Every once and a while I come across a photo from my accident. This was cut off in the emergency room trying to save my life. Not exactly sure what was going on at the moment but whatever just don’t cut my boots off was all I remembered and was ready to thrown down with whoever did. I talked a lot of shit for someone who couldn’t move. - These photos really messed me up for a week or so and I would go into hiding on my cripple-versary but now not so much. I think about it more often when a random memory gets triggered from something I’ve smelt while training or just the recovery process in itself triggers memories as my brain “defogs”. I’ve come off all but one of the medications I was on in the hospital, which was a shitload. It’s interesting to see how it affected my body both on and off the meds and truly fascinating how it affected the brain. I think I’ve finally gotten rid of the constant rage. Don’t get me wrong it can still happen at the blink of an eye and I get weirder and awkward randomly but being aware of it happening is nice. Amazing that those meds are legal and the warning labels are a tad off on the side effects. I used to warn people that I was coming off the meds I was on from the accident so if shit got really weird and as long as I wasn’t hurting anyone just let me be cuz I working shit out with myself. Cuz there have been times when even I was like “WTF?! Was that all about?!” Still can’t remember about a week or so during the hospital stay early on. I remember the accident, the ride to ER, ER shenanigans, the floaty bed to circulate my blood, wondering if I was dead or alive, going into surgery, waking up after, some stuff, tripping balls on some hardcore meds, then going to Craig Hospital. Ok maybe I don’t remember all of it. Well 50% of something is better than 100% of nothing! #scirecovery #spinalcordinjury #quadriplegic #quadraplegia #tetraplegic #recoveryispossible #yoocandoanything #yoocan #challengedathlete #walkingquadriplegic