obscure philosopher nobody's ever heard of and getting rly mad that no one knows who he's supposed to be
zack and andrew arent in CR but im supposing they're probably trying to figure out how to make the absolute grossest zombie makeup they possibly can
wats ur opinion of phillip compared to the other frictional protags
hhhmmm. hm. HM. lemme see
(major #penumbra spoilers and #amnesia spoilers ahead)
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hm im not sure where to start
personally it took a while for me to really care much about philip, you don’t really know anything about him and you don’t learn much, his dad disappeared on him and his mother died, thats about all we know for backstory and we never really learn much about him other than what you can tell of his personality through his observations
he seems to have some background knowledge of survival skills and stuff but really you don’t know much about him
he doesn’t really make noises much, you dont have a sanity meter, so its like. you dont really see him getting disturbed quite as much, it doesnt feel quite so much like you’re in his head as you are with daniel so it took longer for me to get attached
with daniel you read his notes (in his voice, even) all along the way, you know how he got there you know how the whole thing went down you know how scared he was then, and how scared he is now, you see (well, hear) him snap in the flashbacks, you hear the anguish in his voice when he realized what he’d done and you help him all the way through the game hearing his little scared gasps and unsteady breathing when he’s afraid
so the whole time i felt like “it’s okay daniel i hear you i know how scared you are but we’re gonna be alright”
daniel’s also really easily startled, if a door blows open he makes a little terrified noise, he’s a guy who is not cut out for this and has to do it anyways, vs philip is like. notably disturbed and unnerved in the way he comments on things but he doesn’t visibly twitch or audibly gasp and it seems like he sort of has some kind of an idea of how to handle survival situations like this even though he’d prefer not to have to deal with it. makes you wonder what kind of life he’s had, but. anyway
philip’s father was involved with this whole mess but philip himself didn’t know anything about it so you don’t really have that same connection to everything i guess, you don’t hear philip’s voice hardly ever, you don’t really know how he feels a lot
but as the game went on i started identifying more and more with him like. his reactions started sounding like mine like “what is THAT….” when we find something horrible, “what is this thing???? i dont even care, i dont like it” “more corpses. great.” like you can see him starting to break down like “i dont know what’s going on i don’t CARE anymore I just want to get out i don’t want anything else to hurt me and i dont want to hurt anyone else i just want out”
i started feeling really bad for him and also really identifying with him as i said ‘cause i was scared out of my mind too i was like I FEEL YOU I WANT OUT OF HERE TOO
especially when he gets infected, that was what really moved me from “i care about this guy and i hope he’s alright” to “HOLY SHIT PROTECT THE PHILIP AT ALL COSTS” because not only has he been through all this shit, now he’s got a voice in his head mocking him the whole way
daniel went through hell too but when daniel makes progress his mind clears, theres that little noise that sounds like a relieved sound (i dunno if that’s actually daniel making that noise but it adds to the feeling of it) you see his sanity clear (and by extension his vision) so there’s this “oh thank god. I did it. I’m making progress. okay, let’s move on” feeling that it feels like daniel shares, and sometimes you get really pretty safe areas to look at and calm down in for a bit (and when you find those, again, daniel’s sanity clears up, so he’s calming down too)
philip doesn’t get that. he doesn’t have a sanity meter but when he solves something half the time it makes shit worse, you never know if something’s going to solve your problem and help you or if it’ll just end up killing someone or making something awful happen, philip doesn’t have that moment of success and clarity, he doesn’t get to rest, everything just gets worse and worse for him
daniel gets agrippa, who looks terrifying, but is really nice and encouraging and assures you you’re doing a good job (and if you choose it, you can even save him) - philip gets a few people talking to him on radios that may or may not be trustworthy who claim to have means to help him, but then he just ends up killing them before he can meet them
he finds hope that he might be able to finally find his father whom he believed to be dead - but then he finds him and he’s a corpse just like everyone else in this place
philip doesn’t just find corpses lying around he’s forced to kill people himself (people who are his friends) and sometimes corpses just fuckin fall from the sky and land on him
but he never breaks (until arguably the end, im not sure i understood the ending)
philip gets scared, you can tell in his observations even though you can’t directly hear him gasping or anything you can tell it’s getting to him in a bad way but he never gives up he just sort of accepts that he has to keep going
