#youdontknowmymind

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#brokendreams #natureismychurch #lovesick #homesick #youdontknowmymind #youdontknowmykind #darknecessitiesarepartofmydesign #pagan #waitingforanangel #devil #ghost #weareallmadeofstars #wewearblack #ink #tattoos #E #taurus #selfie #earthishard 🖤

[friggin-blondie]

My cover I did of Chandelier by Sia a couple days ago

[friggin-blondie]

I feel sick. And all i want to do all day is sleep. I haven't seen anyone for more than half an hour since last Monday. I'm starting to realize i don't have any hobbies that make me interesting, and i'm losing the motivation to do anything creative. I don't see any reason why anyone would want to interact with me in any way. I can't get a job that won't make me hate my life even more. I've hit a rough patch....

[friggin-blondie]

SOmeone explain to me why people are so fucking stupid. And while you're at it explain to me why the people i met this year, and the couple friends i stayed in close touch with seem to be so much more mature and level fucking headed than those i kind of lost touch. I mean its really bothering me. Come back mature friends i miss you.

[friggin-blondie]

I've been doing a lot of thinking about life lately.

I can't decide if i'm have epiphanies or what. I jsut felt like writing it somewhere

[friggin-blondie]

Ahh i hate going home and then coming back and like wanting to be here and relax, but not wanting to be here and be by myself. Just to have that feeling of someone being in the room. Like nooo i don't wanna be alone yet, hold on. 

[friggin-blondie]

"I wanted to protect him, which I was sure I could do, even if I could not protect myself."

Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close

[friggin-blondie]

Hate the days where school seems so irrelevant. I mean thinking about it, its only ever been some finish line to cross and then what the hell do you do after that? If i had gone into university knowing for sure what i wanted to be... like a lawyer or a doctor or something, into a program that would help me get there then going to school would make sense. But what do you do with an English degree? I've never found teaching that interesting, working as a journalist or literary critic would be interesting i guess... but to be honest i would be happy working at a bookstore, or a restaurant. I don't need some fancy job to be happy. So what, these next four years purpose is so that i can have a paper to stick on a wall and say "hey i graduated university" and nothing more. it seems pretty pointless to me . Wish i could get to experience the university life without having to be in university. I love every aspect of it except for the memorizing and examinations and irrelevant classes that i would have never picked if i knew what i was getting into. Please let me go to class and dissect poems and the hidden meaning in novels, and talk about all the possibilities in the world. and the way life affects humans and the way they live. Let me meet people and enjoy friendships and life and love, and make experiences. Let me feel like i'm living instead of wasting yet another four years to stupid schooling.