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Zanni

Hello! There’s been an influx of followers recently and I wanted to give a little wave to say I see you all and appreciate you ♡ here are my associated blogs and other accounts across the web

tumblr zannibythesea - Main. Art, fashion, cinema, aesthetics, celebrities, fandoms. A mosh pit. Best viewed in Archive format tbh.

zanniscaramouche - Writing focus. Find my Master Page (shh it's outdated I'll get to that soon) of posted fics, links to all fic posts and playlists, as well as information about my current WIPs. All posts here are zanni originals.

zannithinks - Side Writing. Inspo, ref, tips, rambles, memes, notes to self, etc. including WIP games and snippets. Mostly fandom related with a dash of whatever catches my attention. 

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Thanks for following ♡ Much Love, Zanni xx

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you know it's a Zanni Fic when....

cute boys kissing

diners with questionable sanitation

a little bit of blood

drugs drugs drugs

a touch of soft fluff

smut

Harry generally being hot AF

car chases and violence

angst

thank you @haztobegood and @hellolovers13 for the tags! I love seeing these going around! It was hard to think of my fics this way, but based on my most used tags on AO3 (Angst & Smut) here we are! Do you think there's anything I missed or should have added?

tagging friends @justanothershadeofblue @alwaysxlarrie @mercurial-madhouse

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Hollanov Recs...

I've got one more rec in my drafts (soulmate au's) and then I'm not sure what theme to do next! Come yell at me with suggestions! 💙🤍💙 🏒 🖤💛🖤

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Can I just say as someone with the same scar as Louis, it’s really heartening to see everyone loving in it. I’m not typically self conscious, but mine keloided and attracts a lot of questions and staring, and it can be tiring to constantly keep myself from caring about strangers opinions or my appearance - hard to wear a sundress or cute shirt sleeve without thinking my outfit is ruined by this huge ass scar LOL - but seeing peoples reaction to Louis makes me feel a bit better about it all, because I haven’t seen a single negative comment about it yet (and even if I do, the general positivity has already made an impact on me!) so yeah, that’s all!

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Optic Alpaca Cardigan- Pink

60% Cotton 35% Alpaca 5% Polyamide Overshot pattern Horn Buttons Super soft Made with care in Peru SW0033-P Rhamier is 6'1" and is wearing a

No one cares... but I CARE! And I found this ridiculously soft cardigan. Alpaca?! You're basically wrapped in a cloud Niall!

A. CLOUD.

Stop being such a stupidly soft boyfriend, my heart can't handle it 💖

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❄️ Annual Writing Self-Evaluation 2021 ❄️

I was so inspired seeing @haztobegood‘s answers! Thank you for the tag, darling ♡

1. Number of stories posted to AO3: 17 + 1 that will post tomorrow! 

2. Word count posted for the year: 285,714

3. Fandoms I wrote for: One Direction, Teen Wolf, The Witcher (TV) -> not posted yet

4. Pairings:  Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson Harry Styles/Liam Payne Harry Styles/Niall Horan Niall Horan/Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles Niall Horan/Louis tomlinson/Harry Styles/Liam Payne Naill Horan/Shawn Mendes

5. Story with the most: Kudos / Bookmarks / Comments : Keep Me Closer  (I am very surprised by this! Did NOT expect that fic to be anything special) 

6. Work I’m most proud of (and why): Singing Harmonies in Neverland's Embrace because I felt so strongly for these characters and I truly believe I nailed the stylistic choices I made to tell the story in the unique way I wanted it to be told. 

7. Work I’m least proud of (and why): Somehow, Someway I had a self-set quota to post 2x fics per month and I wrote this purely to meet that quota. There was so little heart, passion, or joy in this project and I think you can really tell when compared to other things I’ve done. It’s a reminder to me to write what I want to be writing, and not care about the rest. 

8. Share or describe a favorite review you received: @bluecolouredlou wrote me a goddamn essay after reading A Tear in the Sky , a fic that I am completely enamored with but didn’t get a lot of traction due to it being a rarepair. Their feedback and depth of emotional connection to the story was a huge humbling experience and felt like winning the Oscar of writing, because to make people feel has always been my biggest goal and they divulged every bit of emotion they’d felt while reading my work. It is the most precious gift anyone’s ever given me. (But also every single comment on The Ground Below is Above My Feet made me cry) 

9. A time when writing was really, really hard: August. The month that everything fell apart. I was writing so much up until then, but fate had other plans… Writing was a struggle from then on until the first week of December or so. I am so SO thankful to be reunited with my mojo. 

10. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you: Louis in  Your Pain (is mine now) was a complete surprise! I was not prepared for him to have as much baggage as he did, but the more I wrote the less that piece was ‘fun smut fic’ and more ‘smut fic with a side of angst’ and you know what? I aint mad. 

