#youcaneathearts

[hearts-monitor]

Ok so catching up on everything I passively saw while at work, my friends told me and a few anonymous asks I've gotten, Hearts made a new blog under her name this time and has been fucking losing it.

First thing I'm gonna do is bring up this post she tagged to get peoples' attention and then deleted soon after. Unfortunately all I have that survived of it is this screenshot that shows the full post from Discord and a post by Mossy that was made in response to seeing it (and was probably what made Hearts delete it).

Mossy beat me to saying it but uh. I'm pretty sure not every neurodivergent person creates over 50 alts when they're not masking, Hearts.

Then there's this block list she posted.

Tumblr is a place to express yourself, discover yourself, and bond over the stuff you love. It's where your interests connect you with your

I'll link it here since she says this in it:

And I think for anyone reading, they should have the full list with them to follow along while I break this down. I have no reason to hide anything from it, it's fucking stupid. Everyone sit around we're doing group reading.

So first off she lists me and her obvious alt @critical-heart she pretends to be a troll account. I've had to reread this a few times because like the posts she made (and now deleted) on another alt last week that I commented on, she's getting incoherent. It's weird she puts my name in quotation marks like she didn't just use it the next line down as well as on multiple posts she made about me for the past few weeks. In fact I commented on that this morning.

She's also trying to pin every one of her alts on me, but not her obvious one? I really don't know. It's pathetic. Moving on.

DAMNNNNNN HEARTS. What did @brunossan do to you? I have never talked to this blog and I think it's obvious they're not an alt of mine. I'm honestly surprised since I thought this guy was the only person that genuinely believed everything you were saying. Way to throw them under the bus. Are you at the point where if you see any activity that's not one of your alts on your posts, you believe it's me?

Mossy made a post relating to their random inclusion as well. I genuinely think Hearts is just losing it and accusing anyone in her vicinity at this point.

Mossy has been discussing their side of everything which I'll probably be reblogging after writing this, and I feel more comfortable letting them their perspective and feelings on this.

As for Liquid, I'm pretty sure Hearts is talking about this post here from a month ago where Hearts sent him an anonymous ask to try and get attention from him and he uses sex lingo. Not how I'd talk about anything related to Hearts for sure, but definitely not what she's trying to insinuate in this list.

Gonna also state here (because I don't have a better place for it) that the fact that Hearts is neurodivergent and a lesbian have nothing to do with anything and are just things she's using to avoid criticism and make whoever she wants look bad. It's like if I wanted to bring up my dead family in every post as a gotcha. It's scummy.

And then there's Britt. Britt hasn't spoken about Hearts for a long time and has gone out of her way to block every alt that pops up so she doesn't have to deal with Hearts harassing her. Everyone else that has criticized Hearts has their own autonomy and doesn't just blindly follow Britt. It just feels like Hearts is still jealous of her and bitter that she's one of the only older names in that community to survive.

It's also weird that she's basically pulling a "no u" and describing what she herself has been doing. Hearts. Everyone, and specifically me, asked for an apology. You proceeded to double, triple and quadruple down at every turn to the point of doing this. Like I've told you multiple times including as recently as last month, things would only get worse if you kept doing this. You are less and less sympathetic and worthy of forgiveness for even the original thing you did to get heat on you the longer you stretch this stupid drama that nobody today really cares about out.

Hearts. You never left. Come on. Shut the fuck up.

Also way to try and imply that the blogs that criticize Lily are zionists by bringing up KP. Real good look there, Hearts. What could go wrong with that implication.

You did read the doc, Hearts. You defended Fennec as well as Lio Convoy for it alongside liveblogging the stream covering the doc in its entirety. Oh and you did that using your roux/enby alt that is also conveniently back and copy/pasting the same shitty blocklist you made.

The doc is how you know my real name, Hearts. Smooth move dipshit.

You didn't leave, Hearts. You never moved on, Hearts. You're still here, Hearts. People who actually move on don't come back to post all day like you did, Hearts.

Also just. You're really gonna lie and say a friend of yours posted this shitty blocklist that you turned the reblogs off for so nobody can actually see and use it? Did your friend also post everything else on your blog for you? This is stupid.

Don't really have anything to comment on specifically for this, but let's just remember this when Hearts eventually tries to use this as an excuse for her current 50+ alts or whatever new ones she makes in the future.

People have recognized the harassment campaign that's here, Hearts. The issue for you is that it's the one you've been running for the ENTIRETY OF THIS YEAR. They saw that you're nuts and have steered clear from you.

It seems like after all this time, literally only one person that's not just you using another alt listened to you and you decided to throw them to the curb over your own paranoia and lack of research.

You do know the truth, Hearts. That's why you've desperately tried (and failed) this hard to rewrite it and hide it.

