warnings ā domestic abuse, crying mentions, drugs mentioned, withdraws mentioned, short one for inho
1. thanos
when heās off the drugs i actually think myung-gi would be more likely to and would be number one, however, thanos pupils are huge the entire series, so iām just basing it off of that.
i think pestering him in arguments is the quickest way for this to happen. if itās a short argument, heās just going to yell at you. however, if itās a longer argument and he thinks youāre pestering him and treating him like a child and youāre close to him and keep following him around, heās quick to just swing his hand out without a second thought and after the fact he still will stand there angry and upset. itās not until when he steps away and has a few minutes to himself that he realizes his mistake or until he sees a red mark littering your cheek that he realizes what heās done. and even then he doesnāt immediately apologize to you. if heās high heāll give you a half assed apology.
ābaby, iām sorry, iāll make it up to you.ā while caressing the side of your cheek. now on the rare occasion that heās not high, heāll stare at you in absolute shock after he realizes before immediately pulling you into a hug. in that hug itās like heās not breathing. itās like after yong-sik and his mom meet after a round of the mingle game, yong-sik staring into space almost, eyes wide open, tears slowly spilling over his eyes as his mom hugs him before he breaks down apologizing over and over.
thatās what thanos does. just a little less extreme where a few tears might slip and he slowly squeezes you tighter, afraid youāll slip out of his grasp. mumbling sorrys that you can barely comprehend because heās holding in a cry so his words start cracking apart, threatening to let out a giant sob once you squeeze him tighter and he starts to feel his chest getting wet with your tears and hearing your own sobs. he wanted to promise you and himself that he would never do this to you again, but thanos always made promises that he couldnāt keep.
2. myung-gi
i think if you pester him a lot (aka try talking things out like a couple should) he would also be more likely to hit you like thanos, but i think he just gets more agitated in general. heās already a pretty toxic guy to have as a boyfriend, heās not going to draw the line at hitting. he doesnāt want to push it to that point, itās not intentional, it just sort of happensā¦
it starts with him starting to manhandle you, pulling you by your wrist like youāre a doll if you piss him off in public. when youāre plain out arguing you notice he starts to practically rip out his own hair now, his fingernails digging into his palms. the moment he strikes you he doesnāt look at you, he either just walks away, still fuming, cursing under his breath, or he just continues to argue with you, not truly caring for what he did.
honestly, he has zero plans on actually apologizing to you. heāll either just go on with his day, talk to you like nothing happened the night before or heāll give you a small gift without officially saying that itās his way of apologizing. he has a pretty big amount of pride and he will not apologize unless you threaten to leave for a couple days or leave him forever.
āyouāre being dramatic! sorry? okay? is that what you want to hear?ā
or
ādonāt be so irrational. iām sorry. can you just move on now? i have.ā
he can be a good boyfriend but if you go down this route with him, heās not going back to how you guys used to be, and you can expect to have a red sting on your cheek for quite awhile. heās not proud of what he did and he doesnāt enjoy hurting you, and deep down he is sorry, but heās not going to tell you that unless you force him to. he doesnāt wanna lose you, but his pride is way too high. if you donāt want him anymore all because of a ādumb mistakeā heāll restart with someone new whoās not as āsensitiveā and ādramaticā as you.
3. nam-gyu
it was pretty hard to choose between nam-gyu and inho/youngil but i think due to drugs and stress, heās a lot more likely to do so than him.
i donāt believe he would ever hit you if he wasnāt high. however, if heās using or heās going through withdraws and you get into an argument with him, thereās zero hesitation before his hand goes up to your face. the argument doesnāt have to be a long one for this to happen either, you both could get two words out and then itāll just happen. but despite being high and not in his right mind, he would immediately grab your face with both of his hands, eyes wide, rubbing his hand over the red forming on your cheek before pulling you into a hug and pushing your face into his neck, holding the back of your head and rubbing his hands over your hair. the whole time his eyes are wide open, tears flowing like a waterfall out of his eyes while he tries to shush your own, his words shaky and his lips quivering. struggling to get any words out.
ābaby, ohāoh mā-my god. iām so sorry, sh, please donāt cry, mā so sorāsor..ryā..ā
he could hold you there with your head in the crook of his neck and on his shoulder forever. every time he feels the spot dampen he just grips you tighter and tighter, more and more apologies coming out of his mouth. the next day heād immediately make you breakfast (despite not being the best at cooking) and heād immediately shower you with love and kisses. it wasnāt just for you, but it was for his own state of mind as well. he genuinely thought he was going to die after what heād just done to you. it only gave him more motivation to stop using. he didnāt want to hurt you ever again. he wouldnāt hurt you ever again.
4. inho / youngil
i canāt actually see him hitting you but if and when he does he will apologize immediately after. pulling you into a side hug and rubbing your back. he assures you heās very sorry and then he kind of just moves on and tries laughing it off. arguing with him in general feels like heās trying to treat you like a child. he always just brushes arguments off and laughs it off, sometimes even saying that maybe you need to rest or lay down, youāve probably just had a long day and thatās why youāre so upset. it only makes you angrier with him, causing you to just raise your voice even more, stepping closer and closer to him and thatās when it just happens.
āiām sorry baby, you just pushed me a little. itās okay though.ā and then he moves on like nothing happened. honestly the way he says it makes it seem like heās insinuating that itās your fault and you two never mention it again. it always lingers with you though, but the second after it happened it was as if he just forgot. in fact to him, it never even happened.
