((Quick ZerAxl drabble I did last night while waiting around on set to film.))
I think, deep down, Zero’s always had a secretive little soft spot for me. From the day we met, even.
Maybe I’m just that cute.
And . . . and so I might’ve had a bit of a crush on him for about as long, even if I didn’t really understand it at first because I didn’t know what a crush was.
Even still, getting to where we are now . . . hasn’t been easy. For a long time, Zero was pretty closed off. And maybe I did push him a little too much about it some days. At the time, I didn’t really understand.
But now . . . now I know why he is how he is.
He’s been through a lot. No one can blame him for hurting.
He still keeps things to himself sometimes. I know that. And there are times when I still wish he’d let me help him a little more when he’s being stubborn.
But he wouldn’t be Zero if he wasn’t stubborn.
Still, he’s loosened up a lot over time. He trusts me. And I trust him too. Zero was . . . the first person I was comfortable telling about Lumine. Maybe it’s because of his own past. I . . . I knew he wouldn’t hurt me or make me tell anyone else until I felt safe doing so.
And . . . and he was the first person I was comfortable being exposed around. It’s still something I’m a little shy about sometimes, depending on who I’m with.
It really means a lot.
Being accepted for who I am, imperfections and all. Being trusted. Being able to love, and be loved in return.
As much fun as it is getting intimate, whether rough, kinky, or passionate, sometimes . . . just being together is what means the most. Those moments when we’ve linked up together, when our thoughts have melded and neither of us has to say a word. Just peaceful quiet, and a warm, calming nest of love and care and affection. When we’ve been in the bath or the shower together and just held one another. When we could kiss, and he close, and look into each other’s eyes. When our corebeats can sync, and our breathing can fall into the same rhythm.
When we can sleep in each other’s arms, and be safe and loved.
When there’s no hurts or worries or threats.
Just us.
Just being together with a loved one.
There’s no feeling more amazing in the whole world than being as one like that.