Oh thank God we finally reached the end why did I make this a read-along. Hearts, maybe take your own advice here that you stole from me.

You've been the one that has been single-handedly trying to make a small, itty bitty space on Tumblr out to be this whole toxic conspiracy against you specifically. You've yanked people that wanted nothing to do with you into your drama and then harassed them when they didn't defend you. You're the one that has used Lily's playbook of insults and bullying tactics to shittalk the people you personally don't like.

Fucking give it up Hearts. Clearly your mental health has taken a negative turn after you've done this for months with no positive results.

P.S. here's the entirety of the blocklist post screenshotted in case Hearts decides to delete it or change it in any way under the cut.

[critical-hearts]

Hearts never worked for or talked to lio Convoy.

Lio Convoy was in Chuuli's streams covering Enby-critical and Envy-critical.

Y'all are bad at lying.

[enbycritical]

Someone should really check up on Foxhound? They're like... obsessed. It's unhealthy.

And I'd know a lot about being obessed and alogging somebody. ( I'm really sorry Chuuli. I was fucked up for that. )

I've been on vacation, like I said I was.

I dunno whose making these alt accounts and fucking with them, but it ain't me.

I left the community. I'm not rejoining the community.

I dunno what Hearts is doing. We're not friends anymore.

I'm done. Y'all won.

But y'all can't help but obsessively look for us in every single blog that mentions hearts.

It's fucking sad.

I tried to use @roux-critical instead, but it's taken. All my names got snagged up by some weirdo.

I only came back to apologize. I see y'all are still on that bullshit.

Funny, y'all never bring up me linking charaties when y'all talk about me.

Y'all need to let go.

Block the trolls sending you messages and making blogs to upset you.

[hearts-monitor]

You know I was starting to feel relieved that I haven't heard from Hearts in a while because I thought she finally took the hint. Either that or she wanted to try a "vacation" and get some sorta gotcha on me only to realize people won't talk about her as long as she isn't spamming unrelated tags and trying to get peoples attention.

And then I see that out of all of her 60+ alts she decides to come back on her most openly racist one. You know, the one that's supposed to be a "parody blog" of one of the people she already said some pretty awful shit to.

Reminder of the other shit Hearts has posted on this alt specifically.

If Hearts ever tries to bring up how she's been apologizing and that she's moved on or that "the old Hearts is dead" ever again, I want everyone to remember that while trying to cry for pity and attention and sympathy, this is how she behaves when she believes nobody is paying attention close enough. This is what she's doing simultaneously alongside crying that everyone bullied her for "nothing".

Fucking despicable.

[hearts-monitor]

Whenever Hearts wants to say something fucked up, knowingly spread lies or harass someone on one of her alts, the excuses are usually:

"I'm clearly trolling even though I don't know what trolling is, lmao you idiots took the bait."

"I shuffle and queue the asks I'm flooded with so you can't say I'm sitting here all day doing this."

"These anonymous asks that definitely aren't me do not reflect the feelings of the blog owner (that's also not me)."

The latter 2 never made any sense since. Let's pretend these fake alts genuinely aren't Hearts. Why jump through these hoops and either set up a queue or share asks you know are full of lies and harmful opinions and make yourself look bad. Why go through the effort to lower the quality of your blog, especially since you need to excuse yourself and explain away the suspicions someone might have of you every time you do it.

Despite these excuses being pathetic, nonsensical lies, she's been doing this as recently as yesterday on her totally real totally unbiased "confessions" blog that gets flooded with asks despite never tagging their posts or getting any notes.

The funniest thing about this one is that this is Hearts having a tantrum over getting called out for her whole shitshow from the day before.

So now Hearts trying to rewrite history and say that she got piled on because everyone else (specifically Britt and every other critic she doesn't like) is just so racist and fatphobic. Meanwhile in reality I'm pretty sure one of the only original takes Hearts had was slut-shaming Lily's avatars based on what she was wearing. That doesn't really feel more constructive, Hearts.

[hearts-monitor]

(please anon if this breaks thsnk you) It feels like if any of these accounts bring you up by name it makes it obvious theyre a hearts alt. In the nicest way possible you are not popular.

That's the whole thing. I'm a fucking nobody for these communities, and that's perfectly fine by me. I'm not setting out for popularity or status with either of these blogs. Both this one and @fennec-foxhound have been used to call out and document people who would've otherwise slipped through the cracks and tried to manipulate (and in Fennec's case harm) more people.

And me not really being relevant gives all of these Hearts alts a super easy tell. Hearts is so self-centered, she really doesn't get that beyond me getting occasional asks, the only person so hyper-fixated on me is herself. She is incapable of seeing the bigger picture and only cares about the things going on in her little bubble.