❄️ More Under the Cut

11. A favorite excerpt of your writing: The voicemail from The Ground Below is Above My Feet :

Between the sixth and seventh attempt it clicks. Harry’s not going to answer, and even if—

The beep cuts in.

“You won’t ever hear this.” Louis completes his thought. A hand comes to his hair, grips the front of his fringe. “Fuck, you won’t ever listen to this you fucking bastard because you think I’m trynna stop—” He licks his chapped lips, tugging at a fleck of peeling skin. “I just want to hear your voice one last time, please, I just need one last ‘I love you’ and I’ll… ” Louis gasps over a shudder, unable to breathe and speak and think all at once. “I love—” He chokes. He pulls the phone away with a muffled, “Shit.”

So much for the truth.

He stops in the loo to scrub his face with cold water before returning to Niall’s bedside.

12. How did you grow as a writer this year: Losing my fear of bad writing. The sheer amount of work I was able to produce was incredible once I got over this! If you’ve heard the story about the two groups making pots, I really wanted to be the group that made as many pots as possible. In my case, it was to write as many fics as possible, some better than others, so that through quantity I would discover quality. And it worked! I think my writing has developed immensely in so many technical ways, and it all comes down to being unafraid to write a mountain of rubbish to find the diamond within. 

13. How do you hope to grow next year: I’d love to write longer, more involved stories, starting with my Big Bang this year! 

14. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc): Uhm. hmm. I did mimic some of my writing style on cerain fics after a few poets I’ve read this year, the most well known unsurprisingly being Richard Siken. I also reread the Shiver series by Maggie S and woooow yeah, that was a big inspo for creating narrative flow and vivid senses. 

15. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year: Definitely! In Singing Harmonies in Neverland's Embrace there’s a small bickering moment with the crew over the radio, and really Liam’s general annoyance for his earpiece. I wear a radio 70 hours a week on a busy film set, so that was definitely inspired by my life. In Ground Below, when Louis is surprised there’s such a thing as moisturiser just for faces, that was also inspired by an interaction I had with an ex, and the way he hears the car crash was inspired from my own experience being invovled in and witnessing crashes irl. I’m sure there are more but those are the ones that come immediately.

16. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers: Open a document and write what happens. That’s it. Nothing fancy, nothing cheeky, nothing overly inteligent or original. Write what happens. THEN in your second draft, make it look like you knew what you were doing. This advice comes from Neil Gaeman and it honestly changed my approach to writing. You don’t need to have beautiful pros in the beginning, like drawing all you need are some circles and squares to know the general idea of it all. Only after you have the whole picture roughed in can you worry about going in to make it detailed and nuanced. 

17. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year: I am so hoping to finish my Big Bang: If My Heart Were Mine, a fic I’ve had drafted for two years now (previously known by it’s working title Called Your Name) As well as the time travelling idea I’ve had for awhile: Who Hung the Moon. Very recently I’ve become enamoured with this idea for a fic for The Witcher TV series and I’d also love to see that come to life, but it will be quite a huge undertaking!  Fingers crossed. 

18. Tag some writers whose answers you’d like to read. A lot of people I would have tagged were already tagged, so hmm… @risthebrave @larry-hiatus @jacaranda-bloom @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed @hershelsue @londonfoginacup @sadaveniren  

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MAY WE LIFT EACH OTHER UP

Thank you @phd-mama for such a wonderful idea! Sadly the month got away from me so I could not spread love all month long (although I did try to power read some shorter fics and serial-comment as much as I could!) and I hope you have all enjoyed the quotes from fics @allwaswell16 is reading as much as I have! 

Inspired by that, I’m handing out flowers to every person who’s ever reblogged, liked, commented or kudos on a fic or fic post. A flower for those who leave nice things in the tags and those who interact with wip posts to encourage the process. You’re all a necessary part of this whacky fanfiction machine. Here are some people who are major factors in my productivity levels, and people who inspire me to keep creating and have fun 💕

🌻 @mercurial-madhouse  My lovely beta, supremely smart and bursting with creativity. You inspire me every day and I adore working with you. You bring so much balance and structure to my work, the fine-toothed comb that really picks things out and makes them shine. Somedays(most days) I swear you can read my mind. Thank you for every second of effort you’ve put into making my stories come to life! Your own writing inspires me to be more imaginative and unafraid to dip into the niche. 

🌸 @lululawrence Such a wonderful human! You give off such great energy, I am in awe of how passionately and avidly you commit yourself to creating fanworks for the sheer pleasure of doing so. You remind me to write fic for myself first and foremost, everything else is second. No pairing is rare enough. 

🌹 @kingsofeverything The absolute mammoth list of your discography is awe inducing. Truly I can only hope to have the pleasure of reading them all. Your variety is so inspiring to me to try new and different things. The way you portray the human condition is phenomenal. A real inspiration all around.

