#zephiroth

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I sure hope y'all like dragons cause I've got an handful more

if u are curious abt them theres some snippets in their FR bios

(in order: Leopold, Gheppio, Tibault and Wraithseer, Zephiroth )

[sobredunia]

let me leak it let me leak the unseen asks

I guess?

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Your words keep playing in my head

Echoing over and over again And I just can’t stop myself From thinking u meant every word And that I’m never going to live up To what I think I was to you

I’m unsure

Why

I was ever accused of those things Because they aren’t going to leave me alone And now I am starting into the unknown Recesses of my own mind Trying to find out what I did To deserve something this harsh.

I stop,

And observe what’s been going on, Get my heart to the side for a minute And look things over with a clear head

Look over some things I’d been avoiding like the plague But I’ve been noticing over and over again And see that I’m not stuck in an ideal situation But that iteration doesn’t consume me Since I know that if I just push through this I can overcome anything that I put my mind to

I can’t say that I’m perfect And we won’t see eye to eye all the time But I can’t take the way I’m made To feel like it is my bad, my fault at all times I can’t seem to get over How little I can tell you Because I’m unsure how you’ll react

I’m scared.

I’m scared you’ll throw me away Like a piece of some forgotten memory If I make you feel like I’m not 100% into you And by your side at all times. I’m unsure what would happen if I open my mouth More about the type of situation we just went through

Seeing as it almost ended in you leaving all night And I can’t control the welling emotion inside me As I feel like anything I want to talk About with you is never the right time Or is always the wrong thing to do

You always say things that make my heart sting I don’t think you notice it but You do it on a daily

You’re constantly talking about you’re friends and boasting about them so much I feel I could Never live up to the expectation that lies there To be as good to you as they are Or mean just as much

I’ll admit it I’m jealous about them, But only because I’ll probably never be as strongly seated in your heart as they, And I know this forthwith. It never leaves my mind.

I’m unsure how to put this but I’ll try.

I’m not mentally stable either and you seem to forget But that fact has been the same since the first time we met And I’m uncertain just how much you actually care

When you’re upset I make sure that I’m next to you holding your hand

When I’m upset or sad half the time nobody is there Next to me since you disappear into your own mind You don’t notice the things that are playing Hackysack with me in my own

I get silent, I get sullen, I can’t talk since it’s usually Me beating myself about something you said Or something stupid I did Or just you saying something will pull up A full on flashback and I hear nothing at all That’s going on around me for minutes, Maybe hours on end.

I’m bad with words, it takes me a few times to get everything out the way I feel it since I feel everyone around me all at once It’s really hard to just focus on my emotions and My thoughts and what I am feeling right then And have them not blend with someone else From another room Or even with yours

I can hear u full well when you’re upset And I get that you can’t hear me And it’s not like it’s something I can’t live with But It’s more something I’d love to work on With you if I could That would be great

Since I always try my best to make sure to not Make you feel down, But I realise I’ve been sacrificing myself Letting you know what’s going through my mind In order to do so And that’s not okay.

I mean this only to let you know what I feel and what’s on my mind I’m just putting everything out there. There is still more but, That one is going to have to be separate and private.

I really do truly love you, That I cannot deny And people who are in love drive each other crazy We were already crazy so We need to be careful to not drive away the love.

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For the short fic thing, how about Strifesodos for 1. soulmate AU? <3

Sorry this took so long ;^^

Genesis was not one who often craved a hard drink. Sometimes he treated himself to a little glass of red wine every now and then, but never the whole bottle. 

Today he could drink a big bottle of Mideelan whiskey and it probably wouldn’t help. His hands still shook a little bit and he felt positively miserable. 

How could he just walk away like that? It wasn’t at all like what he heard it was supposed to be like. 

He heard the knock and rubbed at his temple. 

“I’m not in the mood Angeal,” Genesis said. 

“Wrong person,” Sephiroth’s deep baritone replied. Genesis didn’t turn towards him, but didn’t stop him from entering his office. 

“I came to see how the Icicle mission went,” Sephiroth said. Genesis would have laughed if he wasn’t so miserable. Having a soul mate was having an affect on Sephiroth after all. 

“It was fine,” Genesis said, “despite being freezing.” 