I mean look at all the self asks she's been pushing on the fake alt @cdcall-confessions-blog. Despite being a blog for people to confess their grievances with the "whole Lily/CD critique community" it all has to do with Hearts, me or Hearts' very specific, stupid idea of how the community is supposed to be. She always namedrops certain people nobody else gives a shit about anymore under the guise of an anonymous ask and a flimsy response from the blog going "Who's (insert name here)?" to pretend she's not writing her own asks lol. News flash Hearts: asking who someone is only works once before you make your alt look willfully ignorant and dishonest.

Plus there's shit like this she posts:

And like. Come on Hearts. This is gross, loser behavior. Nobody does this kind of shit to you no matter how much you wanna cry and scream that they do. The only people that care enough about me to use my real name are you and Fennec, and Fennec's too busy hiding under the ACC rock.

[hearts-monitor]

Why should the Lily Crit community all be friends? Why is it important? Can't they just be acquaintance working towards the same goal? I mean, it's not because I like a show or book that I will be friend with everyone else liking it.

So, Hearts, why would it be a critique of the community? That they aren't friends holding boundaries for each other.

But maybe it's that. Maybe it's the answer to Hearts.

They hoped to get friends by being part of the community, and it might have seemed like it in the beginning, but now that it's painfully obvious that they aren't, they lash out at everyone because they feel hurt and betrayed. Maybe they felt close to Britt and it hit hard when she took Courtney "side" in the arguments about "airing dirty laundry". From there, it only spiralled and could explain the growing numbers of alts...

Of course, I'm not excusing Hearts of their behavior or try to tone it down. Actions mean more than intent. But that last reblog made me think.

And also it's like the middle of the night right now, and I'm dealing with insomnia so my thoughts might not be coherent.

I do think you're absolutely right about Hearts going into the community expecting to become a big part of it and is now currently lashing out and doing all of this because she feels betrayed; especially with how these other alts paint Hearts "leaving" as her being bullied off of the platform or treating her like a martyr.

Whether or not she wanted friends out of it, I don't really know. With everything she's done in the past and how she behaves, it feels like she cared more about being a figurehead and earning recognition from the community than actually making any friends in it.

The big issue is that to make friends or be positively received, you have to be likeable, and Hearts is very much not that. She's shown herself to be petty, dishonest, ignorant and self-centered.

I mean, look at her now. The few times she's pointed out and pretended to care about anyone in the community, all she's done is use them, their trauma and the drama she's roped them into to paint herself in a better light and shit on the people she doesn't like. Never once has she contacted the people she pretends to have sympathy for to check up on them. And I know for a fact she hasn't because I'm friends with a few of them.

But yeah. I personally don't believe a community like that needs all of the people talking in it to be friends with each other, and it's telling that Hearts immediately expects them all to be. It makes me think she's genuinely dismissing any criticism towards her as simply a group of biased friends bullying her and nothing else.

Hearts. Is it really that hard to believe that people unaffiliated with me see you for who you are and have a problem with your behavior?

[hearts-monitor]

Is Hearts a Lily Orchard supporter now? I can understand not personally liking Britt (even though Hearts’s reason for it is stupid), but mocking a grooming victim who is Lily’s main critic because she stopped being your friend and called you out for victim-blaming is weirdo behavior. It gives off ‘I’m using what Lily said about Britt to make fun of her because she hurt my feelings and I might have sent CD anons asks about my twenty confession blogs, but I definitely don’t support her!!!’

I really don't know what Hearts believes or supports anymore. She'll go back and forth on supporting or disliking predators and neo-nazis; all based on whether she's more occupied with making whoever she dislikes look bad or trying to get heat off of her. I guess now she believes that doing all of the former on one of her obvious alts is enough to deflect with the other ones.

Hearts kinda just. Doesn't support anyone. She platforms whatever she thinks will make her look better, and I don't believe she thinks about it further beyond that. It all begins and ends at how it'll personally benefit her. She'll sing the praises or defend someone on one blog and then say the worst shit imaginable about them on another, Hearts has no allegiance to anyone but herself.

That's one thing that personally pisses me off about her. Just like Fennec, she never actually fucking cared about victims of the predators she tried to blog about. The moment her ego was hurt, they were immediately forgotten. In Hearts' eyes, making her look bad is a more unforgivable crime than harming minors or spreading bigoted hate. She's just another one that only cared about being recognized as a figurehead of a community, and felt that that one specifically was the easiest to achieve that. At least with Fennec he was able to come up with his own bad takes, but all I can find and see of anything Hearts says revolving around Lily is substance-less and repeating whatever everyone else says at the time.

But wait, about that last part. Did Hearts seriously send in asks to Lily about her alts? That's something I haven't seen and I can't confirm it until I do.