Sometimes(alot of times) I think about my old history teacher who took into account my food restrictions for her family meal plan because upon learning I wasnt fed at home she started sending me home with leftovers from her family.
She was a good teacher on top of that. Like one of the few teachers who could actually get me to do work on time.
My puppy has excitement based reactivity(yes, he is a lab)
This leads to a jumping problem. However! If he's on your shoulders or chest, he'll try to climb you.
To combat this while we work on the jumping, I shoot my arm out and catch him with my forearm and redirect him to the side of me.
So Hickory just stands perched on my forearm. He's grown so used to this that if my forearm is held out for whatever reason, he jumps on it.
This is apparently, not great. He did it to my dad this morning while holding a cup of coffee, he dropped it in suprise, and I've now been banned from this life hack </3
Like, god forbid a girl doesn't want her tits scratched up. Anyway, I think the problem is my dad. Just get good, if your daughter who you have almost a full foot on can do it, you can. Just get good, how'd bro get so surprised he dropped his coffee? How is that my fault?
I'm innocent, Hickory is innocent, I should get to have my eagle dog.
Complaining about something super miniscule on tumblr my beloved <3
My parents are out of town so all the petcare responsibilities fall to my brother & I
My dogs aren't allowed upstairs. You know whats upstairs? My room, with my computer and most of my entertainment methods. "Why don't you bring your computer Downstairs?" Anxiety inducing even with my parents gone, unfortunately, so I refuse.
My dogs both are very active, needy dogs and one of them cannot be trusted with free reign. He eats drywall.
Again, active breed, he's a lab AND a puppy, he needs to run around and hates feeling trapped so I feel guilty kenneling him for long periods of time. He's also very unused to not having people around.
We've had him since he was but three apples tall. Since then he's never been alone long. Someone is always with him. He gets very distressed when left alone.
"You mentioned your brother, why can't he do it?" He's very very very adverse to being downstairs, explosive when overwhelmed, and not very tolerant to the dogs. He refuses to be downstairs for very long so who has to? Me. He gets whiny if I ask.
"Why do you want me too, you know I hate it" "but I have to play WoW/League/Baldurs gate :(" "ughhh im soooo bored" "oof [blank] just asked to hangout and I've been ignoring them recently so I really should..."
^ various excuses. He always says smth like "Why can't you just got upstairs too, dawg? Fuck it, let him whine." And...like...? No? Ever heard of animal cruelty?
He does NOT like our dogs, really. Our mom got Hickory against his advisement so he spitefully refuses responsibility to him when possible. When it's not possible he isn't very tolerant to Hickory. He's admittedly annoying. Because he's an actual puppy. He's supposed to be annoying. My brother, when annoyed, is an asshole and just shouts at the boy, ignores him when possible, or kennels him.
He's much more polite with Angel but he doesn't like that she's stubborn(she's a Great Pyrenees mutt, she's gonna be stubborn) and how much she begs for food.... yk? Normal dog behavior? So he gets unreasonably bitchy about it and towards her.
So... petcare falls on me and my brother? More like falls on me.
This mean I spend a disproportionate amount of time downstairs.
I'm so fucking bored all the time. There is only so much TV and YouTube to watch, Tiktok and Tumblr to scroll, or fanfic to read.
Guys I'm tweaking. I'm so bored.
I dont do well with being bored, genuinely, I've done crazy shit out of pure boredom.
I unfortunately hold grudges like nobody's business
I am STILL mad about that one time months ago when my mom lectured me about healthy eating as I was actively making turkey lettuce wraps for my dinner.
Talking about some "You and your brother eat so unhealthy, all you eat is junk, you should be more careful. You do know you're high risk for diabetes because of your father and grandfather have it, right?" I WAS MAKING LETTUCE WRAPS IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES??? TFYM I 'only eat junk' FUCK OFF??? IT'S BETTER THAN EATING HALF A TAMATO AND SAYING "I'm full UwU" BECAUSE THAT ED YOU HAD AS A TEENAGE NEVER WENT AWAY.
My snacks of choice are BLACKBERRIES AND CUCUMBERS AND POMEGRANATE SEEDS AND DRIED SEAWEED
"Oh but that's not all you snack on!!!" GOD FORBID A GUY HAVE THE OCCASIONAL SUNCHIP AND BROWNIE, OH MY GOD, KILL YOURSELF
I'm out here trying to have a NORMAL CONVERSATION, and she started blaming my MULTI-YEAR TOOTH ACHE I'd BEEN BEGGING TO GO TO THE DENTIST FOR THE ENTIRE TIME on eating junk food. Like...shut up, actually???
I joke about feeling dizzy, loops it around to blaming it on me not having a balanced diet, NO SHIT of course I don't have a balanced diet WHEN ALL YOU MAKE IS CARBS AND BEEF
I swear when I move out I will never eat spaghetti or steak ever again. ...unless pookies are really craving it then ig I can suck it up.
OF COURSE I DON'T HAVE A BALANCED DIET WHEN HALF OF WHAT YOU MAKE LITERALLY MAKES ME SICK! HOW IS THAT MY FAULT?
