Hi there, Yzzy here!
Just wait a bit, I'll have to find a "well fitting" song for this memory that I had since a long time, since I started dreaming; uhm okay, here it is, enjoy:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VoVOms36_rk&feature=BFa&list=FLUtGdDpCBBc7zrbsaTDIeiw
This memory is kinda sad, without a particular good ending unfortunately. It talks about how hard can be to keep dreaming when you reach this huge step that not everyone is capable to overpass; it appears when you understand how many people care of you and of your ambitions, and how much effort, love or even money they spend only for you, not worrying about themselves anymore. There's always someone, even when you think that everything depends only by you and, unless you are an humongously selfish person, you will jam in a deep spiral of questions.
I'm trying to make that huge step atm, like many others, but it's not as easy as building a bacon bazooka, damn... What I'm trying to do, is to avoid asking to parents any kind of favor, unless they win at lottery ofc, and working for 50€ per week. This is gonna take ages, this is B.S. (US abbr. bullshit). BUT, all I've to do, is just to don't give up, I guess...
Jokes apart, I wonder which feels people who help me... duh... feels? (I'm sorry for my absurd english; I'm italian btw, with a f*cking american influence...). I mean, when I try to help my friends or people who ask me something, I just don't care how much effort or sweat... or money I have to spend to finally give my help, It is just... not important. Maybe dreams are just more important than money, for me, for parents, for everyone. Hey, here's the solution. Just be the fuck grateful!
I was wrong, thinking that there wasn't a good ending. I'm sure there is one.
...YES! i'm 50€ closer to the next step, hurray!
(-4.50€ for a beer)
(x.φ)