#z4l

[thissweetenamor]

smino hoopti tour merch t-shirt circa 2019

[whohateschris]

[laurynchristin]

< thoughts p.5 >

every so often i think back on my “first love” and i’m terrified i’ll never feel for someone in that way again. or i’m scared i will and they’ll leave like he did. it just seems like it did all this fucked up shit to me but still is good. he has a whole girlfriend which she seems great or it looks like they have a really good relationship and it’s just like damn, what i do. why couldn’t i keep the only guy i really wanted. or maybe i was just so young and the feelings at that time overhwelmed me cause maybe i wouldn’t even like him now. but i just remember how it brought me to my true self in a way through music which than lead to every else. maybe it was just a short period in my life where i’d experience love but not long enough for it to be an everlasting feelings. maybe i just deserves those months and the years of heartbreak that followed. this happened in like 2018 and i’m still hurting from it and i hate that i am. i hate that i can’t seem to 100% get over this one. i hate that i feel i won’t ever feel for someone else like that again. i just feel like i wasn’t worthy. well fucking shit

LMAOOOO i just remember when me and one of my gc were talking about love / relationship advice and i told my one friend how i never fully got over my “first love” which happened in 2018 (it’s 2020) now and sis really gonna say “yea you really gotta just let that go” LIKE IF IT WAS THAT EASY I WOUDLN’T STILL BE DEALING W THIS LMFAOOO

[carminajunipero]

Need a freaky college boo for frolickin’

[thedigitaltraphouse2]

Z4L - Smino ft. Bari & Jay2

[freshgarlicbread]

[nautitoohottie]