🌼 @haztobegood An all around beautiful person. Love sprinting with you and seeing your new works being posted, reading your fics is always a good time! The comments you leave are so kind, thank you!

🌷 @theisolatedlily LILY! A thousand flowers for you, the most supportive commenter out there! You go ABOVE & BEYOND to another galaxy level, I swear. The feedback you provide is instrumental to my continued creativity and desire to pursue writing. Thank you x300million. Your brilliant usage of a large vocabulary and your love of grotesque detail truly inspires me to dig deeper while writing.

🌺 @soldouthaz A literal angel! Continuously taking the initiative to help others in the fandom (betabase was such a good idea!) and so kind to everyone. One of the first writers I read when I started in the fandom and I am so glad because you hooked me in to stay! 

🌻 @falsegoodnight Another of the first authors I first started reading in this fandom. Your hard work and dedication is so inspiring to me, and reading your fics is always a lovely experience that lets me truly escape. Thank you for being so wonderful! 

🌸 @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed WOW! You are continuously encouraging me to work on my wips via tag challenges. I havent responded to them in awhile(life has me by the throat) but know that those tags are VITAL to my sustained writing effort, and I eagerly await tagging you multiple times a week once more. Thank you for always thinking of me to tag! 

🌹 @fallinglikethis A heart of gold! A true darling, thank you for your recording of my work, it was a true experience to hear. I cherish every comment and interaction between us! 

🌼 @nevergooutofstiles Seriously where do I start! You are a serial commenter and it’s fabulous. I don’t think you can truly grasp how much each word in every comment you leave means to me, both those on the fic itself and the tags left in the fic posts. Thank you for your continued support! 

🌷 @londonfoginacup Such a sweetie! I am so humbled by your lovely words and I am so pleased to know you enjoyed some of my work. Thank you for all that you’ve done for the fandom, as well as the support you’ve personally shown me in tags and comments. 

🌺 @louandhazaf Lovely! Through your own work you inspire me to keep writing rarepairs, and I can’t wait to read more of your stories to give back on all the comments you’ve left on my stories. Thank you for being wonderful! 

🌻 @disgruntledkittenface Astonishing! Tagging you back and forth keeps me going, I can’t get enough of seeing your upcoming works and the motivation to create new ‘last lines’ and ‘sunday snippets’ is a much needed boost. Thank you for thinking of me when tagging!  

🌸 @brightgolden  My very first beta! You helped me so much on my first few beta experiences and are such a treat to work with. Thank you for your continued support, I am so proud to see you writing now and can NOT wait to read your new fics! 

🌹 @homosociallyyours Always so kind in the tags! Thank you for reading and commenting and boosting my works. You’re such a wonderful person to follow too!

🌼 @larryyouknow Sincerely wonderful! Always checking in and sharing your enthusiasm for my work. Thank you so much for getting in touch, I adore talking with you! 

🌷 @oldbay-on-apples Sincere and sweet, thank you so much for you feedback and support! 

🌺 @runaway-train-works Thank you for the love of rarepairs! It keeps me going on works that are truly passion projects. Your comments are so thoughtful and intelligent! 

🌻 @bluecolouredlou So lovely to hear from you and to see your interest in my works! Thank you for being so kind and encouraging.

🌸 @allwaswell16 A goddess! Wow there are few words I haven’t used yet, but you are all of them: lovely, sweet, kind, sincere, beautiful! You are constantly creating, be it fic, rec lists, or monthly round ups. A true legend. Thank you for all that you do, and thanks for your support! 

🌹 @solvetheminourdreams Cutie! I love seeing your works pop up, and I am so eager to devour them soon. Thankful for the encouragement and tags in fun little challenges. 

🌼 @harrystinyshorts So much fun tagging you back and forth and reading what you’re working on. Thank you for thinking of me! 

🌷 @makethebestofwhatyouget​ Hello darling! You are a ball of energy and passion, a real shining light! The excitement you exude is addicting. Thank you for sharing it with me and always pushing me to keep going! 

xx 🌺+ SOOOO many more that I couldn’t find the tumblr accounts for or sincerely forgot in my overtired daze. This month has kicked my butt, as my vague absence may have implied, and I miss interacting with everyone. With another season of work coming to an end, I can finally settle down and commit myself to what truly brings me joy: fanfic! In the next month I hope to read all of the beautiful fics that have come out recently (read: the past 7 months) while also fulfilling all of the fic festivals I seem to have signed up for 😅

Here’s to a wonderful summer & beyond for all of us! 

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Zanni's Creative Goals: June

Finish The Warmth of Your Body draft

Self-beta said draft

Post complete fic for the @omegaharryfest

Work on fic for @1dcountryfest

Thanks to @louistomlionson for the indirect tag through the @writerscornercafe gc ♡ a little late, but these are my focus points for the rest of the month!