"Oh, just make your own food" Oh, I'm sorry, why didn't I think of that? OH WAIT I DID! I'm not allowed to use half the ingredients in our house or else I'll yelled because "it's for the family" or I'll get a lecture about how expensive groceries are and how I just eat soooo much AS IF HER FAT ASS HUSBAND DIDN'T EAT FIVE MEALS IN ONE NIGHT ONCE! But NOOOOOO I'm the PROBLEM!
AYGVUHUIAYSFGIYUSGFHUI I HATE HER SO FUCKING MUCH BECAUSE WHAT?
THATS NOT EVEN ALL!!
By the way the convo was ended with her telling me to "not eat all the turkey" ...I wasn't going to????? There's a WHOLE CONTAINER FULL in the fridge???? I couldn't eat it all if I wanted to???
AGHHH MOTHERS UGH
Saw one of those "what did you survive this year?" posts and I'm not trauma dumping in someone's reblogs so.... 2025 recap because its been one thing after another I swear
January: deeply deeply depressed and disappointed I'm alive considering I attempted suicide like the month before. I'm also sad because I realized my boyfriend has never called me pretty and I'm scared he thinks I'm ugly but according to our friends he constantly tells them how pretty I am.
Overall fine but little did I know what was coming for me....
ALSO my favorite soda got ruined for me.
February: my boyfriend and friend got really close and constantly spent time together and everytime I wanted to hangout it was "can't I'm with [friend]" or "I'm with [friend] but you can join!" and I'll admit I maybe took it harder than necessarybut....
It comes to a head on valentines day when he ignores me for five hours straight and I cry like 6 times in school. I'M WORRIED. I message our friend to check on him, he replies to friend instantly, I crash out, he apologizes and says he'll make it up to me. The date to make it up to me turns into a group hangout with the friend who he's been ignoring me for and that friends partner(who is also our friend.) He keeps encouraging me to go to bed because I seem delirious and tired(I've cried my eyes out 6 times at that point and drank 0 water.) I decide to leave the hangout and go to bed because I'm pissed off and feel unwanted. I sob for the seventh time that day before finally going to sleep.
The rest of the month is fine outside of teen angst
boyfriend is attentive
March: my phone breaks and my dog dies.
More on my dog dying my dog dies because he ate SOS pads and my parents took him to the vet on their own and putting him down without letting us know anything that was going on or letting us say goodbye and lowkey just coming back home and telling us they put him down.
I am still mad about it.
My phone dying means I get to talk to my boyfriend less.
April: New Phone!! Yay!!!
Boyfriend is distant and borderline mean with his teasing. Talks to friend more than me again.
My parents are fighting and I'm in the middle of it trying to play both sides because my brother used to be my moms emotional support but he invested in boundaries so now I have to be overly involved with both of my parents.
My mom is now forcing me to sleep in her bed because my father is sleeping in the guest room
Oh hey new friends!!! One of them is a trans chaser and keeps calling me her twink.
May: My attendance is so bad I'm being threatened with not moving onto the next grade level and my teachers are all separately giving me the generic "you're too smart to throw away your education like this, I know you know the material, your scores on the assignments you do do say so, why cant you just apply yourself and do all your assignments?" speeches.
I confront boyfriend about being distant again, he blames it on me.
My friends are accusing me of being an addict because of how often I'm high. they aren't incorrect but they also aren't correct.
I feel like really ugly
June: boyfriend asks me stop getting high, I agree.
Every other sentence is "I miss weed"
I break up with my boyfriend for two seconds(weeks) and then take him back because he was confused and sad.
My mom decides to homeschool me(this is bad)
July: I was with my grandparents for a few days and my grandpa was very interested in fatshaming me
can't remember anything happening other than that that and hating the rest of the month, I was just like sad for no reason I guess.
August: good month!!!
Everything is jolly except for the fact that I'm lowk reentering the ana trenches
I spend my birthday with my friends and it was pretty cool, so yay.
I may or may not be having a sexuality crisis
I get really into kpdh
I spend like two weeks with my grandpa whom is a raging alcoholic and also same grandpa who fatshames me from time to time. It's surprisingly pleasant!
My aunt gives me a few driving lessons so hey there's that
I meet an older girl who also has a shitty boyfriend and and we bond
September: Still highkey not eating lolsies!
Older girl is officially my best friend and I officially have a crush! I help her through her break up with her shitty boyfriend.
I realize I'm a lesbian and decide its unfair to my boyfriend to keep dating him so we break up.
She and I start flirting, we do NOT have an appropriate age gap.
The flirting is very much not appropriate
She tells me she wants to take her time with me and not jump into anything and is overall super cool and fun and sweet and pretty.
I meet one of the pookies
October: I got groomed, rip
Still starving myself
I REALLY get into kpdh
I meet pookies! Plural!
My parents leave on a trip
My phone breaks AGAIN
November: my parents come home!!
My mom has a psychotic break or something, gets arrested twice, one time the state decides to press charges on my father's behalf
My mom starts living with her parents a few hours away until the arraignment.
December: my mom is still being fucking crazy
My dad is sending me back to public school!
Life is pretty peaceful for now, I'm just tired and stressed like all the time. The smallest things set me off, it's kinda embarrassing
