#you cannot continue

[badendbaeddel]

You're the kind of Victim that other Victims abuse to bury their own sense of victimhood.

You were sculpted to be a repository of other people's agony.

At this, and only this, you excel.

You'll always have a use, though it's nowhere near what you dreamed of.

Take pride in that, at least.

[badendbaeddel]

There's a type of self-harm... self-destruction really that often goes unnoticed, where instead of being loud and visceral with risky behaviors or injurious action, you simply... fold in. take a smaller breath and take up less space as you maintain the illusion of normalcy. You do a little bit more as others do a bit less and don't complain, you have the ability; it would be rude to make a big deal about it. You get less attention, less notice, become... less. A background character that slowly becomes a fixture, something that is only acknowledged when malfunctioning. you want to be helpful, don't you?l

[badendbaeddel]

[badendbaeddel]

There will never be a surgeon who can cut deep enough to scour away the emptiness you were born with.

[badendbaeddel]

You'll never be able to explain to them, in a way that they won't take as a criticism, that their words make you want to kill yourself just to see what kind of art it could inspire. Perhaps that's for the best.

[badendbaeddel]

(Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering) (Everything was worth remembering)

[badendbaeddel]

The screaming doesn't stop even after you seal the door shut and hide as quietly as possible. You never were very good at facing the Truth.

[badendbaeddel]

The fragments embed into your flesh as you slam your face against the mirror again and again and again. This time you'll break right through.