i dont think it’s that he doesn’t care or he sees this and feels nothing- i think it’s just he knows he can’t sit there and cry about it he has to just shut off his emotional response and just keep going if he wants to survive
the thing that stands out most to me with philip is honestly i think he’s innocent, none of this shit was his fault
like. oswald mandus is a piece of shit im not gonna talk about him much ‘cause ive said everything i need to about him already, im glad he’s dead, if the game had given me the choice between letting him live or die i would’ve killed him, i didn’t trust him from the beginning and i got so disgusted with him that by the end of it i was like IS HE DEAD. GOOD. GOD. DAMN FINALLY
daniel did horrible things, yes, but i believe that he never would’ve turned into that without alexander’s influence, i do think that the only reason he snapped like that was a combination of fear and desperation driving him into a corner, plus alexander insisting to him that it was right and good and the only possible way out, plus his own drive to live and protect his sister from the shadow too probably
daniel is not innocent, even though i believe at heart he is a good person, and i think when he made the decision to try and set things right i think he sort of repented in his heart, y’know, i think he probably never hurt another person again after he left there
maybe he even works hard to try to make other people’s lives better now, who knows what he did after he left there
i think there’s hope for daniel, i think he can be redeemed and i think he’ll be okay
i think even if mandus hadn’t killed himself he was past all forgiveness and deserved to die but thAT’S JUST ME
but philip like. he wasn’t part of this he just fell into it, he ended up in there by chance and was just trying to find a way out and find out what the hell was going on in there
he didn’t want to kill red. he never wanted to kill red. he never wanted to hurt him, i think it pained him to do it, his observation at the time was like “Why does he want me to do this??? Why??” and he looks at red’s stuff after it happens mournfully, looking at the way he was living and feeling sorry for him
i dont think philip got any pleasure or excitement from killing him, i dont think he wanted to do it, i think he felt terrible, but it was what red honestly wanted, and after seeing the way he’d been living, philip says that red is “at peace now”
i think he’s trying to tell himself that
i dont think he just flipped the switch and then went “alas. he’s in a better place now. oh well let’s go” i think it was more like… he really, really wishes he hadn’t done that but is trying to convince himself it was the right thing to do and red needed that
and he DID ask for it, the writing on the walls shows how badly he wanted to die, clarence even references it later, saying red really wanted death but they “wouldn’t let him”
but i think it still haunts philip, the nightmare hallucination sequence seems to imply that philip has some pent up guilt inside for doing that and i dont think he’s ever going to be able to forgive himself for it entirely (unless clarence really did make him forget about red, which he might’ve done, he said he was going to but philip didn’t comment)
i think that it’s not philip’s fault amabel died. i think clarence killed her through him. philip believed she was an infected monster attacking him (and even if you don’t do anything at that part the thing attacks you it hurts you i know because it cornered me like three times- and there is no other way out of there)
he couldn’t have known what was going on
yeah philip’s kind of quick to want the infected dead but can you HONESTLY blame him, especially since he’s got one in his own brain yelling at him and mocking him all the time
maybe the tuurngait were victims, maybe they were just trying to protect themselves but clarence at least doesnt sound nice or innocent in the SLIGHTEST, and from philip’s perspective- these things killed all these people, they killed his father, and now there’s one poisoning his own brain and trying to destroy him from the inside out, they’ve been chasing him the entire time he’s been in here, all the shit that he’s gone through is because of them (and we know philip’s feeling completely helpless and broken at this point)
of course he wants them dead. would you be mad at daniel if he wanted the grunts dead? probably not
he didn’t know that was amabel. my first thought was that amabel had been infected the whole time and never told me, and now she’s turned and i have no choice but to kill her to escape
and since red was infected and wanted so badly to die, it would probably be better for her to be dead than to turn into one of those
so maybe thats what philip thought too
i didnt know it was really just her. philip didn’t know, and how could he have?
i dont entirely understand the ending though. philip tells the tuurngait mind that he’ll save it but then he tells some unknown person to come and kill them all
i dont really know what his plan is. he said he hopes he’ll be dead by then, it feels like he’s just given up, like he just has no hope left in him anymore after all he’s been through and just wants them dead for what they did to him and everyone else down there
i dont feel like i understand philip completely but i dont think he did anything out of evil