“Then...something else is the problem,” Sephiroth said. Genesis fought not to be sarcastic. Sephiroth was making an effort to be kind. He didn’t know what to say for a long time. 

“He...he walked away,” Genesis said at last. It was all he could think about right now. All he could think to say. 

“I don’t understand,” Sephiroth replied. 

“He...walked away,” Genesis said. 

“He...oh...ohhh” Genesis realized Sephiroth understood and breathed a sigh of relief. Then he felt confused when he heard tapping on a PHS. 

“What are you-”

“I am texting Zack,” Sephiroth said. 

“What? No!” Genesis said. 

“He’s...better at this than I am.” Genesis just sighed and decided to wait. 

“Seph!” Zack gasped as he skidded to a halt, “what’s up.” Sephiroth spoke softly and succinctly, explaining the situation. Genesis didn’t really feel up to talking without snarling at this point. 

How could he just walk away? How dare he!

“Oh,” Zack said, “ooooh.” Genesis rolled his eyes. Yes, let’s pity poor Genesis because his soul mate literally bumped into him and walked away. 

“So...” Zack started, “Who’s the lucky guy?” Genesis huffed, but couldn’t really stay mad forever. 

“He’s a trooper,” Genesis sighed, “I...I didn’t see much. He was getting off the elevator and bumped into me. He...he almost lost his helmet.” 

“Genesis,” Zack started. 

“He has blue eyes, blonde hair, caucasian-”

“Genesis!” Zack nearly yelled. Genesis blinked irritably. 

“I know you’ve been out of town...but the troopers have been working overtime to cleanup a building collapse,” Zack explained, “Most of them are asleep on their feet. You could have thrown a brick at him and he might not have noticed.” Genesis blinked. He had a lot of emotions running through him at once. He finally registered one and hung onto it. 

Precious dear is exhausted. 

“I need to find the trooper profiles,” Genesis said storming out without a thank you. Besides...he didn’t really want to see Sephiroth and Zack smooching again. 

“STRIFE!” 

Cloud jerked up and hit his head on the top bunk. He groaned and rubbed it gently and he got to his feet. It was more dangerous not to obey a commanding officer. 

In his blurry vision he saw someone in a red coat standing next to CO Oeuver. He stood at attention and waited for what they wanted. 

“Only blonde on the floor Commander Rhapsodos,” Oeuver said. Cloud was really too tired to care about the conversation. 

“Cloud Strife?” a silkier voice said, “I do believe you’re the one I’ve been looking for.” Cloud registered that this particular man smelled very nice...and had an irrisitable warmth around him. 

He leaned forward and strong arms caught him before he fell. He could almost hear his CO admonishing him, but that silky voice shushed him. Good. 

“He’s just fine,” it said, “I suggest taking him off the duty roster for the rest of the week. He will be coming with me.” Yes! Cloud squeezed the chest he had his arms wrapped around in approval. He liked the laugh he got in return. 

Cloud was tired, but he knew this was good. 

Sephiroth checked back with Genesis when he got word he was back in his office. 

Genesis was lounging on his office sofa, reading out loud ever so quietly. A blonde head of hair was poking out of a blanket tossed over both of them. It took Sephiroth a moment to realize Genesis was letting someone lie down on top of him. 

“My report will be late,” Genesis said, glancing over at Sephiroth. 

“I expected so,” Sephiroth said. He smirked as a hand slid out of the blanket and pinched Genesis’s cheek. 

“Keep reading,” the blonde grumbled.

“Of course precious,” Genesis said and continued to read as that hand petted Genesis’s face in apology. 

“Get used to that,” Sephiroth said as he walked away. Genesis smiled. 

[meltybpdfairykei-blog]

Having him resting on my lap is the best thing ever. Looking down and knowing he’s there is wonderful. How did I get so lucky???

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I try so hard to be there for people when needed, and it hurts me physically when I cannot help, so I try to not get attached to people online as much as possible.

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It’s really bad when obviously you’re feeling horrid and bad but the one you think might actually care doesn’t respond to any of the very obvious hints about it and just ignores it.

Like yes, I just slapped it all over social media. And I’m not acting myself at all. Fucking cuddle me!!!!

Thanks for walking away instead. Like okay cool.

Is this just one sided…..?????? I just wanna go cry honestly. Just cry for a while night and sleep all day.

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i really need to figure out how to get motivated, but what is motivation???