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[new-tella-us]

The Fall

If you were to ask Sam about who he sees as the strongest brother of them all, you might be surprised to hear that he wouldn't choose himself. He struggles to pick between his youngest two brothers. Normally, Damien would seem like the no brainer but Matthew has his own strength.

After all, Sam wouldn't be here if he didn't.

Looking back at it all, maybe he shouldn't have been so mouthy with his father. Maybe if Sam held his tongue more when he was an adolescent, he wouldn't have angered his father so. Maybe he wouldn't have been launched out of the window pane.

Back then, he thought that was it. He was doomed to fall into the Decaying Sea below. His life flashed before his eyes as time seemingly slowed down around him with nothing he could possibly do to stop his descent.

Then someone caught him.

Barely hanging off the lower balcony, gripping the pillar beside him until he cracked the stone, the brother Sam least expected caught him and managed to barely hold onto his arm until the eldest could be brought in.

Don't ask him how Matthew was able to hold onto someone twice his weight, Sam wouldn't know. All he knows is in that moment, Matthew proved to be stronger than any of them.

[new-tella-us]

What it means to be an adult

If there is one thing I will say genuinely positively about the SM characters, it's that I feel like they do feel like at least the beginning of real people that went through things. There aren't too many scenes where we can see this, it mainly appears when they interact with each other (which isn't that often) but it still paints a picture I like.

For as much as I criticize Erik for picking on Matthew in the prologue or James for being unnecessarily harsh with Sam. When I look into their backstories, it makes sense. In some way, these two were forced to shove their true personalities down. Personally, I believe they both went through some form of adultification.

Of course James is lashing out at Sam when pressed. Of course Erik is deflecting and bullying when he feels called out. Of course they're acting more childish as adults, they were never allowed to be kids. And yet, despite that, I can't call them childish flatly. They still act like adults and are surprisingly well adjusted. Their childishness just leaks sometimes.

And I've waxed on and on about how well Matthew was written so I'll keep this brief but just his lack of lashing out and punching down makes him seem more mature than his older brothers. He has a strong ability to talk through his feelings even if sometimes he can be a bit sassy.

They've all grown so far above the people who raised them with little to no guidance on how.

I criticize Micky a lot but, while I would have loved to see a longer story where this subject is given the care it needs, I will give her the flowers she is due. The fact that I can see all of that from solely canon content means that Michaela did a good job at getting some complex subjects out in a short amount of time by simply putting the right information in the right spots and letting the readers connect the dot.

[new-tella-us]

The Nun and the Demon

I listened to mood music for too long.

Note: No this isn't a change to how demon eyes work in my AU, I thought the black sclera and yellow eye would be dramatic for this piece. The tail is also a piece of 'not canon', I just thought it would be neat.