Do you think Armand would join Louis at the gay bar just to check out the competition? Like to make sure the boy Louis was currently flirting with wasn't anyone who could take Louis away from him? And then Armand saw young Daniel and he instantly knew. He knew deep in his gut that there was sth different about this one. That this one was special.
But he ignored it and went back home and spent the entire night pacing back and forth and picking lint off the sofa. Scared to imagine what Daniel and Louis were getting up to but also vividly imagining it. And at the same time trying to convince himself that he was wrong. There was nothing special about Daniel. He was just like the others and it would end just as it had ended with the others. But then why was it taking so long? Louis had never spent this much time with the others.
And so he had to go down there and check and on the way his stomach was in knots imagining how he would find them. F*cking maybe? Or maybe asleep and curled up into each other? And Armand was sick. Sick to his stomach! But then he got there and Louis and Daniel were telling him how they didn't even have sex. They just stayed up all night talking. Which was somehow worse because he couldn't remember the last time he and Louis had enjoyed each other's company like that.
And Louis was going on and on about how fascinating this boy was and it was making Armand furious but it was also twisting his stomach bc it was confirming what he already knew. That Daniel was different. That Daniel was special.
And so Armand had to pick Daniel apart. He had to find out what specifically made him so special. But he wasn't finding anything particularly unique. And it was making him even more furious! Daniel was practically the same as Armand on the inside and yet somehow ppl (Louis) gravitated towards him. Like was this guy just special by virtue of his existence? Was he simply likeable? In a way that Armand had never been (and could never be) likeable? And could he teach Armand how to be that? How to simply have ppl's (Louis’) favour, approval and trust without having to work for it? Without having to earn it?
